#nathaniel headcanons

NATHANIEL HEADCANONS 🫧

⦮ ⦯ loves seals! he thinks they are cute sea cats. he has developed a small obsession with them and has bought a few plushies and photos to decorate his room. he really likes talking about them as if they were part of a reality TV drama show, and Castiel makes fun of him every time (he secretly loves them too, but teasing Nat is more fun than sharing a hyperfixation)

⦮ ⦯ he doesn’t look like it, but he secretly loves vampires, especially Castlevania, because it’s a mix of everything and nothing. he sees himself in Alucard and takes any criticism of him very poorly. he also thinks he’s the one who truly understands his character and hates seeing online discussions regarding Alucard

⦮ ⦯ he is a dry texter. it’s not that he takes days to respond no, he replies while you’re still typing. it’s just that his messages are so emotionless that no one can tell what mood he’s in. of course, his favorite emoji is 👍 or 🙄 if he’s feeling fancy

⦮ ⦯ he buys cute headpieces for White :3 commissions a small artists because he treats them like collectibles. White usually doesn’t care, most of the time she’s purring and posing because she enjoys the attention. Nat then posts all the pictures on his instagram and even has a separate highlight for White and her hats

ARMIN HEADCANONS 🔮

𓏲ּ𝄢 if you’re friends with him, you will know your MBTI, full zodiac chart, which Pokémon you’d have on your team, your Greek god patron, etc. he doesn’t like labels or being put in boxes, but he adores this kind of “silly” stuff because it gives him another excuse to argue about that his typing is far superior than others

𓏲ּ𝄢 of course, he plays Overwatch with Nat. they are HORRIBLE at this game like stuck in bronze/silver for the past two years type horrible. Armin mains D.Va (if you’ve ever played with a chaotic D.Va main, you know what I mean), and Nat mains Baptiste or Ana. Armin has already used up all his timeout bans, and his account is on the verge of being permanently suspended, so he only types things like “keep yourself safe! >_<”, “have a nice day <3”, “I won’t fall for my teammates ragebait!” (meanwhile, Nat hears the worst slurs and curse words known to mankind on Discord)

𓏲ּ𝄢 starts liking popular trends after their prime. 67 isn’t funny anymore? for him, it’s a new lifestyle. brainrot was popular a year ago? he doesn’t care, tung tung sahur is his new mentor. everyone hates Dubai chocolate? buy him five of those. he does it just for fun, but slowly starts liking it unironically

𓏲ּ𝄢 everyone sees him as immature and childish, but deep down he is the most grounded among all MCL characters. he knows what he likes, what he’s good at, and he has his best friends and his brother by his side. because he doesn’t take life too seriously, he feels free to do whatever he wants. at the same time, talking about his real emotions is challenging for him, he doesn’t take them seriously, thinks his problems are nothing compared to others, and struggles to identify what he’s feeling, so he hides behind being goofy

Genre:Angst maybe

Warnings: May contain !!!SPOILERS!!! for Nath’s route if you don’t already know what exactly Nathaniel is dealing with? So if you haven’t gotten to episodes like 15 or 16 it might give it away but I think at this point everyone knows.

Reading guide: Y/N= Your name, H/C = hair color, E/C= eye color, S/C= Skin color, etc.

Notes:This oneshot is based off of episode 1 for Nathaniel’s route! I really wanted to touch on his inner feelings and what he might be thinking underneath the whole tough guy front he tries to put up. I felt like there was a lot more to it than we actually saw. 

Nathaniel makes his way down the street. He breathes out a long, stress-filled sigh. It had been a long week for him. Multiple meetings with his “boss”, who had him going all over town to finish deals, collect payments and recruit new “customers.” He was tired, and you could see it on his face. He had been told he wouldn’t be needed for the next few days, but that was always bound to change, so he didn’t count on it. He had just finished his last deal of the night, which unsurprisingly happened to be in a really shady part of town. Some months ago, he would have pissed his pants right then and there but after doing this so many times, he walked through these neighborhoods with confidence. The local thugs and buyers knew him and knew him well enough that the last thing they wanted was to get into a fight with him. He wasn’t invincible, but spending the past few years taking boxing classes and going to the gym definitely benefited him in this specific situation. He sighed again, a sleepy wave taking over his body. All he wanted was to get to his house, in the shower and right into bed with Blanche curled up by his side. Soon, he’s walking past the cafe windows. He’s caught up with the beautiful idea of sleep, when his thoughts are interrupted by a voice. 

“LET ME GO!!”

He stops and turns in the direction of the voice, and peers down the alleyway. He can’t see clearly due to the lack of lighting, but it’s no issue to make out the figures of a woman, and two men who are nearly double her size. He sucks his teeth, wondering to himself what girl in their right mind would decide to go down an alley alone at this time of night. He begins walking towards the figures, getting more agitated once he sees the two men refusing to leave the girl be. As he gets closer he recognizes the men, as the two goons he sells and does deals with occasionally, and rolls his eyes. Of course they’d be the ones he’d find in a situation like this. 

“She told you to let go,” he states, firmly.

The two men turn around to face him, puzzled but challenging looks on their faces. The taller man takes a few steps forward and questions, “And who the hell are you?”

Nathaniel gets a bit closer, about to respond, before he inspects the woman to find…you. 

He could almost swear that his heart stopped beating for a moment. You clearly haven’t noticed him yet, but as soon as he sees your fear filled (E/C) eyes, he knows. How could he forget them? The eyes that once looked at him with so much love, the ones he looked to when he was scared, when he felt weak? The eyes that kept him safe? He could no longer count the amount of times he had dreamed about you after you’d left. Less often now, but still every now and then. He’d go to sleep, and suddenly he was staring into your beautiful, bright orbs. 

Only a few seconds go by while he’s trapped in his thoughts but it feels like eternity to him. His face contorts into something of sheer rage as he reveals himself to the two men. 

“LET HER GO IMMEDIATELY!” He is surprised by the volume of his own voice, not realizing how enraged he had actually become. The two thugs back down as soon as they see his face in the moonlight, instantly feeling intimidated. They all knew what would happen if they crossed Nathaniel. Again, he wasn’t invincible, and he sure as hell wasn’t the boss, but neither one of them wanted to get on his bad side, for fear of ending up like the last guy who did. The shorter man puts his hands up in defense. “S-sorry man, we didn’t realize it was you!” 

“Yeah, man. Chill, we’re leaving,” the taller one says as they walk backwards towards the end of the alley before fully turning and sprinting away. Nathaniel has a look of disgust on his face as he watches the two of them leave, but the look is instantly replaced by a look of worry as he stares at you, your arms hugged tightly against your body and looking down at your feet. Your breathing is shallow and you don’t seem to be fully aware of what's happening. He walks up to you, and speaks in a gentle but firm voice. “Are you okay, did they hurt you?” 

No response.

“(Y/N), can you hear me? You must be in shock…” 

You respond, telling him you’re fine before your face perks up in confusion. “Wait… You know my name?” You finally look up at him, trying to make out his features in the darkness.

“(Y/N)... It’s me!” He says, stepping closer to you. Your eyes widen at the realization. 

“Nath?? Nathaniel?!” You exclaim. His eyes soften for a brief moment at the sound of his nickname. Sure, everyone called him that. But you had a sweeter tone with it, and would say it with love. But he pushes those memories to the back of his mind.

“Yep, it’s really me.”

You seem to zone out after he says this, which causes him to worry, but he doesn’t let that show on his face. “Are you okay? You look kind of in shock…”

“N-no, I’m fine. You came at just the right time, I guess…” you say. His stomach clenches at the defeated tone in your voice.

“Yeah looked that way. I’m sorry those assholes were bothering you,” he feels anger rising up again at the thought of the two men bothering you, and he has to stop himself from thinking about the many ways he wants to rip their throats out. He knew the guys he dealt with were shady, and he shouldn’t have been surprised to see them harassing someone, but the fact that they were harassing you, made something click inside him. 

‘“Well if it weren’t for you it probably would have turned out worse. So, thank you.” You look up at him, studying his face as if for the first time, your eyes travel up and down his body, noticing the drastic change in style from when you’d last seen him. You knew he always had a more edgy taste. He’d show that once he had gained freedom from his parents. But he looked just like your typical ‘bad boy’, and you were surprised. 

“You’ve changed quite a bit. I had a hard time recognizing you at first,” you say, still analyzing his face. He notices your eyes dart to the scar on his lip, he’s silently amused at what must be going through your head at that moment. He knew you tended to go with the more crazy, illogical ideas. 

“Yeah, but you’ve changed too!”

“Maybe but, not as much I think,” you reply.

He’s amused by your sudden fixation on his transformation over the years, but something tells him you aren’t all the way there. “Seriously, you just got attacked and you’re trying to play a game of ‘who’s changed more’?” He asks, raising a brow. 

He can see that what just happened is bothering you still, and diverts to another subject.

“You know, it’s cool you’re back in town. I’m surprised, I wasn’t expecting to see you again.”

He says this coolly, but there’s a hesitant tone in his voice. He sees you, he can clearly make out your entire form, but it doesn’t seem real even still. In the back of his mind he keeps thinking that somehow this is a dream, he’s going to wake up and be back in his apartment like it always goes. But the chill breeze on his cheeks let’s him know that this moment is, in fact, real. Your voice brings him back down to earth.

“Yeah, I’m really happy to see that most of the old gang is still around after all these years,” you say.

“Ahh, the gang… There’s definitely one, and unsurprisingly you’d be the one who managed to run into the only scumbags around.” He says ‘scumbags’ with a little more force than he means to, but you don’t pick up on it thankfully.

“Well, I’m glad you were there… seriously…” He can see your mind starting to drift off again.

‘Hey, why don’t we focus on something else?”,he suggests. But you don’t seem to hear him. “(Y/N), should I call the paramedics?” He tries not to let the worry show in his tone. 

“N-no, I think I’m just feeling a bit dizzy, that’s all.”

“Do you want me to walk you home?” 

“No, no… I’ll be fine, but thanks. I should be able to manage the rest of the way alone.”

He grins at this, a small laugh escaping from his lips. He had always loved that about you, even when you were scared you still tried to put up a strong front. He knew that you were still freaked out, but he didn’t try to persuade you to change your answer. He’d let you have your confidence. 

“What a warrior!”, he says while laughing still. “But seriously, if there is ever a next time, run for your life, or scream for help. It’d be a shame for you to get your nose busted before your first week of class even starts.” 

“Oh, come on! I was totally gonna beat their asses!” He laughs in response to this. “ Maybe you’d like a demonstration, Nathaniel?”

His heart flutters at the sound of his name on your lips again, but he quickly regains his composure. “Ooooh, she said my whole first name. I’d better run before the trouble starts,” he says, but then continues. “But seriously, next time run. Don’t try to go looking for a fight.”

You nod your head, and the two of you continue on with your conversation. He asks how you’ve been doing, how long you’d been back. He’s relieved to hear that it’s only been a few days, but still a part of him is disappointed that you didn’t try to get back in touch with him. He understood, but still, wishful thinking he guessed. He learns that you’d enrolled in an art program at the university and a small smile appears on his face. You’d always had a liking for art, even though you weren’t particularly artistic yourself. He remembered you talking about the possibility of that being your focus in school, but shortly after that conversation the two of you decided to part ways. 

Your small talk comes to an end, and he walks off briskly in the direction he came in. He can tell you’re standing there for a moment before he finally hears your footsteps begin to trail off towards the end of the alley way. He desperately wants to keep walking, but something holds him back. He looks over his shoulder to see you disappear around the corner of a building. He tries to force himself to keep going, taking a few steps further down the street, but curses himself when he’s turning around to follow you. He knew he wasn’t going to let you actually walk home alone, but he definitely tried. 

He follows you from a distance, far enough that you don’t hear him, but close enough to be at your side if needed. His eyes watch you closely, and his heart aches at the sudden urge to hold you close. For so long, for so many years you had been his safe haven. You were always there to help him, and at times you were probably the only one to be there for him. Every moment. He had no idea what he would have done throughout high school if you hadn’t been there by his side. He often finds himself wondering, if he would be in the predicament he was in now if you had been around to help him. More times than he could count, he found himself wishing you had stayed, wishing he had found some way to save your relationship. Over time, those wounds grew smaller, but tonight it was as if they had been freshly reopened. He couldn’t recall the nights he had spent having a panic attack, or those first few months when he was constantly paranoid and on edge. It was like his world collapsed as soon as you’d left it, and while he knew it was unhealthy to feel that way, to put that responsibility on you, his feelings didn’t change about it. He had a slight resentment for his friends distancing themselves from him, but he didn’t blame them. He probably would have too if he were anyone else. But you were here and you didn’t know. You didn’t know about the situation he had gotten himself in, you didn’t know about the questionable people he was constantly around and you didn’t know that he was a literal criminal whether he liked to refer to it that way or not. You didn’t know and you didn’t judge him, and as small as that was, it meant the world to him.

You soon made your way through the gates, and he watched as you walked across the campus grounds. He followed you up until you got to the dormitory building and released a breath that he didn’t know he was holding. He stayed there for a bit, just staring at those doors. He hated that all he wanted to do was run in after you, take you into his arms and never let go. He hated that after all these years you still had this effect on him, he hated how small you made him feel. 

He turns on his heels finally and makes his way back to his apartment slower than he initially was. The image of your face runs through his mind over and over again. The light smell of your perfume still wafting through his nose, which he noticed was the same perfume you used before you left. Your hair was still the same length, your eyes still had that same sparkle and his name on your lips still sounded just as sweet. While everything and everyone was changing around him, you were still the same and he loved that. And for such a fleeting moment, he could swear that everything was okay. Because you were here. 

Some disclaimers: (Under the cut for length)

“Can you do a headcanon for Castiel and Nathaniel's reactions to Candy dating Priya or Candy talking to either boy about girls or coming out as bisexual? Either of these scenarios is fine by me but I would like to see their reactions during UL if you can. Thank you for everything you do! I hope this one is fun for you or is at least interesting” 

I apologize that these are short but I mean there’s really not much I can say with these types of requests? The main characters will love and support you regardless of your sexuality, gender, etc. I’ll probably stop doing these types of requests because I feel like they get repetitive, I feel like everyone’es reactions would be mostly the same since the MCLverse is a pretty accepting one when it comes to the main characters ;-; hope you enjoy them though i hope they aren’t too repetitive <3

Castiel may be surprised only if you had never mentioned being attracted to women before. I don’t think our candy ever really expresses her attraction to women before UL and even then it’s still not outwardly expressed unless you’re actively playing Priya’s route. He might say something like “I didn’t know you swung that way,” which i think he might have actually said in the game. If you’re dating Priya he might be a tinyyyyy bit jealous lmfao. I mean when he first sees us he’s already got this weird passive aggressive thing going on so I could only imagine it getting worse but it’s never about the fact that you’re with a girl. Assuming he might still have some feelings for you he’d probably act a little cold towards Pri for a bit but it’s never anything too serious to where it’s causing an issue for you two. All in all though he doesn’t care and the way he treats you doesn’t change because of this. He supports you 100%.

Before you listen to these songs please know that these are all my personal opinions and may not fit your personal image of the character, which is totally fine! I just feel like some of these songs people may not agree with so just wanted to say that first :) The individual groups/artists may not be relevant, just that specific song

Castiel

Now I’m not sure if my mind is making things up or not but I THINK i read somewhere that he prefers to listen to like, hard rock/metal?? If not then ignore this but if this is true I personally disagree with this if it is canon. One of my top band/group choices for Cas has always been The Neighbourhood. Here are a few of their songs I feel he would like a lot. I also think his voice might sound somewhat similar to the lead singer’s, maybe a little more smooth sounding though, and deeper.

Crybaby

You get me so high

Leaving Tonight

Float

Sunburn - Muse

Tongue Tied - Grouplove (also one of my personal faves) This is more of an upbeat song but honestly if you don’t like this song there might be something wrong with you sorry 

Balaclava - Arctic Monkeys

Leave out all the rest - Linkin Park. Probably a general LP fan. Also yes ik this song was on twilight but that has nothing to do with it lmao 

Take what you want - Post Malone ft. Ozzy Osbourne

Also one of my favorite personal headcanons is that Castiel is a secret Maroon 5 fan lol like once he’s comfortable around you and whatnot he’s a little more open about it. He tries to act like he hates pop music but I mean come on there’s at least ONE maroon 5 song that everyone likes

Nathaniel

Again my mind could just be making these things up but I may have read somewhere that Nath prefers like softer acoustic music? Or some shit lmao idk i only partially agree with this so some songs may not really fit that box.

It’s called: Freefall - Rainbow Kitten Surprise, i personally love this song as well and feel like Nate would too

Sweater Weather - The NBHD (also my favorite song in the entire frickin world)

End Credits - Eden, now I know this may be iffy for some people but i think nate would love this

Habits of my heart - James Young

Definitely a general fan of Lana Del Rey lmfao he’s not like a die hard but I could totally see him binging to her albums once in a while. It’s not something he can listen to all the time though, only when he’s in a certain mood. Here are a few of his Lana Jams

Video Games

Blue Jeans

Love

I bet you look good on the dancefloor - Arctic Monkeys, he likes to rock out and dance to this in his room, adorable

Work Song - Hozier

(Did two requests in one since it’s asking for the same thing. THIS TOOK ME A WHILE TO WRITE BECAUSE I HAVE WRITERS BLOCK BUT HOPE YOU ENJOY IT REGARDLESS! Also HUGE thanks to @sisaki-chan for helping a girl out with a few ideas for Cas, she’s such an amazing friend ugh ❤️)

Castiel

Ohhhhh my godddd not to be dramatic but like… this is probably the WORST thing that can happen right now lmao

As I stated in my last headcanons about “Candy having a 2 year old daughter”, the LAST thing Castiel would want or need is a freaking child. He’s got way too much going on and way too big of an opportunity to pass up for a baby. That probably sounds harsh but let’s be real here, do any of us REALLY think that Castiel would be happy about this, at this point in time? If he wasn’t about to go on tour then okay sure we’ll figure it out but now? Yikes.

His reaction to you telling him is not going to be good so don’t expect any “it’s going to be okay,” type of comfort. He’s going to be pissed. Mostly pissed at himself because at some point he MUST have slipped up. Expect him to walk away and not talk to you for a while. “I just, I need to be alone.” Yes this is an asshole move on his part but can you blame him? He won’t answer any of your texts or calls for a few days. He seemed very adamant about using protection during your one night stand, but not every method of protection is 100%, and you’re only human. Mistakes were bound to happen when it came to sex.

He tries to remember when it could have happened. He can’t pinpoint it but he was so SURE that you two were being careful. For a split second, he wants to question if it’s even his or not, because again, how? But he knows that you’d never do that to him, and he might feel just a bit guilty. At this point though he’s willing to grasp onto any possibility that maybe it was a false positive. After his days of brooding, he’ll call you finally. He’s not sure where to start, but he does want to go to the doctor to make sure it’s true. After your appointment does indeed confirm everything, he just sighs and runs an exasperated hand through his hair. “Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck…”

Discussing your options is definitely going to happen. He will make it very clear to you that he does not want the baby, but that doesn’t mean he’s going to be a complete jerk about it either. He’s a man and he takes responsibility for his actions. He knows that he made this baby with you, so basically whatever decision you make he’s just going to suck it up and deal with it.

Now assuming you want to keep it in this case, he’s not happy about it at all. This might even put a strain on your relationship because he’s just in a bad mood all the time now. He isn’t trying to take it out on you, because again it’s not just your fault. He just doesn’t know how to handle the situation at all. How is he going to tell his band mates? What about the tour? Will he even be able to do that still? Would it be selfish? So many questions. Deep deep down though, he really just wants to do what’s best for you as well. He loves you and he would never just abandon you, but he also wants to follow his dream. Can he do that with you and a baby? I mean the plan was to break up before he left right? And now he feels like crap because what are his band mates going to say if he tells them that they aren’t going to be able to tour anymore because of him? After all of their hard work too, dammit! So this will probably cause them to fall out for a bit. I’m not sure if Castiel is close with his band mates to the point where he’d consider them close friends but I’d still like to think that eventually they’d patch things up? Just not know though, not at all.

Despite him being unhappy about it, he makes an effort. He makes it to every single appointment, he’ll help you when you’re not feeling well, and he TRIES to not be so negative around you because he knows you’re probably just as stressed as he is.

Oh god imagine having to deliver the news to the public though? Rumors have already started going around that the tour has been cancelled, but why? His band mates respect him enough to not give anyone an answer and he appreciates that a lot. But of course, speculation rises. You’re seen in public with him often, going in an out of doctors offices, the baggier than usual clothes you wear, the little bit of weight you seemed to have gained. That belly isn’t going to stop growing so people are going to find out sooner or later, let's be real. So when he does finally decide to announce it, everyone is shook.

He’s still a little bitter about the whole tour bit. He doesn’t resent you or the baby he’s just having a hard time coping with it. He thought about maybe just bringing you and the baby with him, but how would that work? Living mostly on a crowded tour bus, with multiple people AND a baby? Yeah no.

After awhile though, like some months into the pregnancy, he kind of starts to come around a bit more. Maybe when you’re almost due, like 7 or 8 months. He realizes, ‘oh shit I’m going to have a baby soon.’ His attitude towards the pregnancy shifts, a complete 180. It’s slow and subtle at first, but you begin to notice the slight smile he has during your ultrasounds, the way his face lights up when he hears the heartbeat for the hundredth time. And while you guys definitely should have done this already, things were just too stressful and busy to really talk about preparing the nursery for the baby. I’d imagine you’d be in Castiel's apartment for a little while, considering you’re in a dorm. All of the baby’s things have just been piling up in a corner, but then he gets this sudden motivation to just organize everything. You’re gone with Rosa somewhere for a while and by the time you come back literally everything is set up. The bottles are neatly put away, the changing table is set up in the bathroom with the diapers, wipes, powder and rash cream under it. It looks like Castiel's place is a studio apartment, so while the baby doesn’t have its own room, he still makes space for it in his. He clears out an entire corner and then some, and the bassinet is perfectly placed with the canopy draped over it. When you come home, he starts going on and on about everything. “I know I haven’t been the best boyfriend since we found out about the baby, but… I’m going to be there for you and for them because it’s my responsibility and I love you. And even though I haven’t met them yet, I love them too.” When the baby is finally born it’s really such a great time! It’s hard occasionally with your busy schedules, and finding time for each other is difficult. But at the end of the day, his favorite part is coming home to his little family, where he can just breathe and be himself. And he’s so good with them too, it’s crazy! It’s like he can read his baby’s mind sometimes. There will be some flops for sure, like backwards diapers or bottles that aren’t warm enough. But he gets the hang of it eventually. Oh man and when the baby gets a little bigger he’ll buy them a toy guitar it’s so cute. They’re both in the living room with their guitars. The baby is just pressing random buttons trying to imitate their daddy. Castiel applauds them as if they’re actually playing a good song lmao. He’s so proud of his mini me. I like to think he and his band mates would patch things up after a while, so sometimes during studio sessions he’ll bring the baby with him and they absolutely adore your kid! Everyone always wants to hold them, and they’re always buying new toys or bribing them with baby snacks. Ugh so adorable.

Oh yeah did you think he gave up on his dream? Hell no. Give it a couple of years, when the baby is a little older. It’ll be way easier to travel this way, and you guys have your own separate tour bus so that way you aren’t a burden to the others. Eventually you guys will settle down into a house and all, but the road trips and sightseeing with your baby is so much fun! When he’s not performing or rehearsing he spends as much time as possible with you two. And he’s very private about his child so I highly doubt they’d be in the spotlight that much, if at all. There’s like maybe 3 pictures of the baby’s face on the internet, but they’re all on your private page lmao no paparazzi has been successful yet.

Nathaniel

Oh geez more angst with this boy. Can’t we just eat cake made of rainbows and sprinkles and we can all eat and be happy?

Okay so first of all, like Castiel a baby is the LAST thing Nathaniel needs right now. I mean the man is involved with some really shady people who will do really terrible things as proven in the last episode, and by those two douchebags who tried to harass candy and multiple other women. And we know that Nathaniel is scared to death of whoever is in charge, he knows that they’re capable of doing messed up things to people who cross them. So now not only is he putting you at risk by even being with you, now he’s got a freaking CHILD on the way.

When you tell him, he’s shocked into silence. “...What?” He’s got thoughts running a mile a minute through his head. How could he have let this happen? He somehow feels like it’s his fault even though logically it’s not, but he KNOWS he can’t afford to have a baby right now, financially and metaphorically. He makes enough money to support himself as a drug dealer, but it’s not like he plans on being one forever. He’s not going to rely on drug money to take care of you and a baby, it’s just not happening. So now he’s gotta figure out how to find a different source of income so that he can do that. He doesn’t exactly want a baby but he’s not going to let you do this alone. “I’m going to figure something out, I promise.”

He’s done a pretty good job of keeping his relationship with you hidden away from them but people are bound to notice if he’s constantly around you all the time making sure you’re okay. So as much as he hates it, he just can’t be there with you 24/7, especially with them calling him up to do work for them all the time. Expect him to miss some appointments, some classes if you’re taking any and just being alone sometimes in general. He’d love nothing more than to be at home with you making sure you’re feeling okay but he can’t, and he can’t risk anyone trying to follow him to figure out why he’s never around anymore. It sucks but it’s for the best.

On another note though, this does nothing but motivate even more him to get out of the business he’s in. The last thing he’d want is to not be able to be there for you when the baby actually gets here, so he starts taking action a lot sooner than before. And honestly, if he has to sacrifice things for your safety then he will. The last thing he wants is for you to be used as leverage against him or whatever. In this last episode he left town for not only his safety but yours and Ambers as well. So with a baby involved I don’t even think he’d hesitate to leave this time. He won’t communicate with you in any way, he doesn’t want to risk it. But, he sends you money to your bank account whenever he can, and will send baby things through the mail if it’s not too risky. He misses you both dearly even though the little bean isn’t here yet, and I genuinely hope that in a case like this he would be able to come back before the baby is born but who knows? I have no idea how this arc will play out for him.

While he’s away, it’s pretty sad tbh. He’s crying all the time, he feels like complete shit for not being able to be there for you. I lowkey feel like he would keep in touch with Amber but she doesn’t tell you because he asks her not to. She secretly shows him ultrasound pictures and updates him on how you’re doing. She feels bad about it but she feels this strong protectiveness over her niece or nephew, and you too now. She wants so badly to tell you that he’s okay but she can’t. The only thing reassuring you of his existence is the fact that he keeps sending you money. He’s fine, just really freaking sad.

For this sake of this scenario I’m just going to go ahead and say that somehow, miraculously all of this gets fixed and he’s able to come back home. You’d decided to just move into his apartment after he left considering you’d be there all the time anyways. He knows you’re there, Amber told him. He gets back and wastes no time going back to his place. He doesn’t even bother to call you because the thought of seeing you again is the only thing on his mind. He left you and Amber the keys so he’s pounding on the door. It scares you at first and you cautiously look through the peephole. When you see him you swear your entire heart stops. You’re frozen to the spot. You don’t answer for a bit, and he pounds again. “Y-Y/N? Are you here?” It’s not until he says this that you snap back to reality and swing the door open. He doesn’t say anything, you don’t even have time to look at him and take it all in before he’s throwing himself at you. Carefully because now your belly is huge, but still enough force to push you back a bit. You can’t see his face but you know he’s crying because you can feel the tears staining your shoulder, and now you’re crying too. You stay like that for such a long time, just embracing each other and crying. You weren’t even sure if you’d ever see him again so this moment feels unreal.

When he FINALLY takes a step back from you, he grabs your face and kisses you with everything he has, and then he looks at your belly and the reality of it all hits him. Obviously he knew how far along you were but seeing it in person, finally being able to touch your belly and feel the kicks… it’s indescribable. He kneels down and places his hands on either side, a sad looking smile on his face. Of course he’s happy but he’s also sad because FUCK did he miss out. Sure appointments are annoying and shopping for a child can get hectic, but he would take that any day over having to leave you again. “I missed you so so much, I missed you BOTH so much.”

At this point you’re pretty far along in the pregnancy so I wouldn’t doubt it if you went into labor a few weeks after this. As nervous as he is, he won’t even show it. This is a moment he didn’t even think he’d get to have with you so all of his worries get pushed to the back of his mind. His fear used to be not being a good dad because of everything he had going on, but then he had to leave and his fear was not being able to see his baby at all, ever. So everything he worried about in the past doesn’t mean shit to him now, he’s here and that’s all the matters. When the baby finally gets here, it’s like the world around him fades out as soon as he hears that first cry. It’s just you, him and your baby. Having a tiny human in his arms feels like literal heaven to him. Was the situation for having a baby ideal? Of course not. Were you ready for a baby? Of course not. But he would choose this over anything if he had to do it all over again.

Even though Nathaniel does have a lot of self control and restraint, especially compared to some of the Guild members, he can still be goaded into doing some pretty stupid stuff. This is because he is a prideful individual at times, and if it’s Margaret doing the goading, he will fall for it just to have the upper hand in whatever stupid debate the two get into.

Sometimes Mark can goad him, but 99% of the time it’s Margaret.

(Thank you! These took me forever to write for some reason yikes. But I really liked thinking about this scenario, hope you like them!)

Castiel

Castiel probably found out you had a kid when he saw you out and about one day, maybe grocery shopping and he happened to be there because he wanted to buy a few beers for that night’s practice session with the band. He sees you pushing your cart around and decides to say hello before he goes to check out.

He approaches you from behind.“Hm, you must be making tacos tonight,” he’ll say, glancing over the items in your cart. You turn around and say hello, and he’s about to say something when he notices a little person sitting in the cart seat. The resemblance between you two is undeniable and Castiel isn’t stupid, so he quickly puts two and two together. “...you have a kid???” Obviously he knows that but he’s just so taken aback because no one ever mentioned you having a baby over the years. But then again, it’s not like anyone besides Rosalya had stayed close enough with you to even know that.

I don’t want to go ahead and say it’s a straight up deal breaker buuuut lmao he’s not judging you or anything, and he would never treat your child poorly but that’s just not something that he’s looking for at the moment, especially with the way his career is taking off. A kid is just not on his agenda right now, especially one that isn’t his.

So he’ll have to really, reeeeaally have strong feelings for you to get himself involved. The father isn’t around so that prevents baby daddy drama, thankfully for him. I feel like he’s definitely the type to constantly butt heads with the father if he’s an asshole towards you so it just works out better this way.

Back to the point, say you two do end up getting back together. He doesn’t go into it trying to dismiss your kid at all, he knows that if he wants to be with you, he’ll have to accept her too. That’s not to say he’s going to be playing stepdaddy instantly but he’s also not going to be a jerk and ignore such a big part of your life. He’ll ask about her and how she’s doing all the time, he likes hearing you talk about her because it makes you happy. And as weird as it makes him feel he really enjoys seeing pictures of her awww

With him it really helps if you introduce them slowly. Like a few months into the relationship, or whenever you two are starting to get really serious. It would be better if he met her at your place, it’s a comfortable setting vs going out together and bringing her along. He may even be a little nervous! What if she doesn’t like him?

But he comes over hoping for the best, and you open the door for him. He follows you into the living room, and there she is in the middle of the floor playing with a toy guitar. And he can’t stop himself from thinking ‘....fucking cute.’

He’s not sure how to approach her at all lol so just tell your baby to say hi. I can totally see Castiel as that one guy who looks mean but kids like him so much? Why, he does not know. So she’ll look at him, confused at first because who is this strange man? But, she happens to like the color red. So she’ll see his hair, and with a beam she’ll say, “Hi red!” And this makes Cas laugh a bit. “Haha, hey kid. You like red?”

Their relationship with each other is veryyyyy slow. Again, he’s not looking to play daddy. He doesn’t want to get too attached. It’s bad enough he’ll already have to deal with going away on tour and leaving you behind, he doesn’t want to make this kid like him just so he can leave her later down the line. It’s bad enough her dad isn’t around, and he knows how it feels to not have a parent present. But despite his concerns and apprehensions, it happens anyways. As he falls more in love with you, he falls in love with your daughter too. She looks just like you, and she’s so cute and smart and just everything he didn’t realize he would want. And he’s so surprisingly good with her! You’ll catch him playing with her sometimes, or you’ll be making food and look over to see they’ve both fallen asleep on your couch, your daughter snuggled up against him. If this is going by in game canon, he doesn’t exactly consider her his daughter yet, but they do love each other very much. It even gets to a point where she starts asking you “Where’s red?” when he isn’t around. I feel like despite the distance when he does decide to tour, your daughter might just be the key to your relationship in this scenario. I feel like with you being older now it would work out better anyways, but with your little girl around he tries even harder to make sure things work out because he’ll realize, fuck it’s really lonely without them around and I miss hearing their voices. So expect tons of phone calls, video chats, and hell even send you guys little trinkets from wherever he is from time to time.

Nathaniel

Ohhh yikes. Lots of angst.

Nathaniel probably found out you had a kid because you told him. For example, one day he sees you out heading somewhere and stops to say hello. He asks where you’re headed. “Where are you off to in such a rush?” and you say “I have to pick up my daughter from daycare.” And he’s just like wut lmaooo “D-daughter? ...When did you..?” He’s really not sure how to feel about that, not that his feelings matter about the situation anyways but he just was not expecting that. “Yeah, uhh I had her two years ago. It’s been quite a trip.” And he’s just kind of like… wow. Alright. You’ll close the conversation saying that you need to be on your way, and he nods, saying goodbye and continue back to his house again. When he gets there, curiosity will get to him and he’ll search up your social media profiles if you have any to see what she looks like, and when he sees her he’s in absolute shock. She looks just like you, aside from the few features that he can tell must be from her father. Father? Is he around? Are you with him? From the looks of things, he isn’t, not a single picture of him on your profile and your relationship status says single. He has his answer, but then realizes it’s none of his business and closes out the tab.

I feel like out of the three, Nathaniel is the most likely to not be with you because of this. Even if he does want to, if he does have feelings for you, he just can’t, He’s got way too much going on in his life with what he’s involved in, and the LAST thing he would want to do is get you and your daughter mixed up in that. He just can’t risk it, and as much as it hurts him to do so, he’ll completely fall back. He won’t be ignoring you or anything but he definitely feels so much more distant than normal.

But let’s say that you do end up together again, he’s much like Castiel in this aspect. He’s not looking to play daddy anytime soon but he also knows that with you, comes your daughter. He acknowledges the fact that you have her, and he’ll ask about her often and he also likes hearing stories about her because it takes his mind off of what he has going on.

Having him actually meet baby girl though, that’s a different story. Once you guys are really serious, it might become a problem. You felt like it was time that he meet her, you two had been dating for quite a bit now. But, whenever you brought her up he always avoided the question, or beat around the bush. This might lead you to believe that he doesn’t want to meet her, but this isn’t the case at all and eventually he’ll tell you the real reason. “Y/N, you know that I love you and I would love nothing more than to me D/N, but I can’t. I don’t want to bring this around her, it’s bad enough that I’m bringing it around you.” Honestly, he almost feels too tainted to meet her. Nath isn’t a bad guy and what he’s doing isn’t the WORST thing in the world but he still just feels so shady about it and the people he has to be around that he almost feels like he’s too bad of a person to meet her. He probably won’t want to meet her until he decides that he finally wants to be done with his shady business for good. Then he feels like he’s worthy enough.

When he finally does meet her, it feels so...right? Having something so innocent and pure around him vs dealing with constant drama and violent people, it's a breath of fresh air to him. The first time he sees her, he’s weirdly nervous but ready nonetheless. Definitely have them meet at your house too, to avoid being seen by anyone he doesn’t want around you two. She sees him, and he says hi. She just keeps staring lol and he instantly thinks “oh shit she doesn’t like me”, but then she smiles and hands him one of her dolls. “You play with me?” And his entire face just looks so happy right then and there. He might get attached a little faster than you’d expect, because being around you AND her just brings him this sense of relief that he didn’t know he would feel anytime soon. And of course, he’s extremely protective of both of you. Really hope the father isn’t the type to come around just to start drama because Nath is having absolutely none of that shit. Definitely going to leave with a black eye if he decides to come around. And also meeting her does nothing but motivate him more to get out of the situation that he’s in.

Their relationship is really cute by the way. Its not an instant super close bond,but it definitely happens faster than it would with Cas. He’s always entertaining her in some way, and they're like two peas in a pod. She really likes him and refers to him as mostly “Nay” because she can’t pronounce her T’s just yet lol When their bond does get tighter though, it’s so cute because he’s just so eager to spend time with her all the time. He’ll stay over and sometimes you’ll wake up to find that he’s already fed her, cleaned her up and now they’re watching cartoons with his arm around her and she’s snuggled up into his side. A+ cuteness.

Hyun

Hyun probably learned of your daughter when you showed up to work late one day. Luckily for you, Clemence had already left and he didn’t mind staying a little bit later until you got there. You usually weren’t late so he was a bit concerned when you burst through the doors looking apologetic. “Y/N, I was about to call you is everything okay?” You apologize and explain to him that you were late because you couldn’t find a babysitter for your daughter until the last minute. “I’m so sorry, I should have called but I was in a hurry and it slipped my mind,” you say. His eyes widen a bit.

“No worries, I haven’t been waiting long but… I didn’t know you had a daughter though!” He says. He tries to remember if you had ever brought her up, feeling bad if he had forgotten. But he knows he wouldn’t forget something like that usually. You clarify that you probably never mentioned it to him and he nods. After that he just has a lot of questions. How old is she? What’s her name? Does she look like you? Can he see a picture? Lol he’s so cute

Whether or not it’s a deal breaker for Hyun, is all up to how he feels about you. Ideally, he’d prefer his girlfriend to not have any kids. Not that he has anything against them, but he’s young and he knows that kids can come with difficulties. Especially for a single parent. It really just depends on the girl and whether he cares enough for her to want to bring something like that into his life. If it’s just a small crush then he’ll back down but if he truly feels like he could be feeling something real for you then he’ll take that chance.

I think Hyun might be a little more eager than the other two to meet her. He’s not trying to meet her as soon as you get together or anything, but she’s the most important thing in your life so why wouldn’t he want to meet her sooner? He won’t try to impose on it or anything, but as soon as you bring it up he’s all for it. He honestly feels a bit honored. “You want me to meet her? Really?” And he’s just got this cute lil blush on his cheeks. Your daughter is a little shy around him at first, but Hyun as always been good with kids! He’s a little disheartened at first when she hides behind your leg after he tries to talk to her, but give it a little bit of time don’t worry! After about an hour she finally starts to warm up to him when he shows her a “magic trick” which is really him sneakily holding a piece of candy and then pretending to pull it out of her ear. She’s like :O !!! “Mommy look!”

After that, his bond with your daughter is easy-peasy. He doesn’t even have to try to get along with him, he just does. He really enjoys helping you out whenever he can, and he offers to babysit all the time. You say no because you know he has homework and stuff to do, but then eventually he stops taking no for an answer because?? This is my best friend why won’t you let us hang out?? Lololol You feel bad about it, thinking he’s never going to get any work done with her. You protest a bit but he’s like nope I’m taking her with me we’ll see you when you’re off love you. You really think your imposing on him until you come home early one day and see that you really had nothing to worry about because he’s got it all covered. He’s doing his homework, and she’s just chilling in his lap trying to “help” him with it. Really just babbling on and on and pointing to random things in the book. It’s so freaking cute.