#mcl headcanons

NATHANIEL

When he first met your boyfriend, he didn’t immediately feel comfortable around him because he didn’t see someone genuine or honest. But he never commented about it. As time went by, he saw that you sometimes missed classes, you struggled to keep your focus… and most of those times were because you were anxious and overthinking due to that guy. Nathaniel felt rage about it, but all he could do was simply to support you.

The day you told him your boyfriend cheated on you, Nathaniel took a few seconds to react as well, as if he needed to check that he understood correctly.

“Jesus… are you ok?” he asked, but he realized that it was a dumb question to ask. 

Nathaniel would make sure that you don’t make any impulsive decisions right after finding out, because he knows that when someone is heated, actions aren’t that controlled.

If you start saying things just as “maybe it was my fault”, “maybe he got bored of solving our problems”, he’d get firm. He’d say “the fact that couples have problems doesn’t turn this acting into something acceptable.”

He wouldn’t pressure you to break up immediately either, but he’d honestly tell you that the best thing to do is to stay away from someone who isn’t scared of hurting you.

Nathaniel would be as quiet as possible about this subject and would cut off any conversation involving that information. If Peggy gets to know about this, he’d act to stop her from spreading more information about it and not hurt you.

He’d accompany you through this situation, giving you space when it’s needed but always being attentive of you. He’d walk you home, stay with you in the library, text you asking if you have eaten, share some of his snacks with you…. 

Nathaniel would make sure that you can heal from this emotional wound, not quickly, but in the best way possible.

CASTIEL

He didn’t form any opinion about your relationship and couldn’t care less, but he wouldn’t mention it either or criticise it with anyone else because it was none of his business. 

When you tell him the news, his first reaction is immediate, a short and dry “what?”

He’d make you a couple of questions to know if you’re sure about it or your overthinking is making you reach fake conclusions. It’s not that he doesn’t trust you, but he is aware that sometimes our minds can be tricky. 

But the moment you show him evidence and he processes the whole situation, he is angry. That kind of anger that makes him wanna act on his impulses. He wouldn’t comfort you immediately, instead, he’d also need a moment for himself to not start insulting that guy.

He’d give you an awkward squeeze on the shoulder and mutter a quiet “I’m sorry for that.”

Don’t ever minimize the situation or blame yourself for it, and less to try to give that guy another chance — Castiel would get real mad and say “are you really losing yourself to an idiot that didn’t even respect you!?”

He isn’t good at comforting words, it might be awkward because they’d be clumsy coming from him. But he’d prefer to distract you: go out for a walk, go to any new place in the city… anything to distract you from getting consumed by your thoughts.

Castiel holds grudges towards that idiot and would never be nice at him again after what he did. And if the guy talks to him, Castiel would most likely spit a sharp comment related to it but without directly mentioning the situation. 

LYSANDER

He never had a problem with your boyfriend, but never got a good feeling from the whole relationship. The reason was that you always gave more than you received, and that was both sad and weird.

The moment you told him about you getting cheated on, he seemed to not react. But he was actually shocked about that. He hugs you and lets you cry all you need about it so you don’t hold everything to yourself. 

He will always listen to your venting before starting with his comforting words. And sometimes there won’t be any words, there will be small letters or small details that he brings you to see your smile.

When you two meet, he is bringing some snacks, a fancy drink, a small plushie… and with time his details get more pretty, such as a small bucket of flowers and the symbolism of them in a small, decorated paper.

Those small letters are generally made with comforting and reassuring words with some questions that could help you to distract yourself whenever you’re alone. 

Lysander won’t bring out the topic and will always try to change the subject whenever someone says something about your ex. 

Going out with him helps a lot, as he forgets about that topic and ends up ranting about anything else that helps you to keep your mind distracted. He also brings you to his and Castiel’s private meetings to practice some music. And he even offers to meet with Rosalya and Leigh, the four of you together, to keep yourself busy.

KENTIN

Since the beginning, he tried to get along with your boyfriend, even if it felt wrong. It made him feel weird, as if he was hurting himself on purpose by seeing the girl he has always loved loving someone else. But he felt something was off, and he didn’t know if it was his overthinking or the reality, but the efforts on the relationship were one-sided and he saw how much that hurt you.

You decided to tell him immediately once you found out about your boyfriend meeting other girls behind your back, and he got deeply worried about you at first. 

He can get overwhelming with his questions, because he gets deeply worried about knowing if you have eaten, if you have talked with anybody else about it and whether you need space or need someone. 

He can’t hide the fact that he is mad. He is mad because your trust got broken due to an idiot who cannot keep a relationship and didn’t deserve your love at all.

And it also hurts him to see you blaming yourself. He won’t let you finish your ranting if you ever start blaming yourself loudly, not a chance! He starts giving you comforting words that might be filled of nervousness to not accidentally confess because it was too soon to make any move. And he wanted you to heal from this before opening your heart towards love.

It hurts him thinking that someone couldn’t value what he always considered important: you.

Kentin offers you to go for a run with him after some time so you don’t issolate yourself too much. 

ARMIN 

Armin didn’t build a first impression on your boyfriend and he let the time build it for him, by showing him who your boyfriend really was. He was always nice to him and played some jokes on him too, like with everybody else, but he stopped progressively when he saw weird things in your relationship. He ignored you sometimes, he cancelled or forgot plans with you, he had too many secrets or said too many notorious excuses.

And when you tell him that he cheated on you, he is in between saying “I expected it, he’s an asshole” and “no way, I think it could be a misunderstanding”, because it’s hard for him to imagine someone doing that so lightly. 

He drops the jokes at first and decides to be a good listener and adviser for once. Cry all you need about it and he will try to cheer you up, along with Alexy, about how much better you are than your ex. 

Armin doesn’t talk much about the subject because he doesn’t want to be tiring with it, so he is always trying to distract you in some way or another. He sends you lots of reels and memes, offers you to play games with him or watch him play as you both talk about anything… he doesn’t treat you as a broken doll — that’s not the way of fixing things.

Of course, whenever you need to cry about it, he’ll let you be and respect your space.

But even if he keeps treating you the same way and doesn’t dig on the negative things that are on your mind, that doesn’t mean he isn’t worried about you.

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

He is always a gentleman, before, during and after the act. He will take responsibility for cleaning anything that gets stained and bringing you water or food in case you need it. After he is done, he lies down beside you and cuddles you. Lysander kisses your forehead, your shoulders and your shoulder blades with such a softness that they are slightly ticklish. He whispers how much he loves you and asks you what did you like the most about that night.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

About his partner: he loves your hands. He loves holding them both in casual terms or sexual ones, he loves giving your knuckles soft kisses whenever you’re distracted, and even using his thumb to caress the skin of your hand, tracing little circles. Also the way you use them to touch him  – how you caress his hair, how you massage his shoulders, how your hands get a good use down his clothes...

About himself: he likes his body in general. And not in an arrogant way. But his favorite part of himself may be his chest, due to how slightly toned it is and how good it feels when you rest your head there. Plus when you give him kisses there he melts, because it feels as if you were trying to kiss his heart. Each kiss rips a tiny, excited heartbeat from him.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

He doesn’t like to be messy with it and, unless you’re sure of it, he insists on using protection so his cum is collected in that tiny condom. He may reject the idea of releasing the seed anywhere that is external, which means that he prefers finishing inside you or in your mouth.

I think he has the healthiest diet out of all routes, so his cum is basically slightly slimy and whitish. The quantity depends on how much he’s been without releasing it, but it’s a normal amount.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Even if he is mainly clean with these things, he likes to play with food. For instance, he’d love having you lying down for him as he takes care of pouring chocolate, cream or some sort of syrup that he has to lick off your body. Of course, he’d just do it if you agreed with doing it.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Zero experience before you. But he is really attentive and quickly learns those things you like and which you don’t.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Missionary. There’s something about being able to hold your hands at both sides of your head or directly embrace you as he is making love to you that he adores. It’s a really intimate position, in which he looks at you directly on the eyes and kiss you every now and then. It also makes it easier for him to talk in whispers to you, which adds a most romantic vibe to the situation.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Not really goofy, he takes this moment as a serious one, in which you both reinforce your connection by showing the most vulnerable sides of yourselves. He won’t have any problem laughing if something comical happens though.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

He keeps it short enough to not bother during the act, and also as a personal preference. So even if he isn’t completely shaved, the tiny hairs will barely bother you.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Lysander is truly romantic. Not in the sense of preparing the whole environment with candles and stuff, but his behavior will be all focused on you. He is gentle and practically kisses every inch of skin he is capable of, worshipping you as much as he can because he loves you. He likes to keep the dim light on in the bedroom so it doesn’t bother you and you can focus much more on your other senses that aren’t the visual one so the experience is better.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

It isn’t something he did much before he dated you and had any sexual experience with you, and it stays the same. He might even do it less as it doesn’t feel as good as when he does things with you. Even if there are days in which you don’t see each other for some reason, he is patient and calm enough to not touch himself and save himself for the moment he gets to do things with you.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

I don’t think he has too many kinks. He is mainly vanilla and likes to keep things as sweet as possible.

Mutual masturbation. He might like to try a session in which you both touch yourselves while watching the other masturbating.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

In the bedroom or in the living room due to the comfort of doing it somewhere he can lie you down and not hurt you. Also, it is easier to fall asleep there afterwards, so no need to move if it’s done on the couch or in the bed.

He isn’t opposed to trying to do something in the bath.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Whenever you put effort into dressing up so stunningly for a date. He admires you and admires that you make yourself prettier than you already are for him.

Making out. There is nothing more attractive to him than seeing how your kisses slowly turn more slow or needy, because it is easy to get turned on by how romantic and intimate his kisses can be. Even the short ones. They always make you crave for more.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

He won’t hurt you neither physically or mentally. This means that he gives a big no to degradation and the masochism/sadism combo. 

Do not try anything on the farm, his animals do not deserve to watch any sensuous thing, please. Lysander may tease you a little bit, but he won’t cross the boundary of undressing you or actually do something.

He isn’t comfortable with doing too many romantic interactions in public other than casual pecking and holding hands. So trying to do anything risky is rather a turn off for him.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

While he likes seeing you down between his thighs, there is nothing more satisfying than seeing you squirm from the pleasure when he is the one giving it to you. He takes this moment just as precious as if he was eating a meal in a luxurious restaurant. He prepares his meal with kisses, starting with your neck, slowly descending to right between your thighs, leaving a trail of sweet kisses behind. 

He closes his eyes to keep the focus, even though he might look up at you whenever you make any sound to admire your reactions. 

Lysander interlocks his fingers with one of your hands as he uses the other to hold your thigh and keep your legs separated for him to work properly.

When you’re the one giving oral to him, he does his best to be as gentle as possible even if he sometimes has this urge of thrusting due to how good it might feel. He caresses your hair, keeps it back so it doesn’t bother you in case it is long enough, and gives small praises every now and then. He asks you if you’re doing alright, and genuinely worries that you can’t breathe or that you might choke.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Slow and sensual, definitely. He makes sure that you can feel all of him through every slow thrust, sometimes making you lose your mind and need more of it. And he might increase the pace just if you ask for it. But even if he goes faster, he isn’t rougher. 

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

No, no chance. He needs to spend as long as it is needed to make you enjoy all the situation and enjoy himself. If you tease him anywhere, he’ll be patient until you both are home.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

As I previously mentioned, he prefers to keep those intimate moments intimate, which means that he prefers to not have any distractions or risks of getting caught because it’d turn him off. He may accept experimenting with soft games on the bed or on the couch, in the private spaces he feels the most comfortable in. 

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He can go for 2 or 3 rounds, with a break in between. He can spend the most time with the previous games before getting into action, the making out, the dry humping, the kisses and teasing touches…

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He doesn’t own toys and I don’t think he might like the use of them during your intimate moments.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Lysander likes to tease but not in the way that he makes you beg for stuff. He likes to tease you in that way that turns you on and makes you impatient to have a private moment with him. For example, you might be cooking dinner and he’d approach from behind, hugging your waist and kissing your neck slowly as he purrs some questions about how your day was and muttering soft compliments.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He isn’t loud. At first, he releases sighs and shuddering breaths, sometimes gasping when he finds the exact point of pleasure. But whenever you squeeze him tight, or anything that makes him lose slight control happens, you may hear a breathless moan. His moans are just as pretty as his singing and they might turn you on more than the whole situation.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He writes erotic poems based on the emotions that you make him feel while you make love, those shared memories in which you both felt the most loved and vulnerable at the same time.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Underneath his clothes expect to find a thin, long and muscular frame. His body isn’t as muscular and exercised as Nathaniel’s, but he has a good shape due to his good diet and constant movement on the farm. –I definitely do not consider him being as strong as he seems to be on the game pics–

If we talk about his dick size, he’s a little bit above average but not extremely big. He leans on the longer side rather than the thick one.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

I’d say his sex drive is normal, leaning on the lower side. But there might be times in which his hormones are pretty crazy so his sex drive increases. It all depends on the situation to feel more aroused or less!

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

He doesn’t fall asleep immediately after it because he likes to spend some time taking care of you and giving you all the cuddles and sweet words you might need. When he sees that you feel more relaxed and sleepy, he’ll also allow himself to fall asleep.

NATHANIEL

Hits poses in which he can show off his ring to everyone and proudly say that he is married to the love of his life.

His phone is FILLED with pictures of you. There might be some pics of you both, but it is mainly you.

Whenever he is at job, he texts you to check if you have eaten. Sometimes, when he is late to get home, he may tell you “don’t have dinner”, because he ordered your favorite delivery food so you can enjoy it on your own!

He grows a homesick side in which he enjoys spending his free days home with you, trying new hobbies you may do or just sharing a quiet moment for both of you to share the same space while doing different stuff.

He might even accept doing a skincare noon with you for as long as he can rest his head on your lap and receive a long and relaxing massage on his scalp.

He’s open to go out as well, for as long as you can both enjoy the date.

Those times he goes to job really early, he leaves small notes on the kitchen like “hope you have a nice day, love you <3”. Yes, he drew a heart. And probably a little kitten at the left upper corner.

His main love language are acts of service: checking on you, preparing stuff for you, gifting you stuff… Will appear randomly home with a big bucket of flowers or sweets.

Nathaniel is obsessed with the idea of being the perfect husband for you because he is afraid of losing you from the slightest mistake. This is a fear that increased once you both married, because things got serious and he wanted to keep the feeling alive and constant. It is a new era in which you both keep growing up and learning differently: you both do it together. And he wants to build a stable and loving experience for you being with him.

He actively supports you on your personal goals and wants you to prioritize them before anything else. YOU go before anything else.

He always goes to sleep later than you do. It can be because he stayed awake reading, or on his phone, or because of job, or simply because he admired your sleeping face. And his heart melts everytime you snuggle up to him.

Whenever the subject of having kids comes out he innerly freaks out. What if he isn’t a good father? What if he makes too many mistakes? What if he isn’t a good example as a father?

But lies, this man CAN be a great father.

This subject is pretty serious and he prefers to talk it deeply with you. If you want to have kids by your own choice (he won’t force you to accept having kids), he’ll gladly keep going with it. And he is going to take it seriously. The paternity headcanons will be make in another post though…

Always has a hand on you whenever you’re in public: resting on your waist, resting over your shoulder, holding your hand, on the pocket that is right on your bottom (this one is mainly to tease you).

He may sometimes call you as he drives back home because he likes to hear your voice and get updated about your day, making the way back home faster and calming. 

And also a warm bath with you after work… that is something else.

He keeps every single object that reminds him of a certain day, and it is unconscious at this point because he may not even look at those things that much. He has cinema tickets, small notes from high school, small broken objects…

He also keeps lots of old clothes because of the memories they bring to him. You’re somehow forced to make him update his closet because there might be clothes that don’t fit him anymore.

There might be bad days, of course. Days in which you both may argue and need time for yourselves. But there is NO way he is letting you go to sleep in bad terms. He is going to stay calm and talk things like the two responsible and mature adults you both are. And even if things can be talked the next day because you both are still slightly affected by the argument, he may tell you “alright, we’ll talk tomorrow, don’t worry. Just know that I love you so fucking much and we are spooning tonight.”

LYSANDER

The moment you married this man, your life turned into a peaceful one. Lysander offers you a slow and calming presence that actually helps you to ease anxiety from stressful tasks.

No, really, Lysander is great dealing with stressed people – he has dealt with Castiel for years. And his peaceful vibes can truly help if you’re a nervous person. He’d place both of his hands on your shoulders and speak softly “take it easy, darling… if you want to do it nicely, step by step and without rush.”

Take your life as if you were living in stardew valley because more or less it is…

Being married to this man equals to wake up and receive the greatest breakfast of all times. Lysander has always wished to wake you up with a cup of tea, coffee or any kind of beverage of your preference in the morning waiting for you at the extreme of the table and surrounded by your favorite plates.

You may try his talent for baking brownies!!

Mornings are always slow and easy, as a great way to prepare for the day. And whenever you both are free from any responsabilites, you’ll stay in bed for longer and simply enjoy of a morning filled of cuddles and warmth.

Lysander is clingy, but not overwhelming. He likes initiating physical contact with you randomly, like random hugs from behind or spontaneous forehead kisses.

During mid-mornings (10 am) he spends his time doing farmer stuff. And honestly, if you have a favorite fruit, such as strawberries, raspberries, blackberries or anything that he can easily grow on his farm, he’s growing it! 

Most of the things you eat come straight from his own farm.

You’re more than welcomed to help him! He’s even excited to rant to you about random fun facts of plants or animals.

He dedicates you the sweetest and most romantic poems of all times, it’s a weekly thing. After a rough week, every friday, there is a moment of the day in which he holds your hand and reads to you the poem he wrote for you.

You may find him checking the shiny and precious ring you both share on your left hands as a sign of connection in your marriage. You can see him smile or kiss it unconsciously whenever he is lost on thoughts.

He says the most romantic shit and doesn’t even get an ick of embarrassment. As he should– By that I mean that he’ll constantly tell you how lucky he is to be married to an angel, promising that you’ll be spending the rest of your lives together… and please do not interpret it as something weird. He just wants to grow old with you until death do you both apart.

His farm animals definitely have heard him rant about you lots of times, but never understood. They just know he gets suddenly happy and cheerful due to something.

About being a father… Lysander is a whole different thing from Nathaniel. He is calm about it and not stressed… at the beginning, of course, it would probably change the moment he truly becomes a father because it’d be his first time being responsible for a whole human. But he believes that if he has done a good job taking care of so many farm animals, he can be a good father.

He likes to talk to you about how you will educate your kids, in case you want them. He’ll pick a random page on his notebook to plan what rules will you settle upon them, what things will you buy for him, the type of alimentation…

Slow and romantic dinners for your marriage anniversary because it would end up in a slow dancing time with him, or a moment in which you both decide to go back to your memories and remember your shared story.

NATHANIEL

Impressed, very impressed. He knew since the beginning that you invested your time and effort in writing, and he loves the passion you show towards it. Nathaniel is the kind of person who notices when someone is doing their best in something they like, and he finds it admirable. That’s why he is one of your biggest supporters.

He might not be the most creative guy, yet he is very attentive and has a great memory. So when you’re rambling about any character, the plot of your book or some random ideas, he might remember them all and give you his honest opinion. No matter the genre you’re writing about, no matter if he’d normally be interested or not, he will be your beta reader.

Nathaniel likes the peaceful environment when you’re writing, the sound of you writing on your notebook or typing in your laptop. He might give you space so you can focus, or simply be around in the same room as he keeps himself busy with other stuff.

He will be very aware of the time you spend writing, checking on you now and then to know if you need a tea, if you’re feeling good and how is the novel going. Nathaniel knows that there’s a point in which your brain needs to rest, but he gives you the time to squeeze your brain to release all the ideas you’ve got so you can advance on your novel.

When he sees that you start sighing, he might approach and carefully wrap his arms around you from behind, “I think it’s time for a break,” he’d whisper. He knows that the answer you might give at first is a no, but he gives you that insistent glance that makes you say yes easily.

Nathaniel takes you on walks towards the park, the forest or simply the street so you can explain him what you’re stuck with. He’s fine with you sharing your novel worries or keeping them to yourself, but he won’t allow you to get demotivated by it.

As the beta reader he is, he is going to be honest with it, so prepare yourself for a whole essay (in case it is needed) of comments. They aren’t negative, most of the time it’s just him commenting how did he feel about that scene emotionally, but there are other comments to help you improve any dialogue or scene.

“Writing is something you must enjoy, something therapeutic. The moment you start to not enjoy it, let me know, and we’ll go to take a refreshing break,” he said as both of you cuddled in the couch, his thumb tracing small circles on your shoulder, aiming to support you through it.

CASTIEL

Gives you space. Castiel is aware of how lonely the work of a writer is, and even if he doesn’t want to leave you alone, he gives you the space you need to focus and write. He’d go practice with his guitar constantly or walk your dog so it doesn’t bark and break your focus or anything.

He naturally helps you to get inspiration, even if it’s not related to any project you might be working on. The many things he rants about always give you some random ideas for any other stories. He rants to you about everything so you can get any ideas to add to your book. Any gossip around him that can add spice to your book will be said immediately as soon as he gets home!  

Celebrating your achievements together. The moment you tell him that you ended a chapter, that you kept going or whatever, he is going to be so damn proud of you! Writing isn’t an easy work. It requires a lot of focus and constancy, which he feels very happy to see in the results of your efforts. So if you tell him you ended a chapter, there will be a special date for both of you that week.

He doesn’t have too much time to read your books during his normal days, but when he is on a plane towards any city for his tour, and he is bored, he is definitely going to read your stuff.  

He honestly hopes there is a character inspired by him.

Castiel doesn’t quite know what to do to help you through the writer’s block, but he will always encourage you to keep going. Don’t you ever think of giving up! You have talent, and he’s going to publish your books in case you do not do it on your own (like some authors…)

He pulls you into a cozy movie marathon so you can rest, unwind and probably get inspiration through that movie. 

Every night he makes sure that you are comfortable to get a good rest. And during those warm moments, right when you’re trapped in his embrace, receiving the most loving cuddles, he’d ask about your progress for the day. He’d place a kiss or two on your head, complimenting your brain for being capable of putting effort into writing. Even if that day you didn’t really advance with stuff, he thinks that the time invested in squeezing your brain to get any minimum idea is already enough to be proud of.

“It’s normal you can’t squeeze more out of your brain. Let it all come natural. Most of the time inspiration comes when you less expect it, even it might come as you start writing. But don’t give up, babe. Good things require time and lots of patience.” He's one to talk lol

LYSANDER

You like to write? Cool, he likes it too! He’s focused on poems, mainly romantic or sad. He has a few notebooks to write on, and they’re all filled of words and words and words, it’s actually impressive. So when he finds out you two share the same passion, you’ll start having writing dates! Dates where you both get on a cozy spot and quietly start writing on your projects.

Knows how frustrating it is to get writer's block. And everyone has their own methods to overcome it, yet he’ll help you as much as he can to find your method.

Warm baths are the typical moments where you both can relax and talk about everything, including your worries. So he’d massage your shoulders as you rant about how you’re stuck in a part of your plot, thinking about how to help. Lys needs time to formulate a good solution, so he might comfort you and make you relax as he keeps thinking of any idea to help you.

Records conversations about your stories to listen to them later as a podcast. If he gets any idea as he hears it, he will quickly write it down to tell you later or will directly message you.

He easily forgets about your characters’ names, so be patient with him…

He doesn’t like to set any alarms to take a break, so he is just natural about them. Whenever you feel tired or stuck, stop.

Writing is a lonely work, yes, but his presence makes you feel quietly supported. You both can keep going with your projects, sending some glances at each other now and then. He goes outside whenever he is taking a break, so he lets you know by kissing your head and mumbling it to you.

Lys likes to read your stuff whenever you’re besides him, one arm around your shoulders, pulling you into the crook of his neck, as the other hand holds the manuscript to read what your mind achieved to create.

He admires your talent and has no shame in expressing it.

“I feel very proud of having such a talented partner, you know? Not everyone is as creative and good at this as you are,” he’d press a kiss to your forehead, his typical warm, little smile appearing for you.

KENTIN

He is very sweet and patient with you! He knows you’re passionate about writing and will support you through it. Never give up! No matter how hard it is. It strokes his ego to tell others that his partner is a talented writer.

During your writing sessions, he brings you snacks. You need to get energy when you’re using your brain so much. He’d stay around when you write, in silence to not bother you. And he normally ends up falling asleep on your lap.

Whenever you’re writing in a cold environment he is definitely placing a blanket over your shoulders. Why? Because he is simply attentive with your needs and wants you to be as cozy as possible as you do the stuff you like.

You want him to read your chapter? HELL YESSS!! He is such a fangirl. He actively comments to you about every single thing that has caused him any emotion. If you’re there with him, you will see his face twist in disgust in front of any character he dislikes, or any gasp escaping when he finds the plot twist. Man, he is very cute. And if you aren’t there when he is reading, he will spam your chat with lots of comments.

If there is any character he dislikes, he’s gonna react personally to any action coming from them.

Kentin is a great help for you to create more content about your OCs as he will be very curious and put your characters into situations you’d never thought about. He makes the dumbest but most genuine interesting questions for you to develop your OCs’ traits even more.

He likes to send you pics that match your novels’ vibes. Whenever he is walking with his doggos and sees a flower that reminds him of a certain character, he’ll send a pic! Or whenever he sees something cool outside, he will quickly tell you because it could be a great way to inspirate you.

He will beg you to take breaks because no matter how much you are invested in writing, you need to take a break.

“Oh, come oon! Your body will be very grateful to rest and spend some time with your lovely boyfriend, won’t it?”

ARMIN

The biggest distraction for you, not only because he is such a loud gamer, but because he interrupts your peace by entering without a warning to your room to talk to you about the most random thing ever. You’ve grown some patience about it though. Armin doesn’t take it personally if he makes you irritated because he knows he should’ve respected your working times, and giggles, apologizes and leaves.

Armin doesn’t like to read unless it is a manga he knows he’s going to enjoy. He prefers to listen to you reading your manuscript to him, as the sound of your voice is beautiful for him. And also because he actually pays attention to your words most of the time. Whenever you are cuddling, ready to sleep, taking a bath together or whatever, he is more than willing to listen to you.

Lots of inner jokes about your characters and some moments of your novel. He loves your OCs just as much as you do, and randomly sends you Instagram Reels or tiktoks that reminds him of any of your OCs “lol, this is completely ____”

Suggests you the most dark ideas for your stories. They are very weird. In case you’re writing a dark novel, it might be good… because Armin has gotten the most twisted ideas about dark content due to playing horror games. But if not, be careful that he doesn't end up making you traumatized.

His informatics knowledge can help you in case you want to make your novel well known. He can help you with the advertising of it or the format of your document.

The best way for him to help you to unwind is offering you to play games with him :). 

He is genuinely good at helping you to overcome the writer’s block, because he’d do a brainstorm of activities you could do to rest your mind: Change your environment, try writing different stuff, try seeing any random prompts to write scenarios, write about any crazy thing that comes to your mind, take a nap… just do whatever to stop your brain from braining so much and rest!

“Ah… I admire your strength to think for so long. I could never. Do you want to play for a while though? Your mind might need some fun after so much torture,” he’d playfully suggest, being half joking and half true about his words.

RAYAN

Lowkey one of his goals: To have a writer partner. He can get to be one of the first ones to read such a masterpiece. He feels very special, and sort of doing something illegal, yet he has your whole permission to read.

Working date? Reading date? Talking about your work date? Yes. Yes to all of that.

He will buy you the most beautiful notebooks to write on! He’d randomly appear home with a bag and say “well, this is for you,” and gives you the most beautiful small notebook you’ve ever seen to write on.

Supports you to write subjects you’re not experienced with so you can educate yourself and know more about it. He can easily provide material to study if you need it :). 

Expect him to be strict about the use of your grammar… if you need to correct something, any structure, any word that you used wrongly, he’s telling you, so the quality of your book is much better.

Another one who takes advantage of the quiet and calm environment there is on the room to work on his stuff meanwhile. As you write, he makes himself busy with reading or correcting his students’ exams.

Sometimes you both would end up working on bed, as it might be very cozy to do it there. Both under the blanket, in silence, only being heard the typing of your laptop and your calm breaths.

He prefers to not interfere in your work and let you set your boundaries, since everyone works different. He’s always going to be there for you though, whenever you need a shoulder to cry on about being blocked in a spot of your plot.

He’s definitely going with you to the library so you can get some good books that are specifically made for writers! Those give some good advices about how to overcome writer’s block.

Goes with you to literary events so you can get inspiration and motivation from other authors, plus getting more contacts for the future. He will indeed help you with contacts and support the idea of you meeting with more writers to rant about your problems together. There could be better advices coming from someone that knows your situation and your feelings rather than someone who’s just seeing it from outside.

HYUN

Do u write? You really do??? He is very impressed and stares at all your books in awe. He’d wish to have such creativity! This only makes him feel more in love with you.

He brings you your favorite pastries and drinks from the café for your working sessions. And there’s always a note on them! “Have a nice writing session, my love! ^^” and a small doodle of him sending a kiss. 

Doesn’t want to bother you at all, so whenever you’re going to write, he tends to disappear to give you space. Sometimes he’ll ask for permission to share the same comfortable spot with you, promising to not make a single sound! He simply wants to be with you. And as he studies he’ll stare at you from behind, too bored to study.

He isn’t good at giving you any advice related to your writer’s block or any other problem related to your story :(. He might be your biggest fan though! And whenever he is taking a break on his work he’ll text you to get updates of your project. 

He genuinely loves to see how you spam him with your ideas. He always compliments your imagination for going through so many ideas. He is literally cheering you up no matter how bad the idea is (he believes that even the bad ideas are good because he could’ve never thought of that).

Doodles your characters for you when he is bored. He gets back home and happily approaches to you, like a little kid, “baby! Look what I did,” he says and shows you a small paper where one of your characters was.

He completely believes in your talent! And will constantly verbalize it to you. The moment you get your book published and you start receiving good comments, he will be the first one to read them (he constantly checks the page of reviews and reads out loud each positive comment), and damn… he’s much more excited than you to see those positive comments. He might see the 'negative' ones as things to improve, no need to get demotivated!

Whenever he is talking with a customer at the café, he’ll drop that his partner is a writer, just in case there is any luck of getting more readers in the future or an agent for an editorial!

PRIYA

She will gift you a handmade cup for your tea, coffee or simply water to use during your writing hours! It will have beautiful flowers around and an inspiring sentence for you to never give up. Priya knows how draining can be to be creative for so long, and it is ok to not have any ideas sometimes. 

She makes sure the environment you work in is comfortable for you. She lights your favorite candle, so the sweet scent of it can be beneficial for your focus.

Priya likes to study besides you, as it’s a way to spend time with you, share some snacks and focus in your stuff individually. She uses timers to set the time to work and the time to study. She actually helps you to set a routine for writing.

I believe she is genuinely interested in knowing anything from your characters and plot, reaching the extremes of making questions that aren’t answered in your book. She will most likely do a deep psychological analysis of your characters.

She is very patient with you, knowing how frustration could take the best of you from any block or any hard scene to write. Writing isn’t easy, and it is such a long process. The moment she sees you aren’t enjoying it, she practically forces you to stop and take a break, “darling, take a deep breath, yes? Writing takes time and patience. You’re already doing a good job by keeping constancy with this.”

Gladly your beta reader, gives you her honest thoughts about your manuscript with cute post-its, making it so visually cute and attractive to read. Even the comments to improve seem softer from the cuteness of the format. And she also does it this way, so her words do not affect you that much! She knows you worked hard on a scene, she simply suggests things to improve the experience and give more intensity to the scene.

Priya is very good at taking you out from the writer’s block as she’ll drag you to have a deep talk about it with her. She’ll ask things from another perspective, setting your characters in other scenarios to develop them and get an idea from those random scenarios. She’d suggest you to try freewriting for a few minutes, even if you can simply write your thoughts during that day, or any of your recent dreams. If you want to get more creative, she’ll help you to do a collage of pics that match the vibes of your story, or simply take a warm bath and a nice nap to relax. The lack of creativity comes from mental exhaustion. And you should definitely write without any pressure and enjoy the process!

You lived in Castiel’s apartment since the day you married, though it felt as if you already lived there even before getting an official wedding. It is a big, cozy apartment for the both of you, and he is more than happy to have you around. You two would equally pay for things, though expect Castiel to have a sugar daddy complex and try to spoil you for everything.

Castiel has always been willing to invest his best effort to make sure that your relationship works healthily and greatly. No matter if he is busy with his tours or composing some of his songs, he wants to give you enough attention as well. And when Castiel is in love, he is very attentive and romantic!

He looks at his ring in awe, remembering the meaning behind it. And when he is holding your hand, he raises it gently to kiss the exact spot where your ring is, his eyes shinning with love. It makes him feel so excited and lucky inside.

Even if he is used to waking up besides you, his heart still quickens when he opens his eyes and sees you right there. A soft smile appears on his face, feeling very lucky to having deserved the title of your husband. He’d admire your calm behavior, memorizing every single feature of your face, his smile growing with affection. His hand would carefully massage your scalp, making sure it only helps you to relax even more, not to wake you up.

He takes advantage of your sleeping form to go and prepare breakfast for you two. Then he brings it to bed.

Castiel is well aware of your preferences, so he’d basically spoil you for special breakfasts, lunches and dinners. The anniversary dinners are the better ones! He prepares the whole house with sweet candles, making the lightning give a more intimate and romantic environment. 

Completely trusts you to dye his hair! It’s a part of the monthly routine at this point, and you two have a lot of fun when you’re doing that. You take funny pictures of him, and he absolutely adores every single one of those pics as they save all the fun you had. 

He loves to take pictures of the most special moments with you. He even takes secret pics of you so he can stare at them when he is in a tour. He constantly gets teased by his bandmates about being such a simp, yet he shows his ring and proudly says “well, who’s married and loved and who’s not?”

When he is doing a tour, he makes sure to have morning and night calls just to check on you. He loves to hear you ramble about whatever crosses your mind. And even if he teases you about talking too much, he absolutely adores seeing your talkative side. It has been normal for both of you to see him go on a tour. He’ll always bring you some gifts from wherever he has gone, but good news…

Most of the time, whenever you’re free, he is kidnapping you to another country so he doesn’t miss you every single night. Of course, to do this he had to have a talk with his band members like “would you agree if I bring my spouse on our tours..?” 

And hell yeah, he achieved to make them agree! His relationship with you is known, he might post stuff with you on his Instagram and be proud about having you as his spouse. And expect this man to post stories with pics of you and 300 emojis of 😍💕 

Castiel is so in love. Even after any concert he gives a grateful speech where he always thanks you for being a great support on his career.

He can give you free guitar classes if you’d like too. And if you like to sing, he could be the guitar and you could be the voice. Though expect him to praise you a lot.

Oh, yes, the only problem… he might play his guitar late at night, when he needs to practice for any future concert, when he needs to unwind or when he is simply bored. The moment you let him know that he’s bothering you, he’d go quickly to bed like a sad puppy and apologize, filling you with kisses and hugs.

Castiel is very clingy when you both are in private! Even though he isn’t scared of being clingy in public, keeping his hand casually on your waist, planting short kisses on your cheek… but when you both are in private, expect him to be all over you. He’d have an arm around your shoulders so you can rest your head on his chest, as his free hand place your legs over his. And let’s not forget about the spontaneous kisses! He’d surely give you small kisses on your head, forehead, cheek, and finally lips.

Those cold winter noons, when the sun is finally hid and the day is ending, he’d keep you by his side on the couch, under a blanket and cuddling you as you see a random show or movie on the TV.

When you both can have a stable economy, every anniversary would result in traveling to some foreign country! Castiel has been in some places already, but the experience of going with you is definitely different and much better.

There would be a part of your daily routines where you both go on a walk with your pet (because it is a must to have a dog if you're living with Castiel, my bad) together and simply yap about whatever comes through your mind. And Castiel is very talkative as well. It is very easy to have fun with him and the laughs are always assured.

Castiel is very supportive with whatever you like, always pushing you to achieve your dreams. You also do the same for him, and he naturally wants to see you happy for achieving things in your life. He worries a lot about your mental health.

But he also worries a lot about your physical health, reaching the point of going out of the apartment to smoke so he doesn’t bother you (and he’d fill his clothes with perfume so the tabaco is subsided and doesn't bother you). 

And whenever you get sick, he truly hopes to be there and take care of you since the beginning. It hurts him in the heart when he is in a practice and receives the message of you having temperature :(. He makes his best to leave as soon as possible and then rushes to go back home, he can’t leave his spouse feeling dead while he is away!

Has a whole album of pics since your teen years until the recent ones which he fills every year and during the anniversary night, as you both are together cuddling in bed, he opens it and shows all the new pics that had been collected in the past year.

Night routines are always important, and he definitely wants you to teach him how to do a proper skincare routine, so his skin is always bright and stunning. 

I'm sure he'd trust you to shave his beard when it starts growing.

He is cuddly during the night and very talkative if he’s got the energy. So you two would lie down, sometimes his head on your chest or the other way around. Then your dog would join to bed and you three would be a happy family in bed!

Castiel likes to take you to some of the first spots where you both had your first dates as teens and do the same stuff again just to feel nostalgic.

At some point in your lives he’ll give you the speech of considering having kids. He’d love to have kids with you, the excitement of seeing you pregnant and taking care of you during that time is a thought that has crossed his mind lots of times. And damn he truly wishes. He wants to be a proud grandpa of his grandchildren and educate them, play with them and see them grow up.

In conclusion, you’re the softest spot of this man, and he is bragging whenever he can about having built an incredible life with his favorite person!

NATHANIEL

He also had to face getting anxious about speaking in public as he had to be the face of the classroom and give a good impression. Nathaniel had to learn how to speak properly in front of teachers and the whole class to be a good example and communicate correctly some ideas.

No matter the confidence he might show, he still feels terrified of messing it up and that becoming a chain of negative consequences.

When the words “oral presentation” left the teachers mouth, there was a collective sigh. Nath couldn’t show a negative reaction towards it but he hated the idea, plus he noticed your panic.

Nath will offer to practice it together. To face a fear you must attempt to face it, you must accept that you’re afraid of that and mentalize that you want to change it. He will be there to help you, giving you advice about the things you should improve.

“Eye contact..”, “try to communicate with your hands”, “explain, do not memorize anything”, “focus on communicating the message, do not try to be so perfect”, “bring a bottle of water with you”.

He’ll make you practice until those mistakes are missing. Mastering public speaking can take some time. Every time you practice, it gets a little bit easier. That’s why you’d start preparing the project soon.

Before you started the presentation he told you, “while you present half of the class will be preparing for their own presentations, so don’t worry and take your time”.

During the presentation he wouldn’t do any sign, he’d simply nod to your words and listen attentively to you. He’d have a subtle smile on his lips. He doesn’t want to distract you.

Once you finished your presentation, he squeezed your shoulder and said “you did much better than you can imagine”.

CASTIEL

The type of student who knew there was an oral presentation and still improvised because it isn’t that important for him. Even if it goes wrong, it’s not the end of the world.

Seeing you so distressed about it made him worried and confused. He’d sit with you and ask you what is the thing that makes you stressed the most about an oral presentation.

At first he’d think about asking the teacher if you could do the oral presentation in private with the teacher, trying to adapt the situation to your nervousness. But the chance of that request being rejected was very high.

So it was time to work on this anxiety.

He’d give you several pieces of advice such as recording yourself to analyze your position, volume and breathing. You must be able to critique yourself but without dragging you down. It must be an objective critique. 

You’d need to know what you are talking about, that’s why it is important to be yourself the one doing the project, searching the information and writing it down. If you do the research and you read calmly the information for anything, you’d be able to explain it better as you are the one putting that effort for your project and not anyone else or an ai…

Seeing you in a cycle of stress will get him soft. He’d cup your cheeks and say “we’re all going to die, do you think people will remember this presentation in 10 years? You’re overthinking it too much”.

Small dates after each one of your practices to unwind (or he might bring you snacks every now and then)

The day it happens he’d be attentive only to your presentation. As always, a pocker face. Yet after classes he’s going to reward you for your good job.

LYSANDER

Another one who is pretty familiar with feeling anxious before exposing himself in public, both in projects or his own concerts. Somehow he always seems calm, always talking slowly and not fearing the silence.

He wouldn’t realize that you are anxious over the project coming up, so you’d be the one asking him for advice related to that topic.

Lys would share his thoughts and tips with you;

If you feel anxious about public speaking, you better know that the anxiety will always be there because you worry about the results of your efforts. You can learn to control your anxiety and go one step past it. Practice will make a big part of your speech successful.

Lys would tell you to not fear the silence and speak slowly as well since it will allow you to vocalize correctly and think what you are going to say next.

Write an outline in a small paper with the keywords of the important topics and use it as you practice as well.

Get comfortable in the space where you will talk! Lysander will accompany you to practice the presentation in the classroom where it will be when it is alone. He doesn’t mind spending half of his noon there with you, as at least he’d be able to see your improvement.

Before starting the oral presentations he’d bring you tea so it can help you to relax.

Deep breaths before going to the front of the class, and keep in mind that once you finish it, you will be more relaxed, and it will be done!

KENTIN

Yeah, so… he is in the same position. He gets sweaty and anxious during oral presentations, sometimes his mind goes completely blank and other times he simply starts stuttering.

He started fearing to speak in front of the whole class since he got laughed at for mistaking two words and saying something embarrassing. 

So you both would learn to control anxiety together. Or at least try :).

Meetings in his house, having chocolate cookies for snacks and building an audience of stuffed animals on his bed to practice. He will be in between all the stuffed animals, eating cookies and looking at you.

No matter what, he’d cheer you up after any try, “you’re improving! I bet you will do it perfectly.” This baby is very very supportive.

He’d notice your trouble for keeping eye contact so he’d suggest you to look at the top of people’s heads as it wouldn’t distract you as much as looking at the eyes.

Kentin would tell you to aim high and not think the worst. The anxiety makes you think about the worst scenarios, but what about the positive ones? You are capable of doing it, you are well-prepared and you know your material.

The night before the presentation you’d receive lots of cuddles.

And then… the time has come. Kentin gives you a tiny kiss on the forehead as a luck wish.

He looked at you with such a proud smile through the whole presentation, his leg shaking for the nervousness of his own presentation, but making sure he can be a good supportive boyfriend for you.

ARMIN

The type of student who doesn’t know there was a project -which he clearly didn’t do- yet he improvises the whole oral presentation smoothly.

He isn’t the best advisor to your anxiety… the only useful thing he says is for you to take it easy and explain your project with the knowledge you got from it.

He understands that you are scared of the results, a reason why he’d quickly set a positive path in the conversation when you start with the “what if… what if…”

If something wrong happens, let it happen and you retake the path in your speech. Your mind goes blank? Go for another point and when you remember slight information about the previous one, go for it. Even teachers and politicians do stutter or go blank during their speeches.

You will always be the one criticizing yourself the most, making you sad and down for no reason. You aren’t your emotions, you are you, who is currently trying to deal and keep under control the anxiety, trying to put a distance in between you and it.

Armin hates to see you with such a negative mindset and helps you to unwind, because no matter how much you practice, your brain also needs a rest to keep working efficiently later. He’d kiss your head and remind you that you are doing a great effort and that will have good consequences.

Even though mf would tell the teacher that you’d like to present the project first! You hated him at that moment. But he whispered “you’ll be grateful later”.

Once you finished, you held the urges to punch him on the shoulder but he pulled you close and said “now you can chill a bit, you did good as I knew you’d do and I will do muuuch worse. So you set the expectations high for the teachers.”

And indeed his presentation made the teacher value your project much better.

CASTIEL

Being realistic, at first he was a bit mean because he didn’t know how to have patience.

When you both met in high school, he didn’t know you existed because you never talked to him, and there was a good reason after all. It wasn’t until you both were in a team project that he got to know of your existence and realized that you were actually deaf. He tried calling your attention a few times, even yelling at you, but there was no use. Lysander had to inform him about your condition when he saw how mad the red-haired guy was getting.

Castiel felt bad for thinking you were a clumsy shy person. He tried to be patient, but when he was in high school, his patience was notorious thanks to the lack of it. He waved at you to call for your attention and communicate with you by basic signs, like pointing at some stuff, nodding or shaking his head.

He ended up using his phone to communicate with you through messages, and there he realized that you were an interesting person after all.

He is observant so he analyzed the way people communicated with you, being aware that he had to face you directly and get your attention. 

During his free time he learns sign language to have more communication with you, but also to impress you a little. He mainly did it because he also thought that it’d be more comfortable for you if he was more communicative in person than in messages, as he used to be.

He used to beat up those who dared to make fun of you when you weren’t looking at them.

So sometimes you’d see that Castiel was missing for a week, and he’d simply say that it was because he was sick or something. He wants to protect you from the negativity and bullshit of other people.

With years the communication got more fluent and he definitely didn’t regret learning sign language for you. 

He may get confused with some signs at first, using them wrongly and accidentally saying the wrong stuff. To fail like that made him really embarrassed…

He also worked his patience thanks to your relationship and because he loves you and respects you enough to not mind repeating stuff in sign language when he accidentally tried to vocally talk to you first.

He sometimes is glad that you are deaf so he can practice some songs with his guitar late at night. He’d warn first that he would go to sleep late as he’d be practicing for future concerts.

Just so you know that he is there, he keeps a hand on your left shoulder or the small of your back. It is very characteristic of him , so you quickly realize it is him who is touching you.

Whenever you both are in public and someone tries to talk to you, without knowing about your condition, he basically translates it to you after they are done speaking.

NATHANIEL

When you first came to high school, he was well informed about your condition and he had no problem adapting to it. When he got the knowledge about it, he practiced sign language for the day you came to school. He is surprisingly good at it and you were relieved that there was someone in there who knew how to communicate with you.

He made you feel welcomed there, and that was his main goal. He knew that his sister would probably make fun of you and he made sure to stop her before she did anything. If anyone dared to make fun of you, he’d gladly send them to receive a scolding from the director.

Nathaniel has a natural charm which made you feel safe as the first person that helped you to know the school better, so you relied on his company.

He has trained his patience thanks to his sister, and not only that but he can be patient when he likes what he is doing. When he acknowledges that his company is positively received by you, he’d be even more glad to help you with anything you may need. 

Whenever there is a third participant in the conversation, he has gotten used to talking and using sign language at the same time so both of you and the other person can get the information at the instant.

Even years later, the condition of you being deaf has not been any problem for any of you. Sometimes he likes to be in a quiet environment, and knowing he is beside someone who brings him peace and is not yelling just as the household he used to stand it’s simply perfect.

He wouldn’t even allow you to think less of yourself for being deaf, even if it has its difficulties. You are still a lovely person and that is the only thing that matters to him.

There is a subtle smile on his face every time he is focusing his attention on you. He gets lost mid-sentence when he is signing to you, simply because he got distracted by your beauty. It is amusing to see how he gets confused with the signs and then excuses himself by saying that you are too beautiful for his attention.

He is very attentive, so it is easy to get his attention whenever you need something.

LYSANDER

He knew there was a new student who was deaf, but he had no interest in getting to know you at first. He is quite the introvert and prefers to be on his own, as he also finds it difficult to take the initiative.

Still, he was aware that maybe you were lost during the first weeks, and more in a place where people weren’t used to communicating through sign language. He himself didn’t know really well how to communicate like that, but he used his famous notebook to talk with you, even if he lost it lots of times.

You will, once again, be a victim of his notebook research. There is no escape.

He is extremely patient and attentive when it comes to communication. He would like to learn sign language directly from you, but he would also end up learning it on his own so he doesn’t bother you that much during your free time.

At first he might seem really confused when not being able to identify too good your signs, so you’d have to be slow and patient as well.

He always carries a notebook around in case his knowledge fails to let him communicate with you. It is quite cute how he gets frustrated when he doesn’t remember a sign correctly.

Hey but it is a truly nice detail of him to dedicate a big part of his notebook to you, as he will leave some white sheets to write things to you. During class you two would communicate like that and fortunately teachers wouldn’t mind as they know what his intentions are after all.

With years, he will make sure to make his knowledge of sign language more fluent, and you might find him some days learning on his own.

He admires your strength in a world where not many people will be able to communicate with you due to the lack of knowledge of sign language.

Whenever he realizes someone is judging you, he’ll wrap an arm around your waist and make sure that you keep his attention on him so you ignore them.

In the future, after high school, he will check his notebook to see the first times he communicated with you before he learnt sign language, smiling at the little conversations you had through a simple pen and a paper.

KENTIN

He is your childhood best friend and has grown up learning how to communicate as you also learnt sign language, so you both basically learnt at the same time. He has always been patient and good to you.

Communication has been no problem since the beginning with him!

Maybe when you both were little kids there were a lot of misunderstandings because… well, you both were kids.

His eyes were always on you, making sure you didn’t feel left out at any moment and that you could understand everything others’ said. 

Even after the military school he kept being the same loving guy as always (I love him). But now he had more confidence that if anyone dared to laugh at you, they’d pay it hard later.

Kentin wants to make sure you are comfortable and happy no matter your condition. Because being conditioned to hear doesn't mean that you do not deserve to be happy or not enjoy your life. He is well aware of your insecurity of not being able to hear, but you are still a human who doesn't have the fault of having been born this way. You are even more human than other humans. Kentin will be there whenever you overthink about your condition making you less. He believes you are a loving person and will definitely prove that you can enjoy the experiences that life offers!

He knows how to call your attention and when you want his, and whenever you ask for his, he drops everything he is doing to check on you.

He might not have patience with everyone, but his patience never ends when it comes to you. 

He is kind of scared of something happening to you when you go outside on your own since you can’t hear anything. That's why whenever you are going out he begs you to please look around calmly and be truly careful with the people and cars around you. He doesn't want to overwhelm you by always being beside you, but if he can accompany you wherever you want, he'd be more relaxed.

ARMIN

The first time he tried to talk to you in class, and he literally was even yelling to the point everyone turned around to see him like ???

You realized something was happening when everyone turned around in a certain direction. When you turned around to check what was happening, you saw Armin frowning and looking at you as he moved his lips but without making any sound. You found yourself in the same situation as other times in which a person talked to you without knowing you’re deaf. You signed him and at first, he didn’t even realize you meant that you are deaf, until other classmates told him.

He felt truly sorry when he realized he was angrily calling for your attention when you didn’t hear a single thing from him. 

He knows nothing about sign language and at first the communication would be through reading his lips or messages through the phone. Sometimes he forgot that you were deaf, making it difficult to communicate, and more when he spoke so fast that you found it harder to read his lips.

Still, he found comfort and liking in your company.

He likes it when you are the one teaching him sign language, even if he is lazy. Still, he wants to communicate comfortably with you and feels like he owes you all the comfort he can give you.

He is bad with it… even years later. There is basic communication, and he makes his deepest effort on learning it correctly because he loves you and wants you to be good in your relationship. 

The communication will mainly be through writing messages and his clumsy sign language. He understands you better than signing himself. He probably signs in the wrong order most of the time, but you get to understand him most of the time.

The first things he learnt to say were mainly stuff related to videogames…

One of the good things is that when you are sleeping and he is playing games late at night, he gets to yell at people and curse them with all his rage. He used to get scolded by his parents or Alexy, and now he can be free to scream with no fear. Even though if you hear just a little, he will be respectful and not yell because he definitely doesn’t want to disturb your sleep.

RAYAN

The moment he knew there was a student in his class who was deaf, he had no problem with it and found it exciting that he was finally able to put in practice his knowledge of sign language. I believe that he is the kind of person to join random classes such as cooking, learning languages, learning how to do some creative stuff… simply to spend his time and improve his skills. 

One of the very first classes he joined randomly was sign language and he found interest in it. When he got you as his student, he had no problem. There was barely a barrier with communication.

As he did the class he was also signing so you understood from him. Sometimes he got quiet to sign, forgetting about speaking because he was focused on communicating with you and keeping your attention.

During your relationship, things go slow as a regular one. He considers that your condition doesn’t stop him from anything in particular. He can still have reading dates with you, go to the museum with you, go have a coffee with you… And mainly, he can have a good laugh with you too.

Just as Nathaniel, whenever he communicates with a third person and you are there, he naturally translates his words into sign language. Even if he isn't a part of a conversation and you look at him with an expression of “help me” since the other person doesn’t know that you are deaf, he will help you to understand.

He will never interpret any bad thing that has been said about you. He simply makes the conversation end and then you two go to somewhere else that’s nicer.

If you like reading, he shares his books with you. You will find small notes in the sides of the text, indirectly commenting some stuff to you.

If you don’t have hearing aids yet, he will get them for you. He wants your deepest wishes to become true no matter what. Yet whenever you wear them he’ll forget that you wear them and will keep signing to you.

HYUN

When he met you in the Cozy Bear Café, he thought that you hated him since you ‘ignored’ him. He became quite sad and confused at first, trying to call your attention but seeing that you were looking at the other side. It wasn’t until he dared to approach more and you signed to him that you couldn’t hear that he realized what happened.

It was a big relief for him to know that you didn’t hate him, he simply wasn’t able to get your attention as good as he’d like.

Unfortunately he found himself not knowing truly well how to communicate with you, and his main option would be through the notepad of the café, where he’d talk to you.

Hyun hated to be very nervous around you because he didn’t want to make you feel ignored or bad because he didn’t communicate with you. He wanted to be around you more. He wanted to be someone you could rely on no matter what.

He admires your effort when you work in the Café and your patience with everyone. He gives you small notes of compliments to cheer you up as you work as he finds endearing your presence.

He felt weird at the beginning with the awkward silence there was in the environment, but he got used to it and definitely enjoyed sitting beside you with no fear of being in silence. He finds your breathing comforting.

He joined signing language classes even if he mainly communicates through notes and physical contact. 

Hyun has no fear in scolding your boss if she ever dares to make any comment or consider you less just because you are deaf. You are one more in the work, your dignity deserves to be respected.

He confessed to you with a bucket of flowers and a small note that said “I like you a lot” with some hearts drawn around. It was pretty cheesy of him but it was cute to see him blush as never before during that moment.

Whenever he goes to work he leaves a note in your nightstand like ‘have a nice day!’, ‘make sure to eat and drink properly’...

Whenever you aren’t wearing your hearing aids, he’d simply take advantage to mutter how beautiful you were as you were giving him your back. He admires you like a fool in love. 

Wearing hearing aids would be an easier way to communicate between you and Hyun, as he’d be able to talk and also to understand your signs clumsily. He’ll always repeat what you signed in a confused tone to check if he got it right.

PRIYA 

She is very observant, so when she sees you from afar that you sign to another classmate that you are deaf, she simply keeps it in mind for the moment she needs to communicate something to you.

When she first communicates with you, she goes directly in front of you to get your attention and with that kind and sweet smile of hers she starts signing at you.

Just like Rayan, Priya decided to learn sign language simply because she was interested in learning it, and also because she thought that knowing it would open opportunities for her to get to know more people and make deaf people feel included when she was around.

Oh and thanks to this knowledge she got to meet you and she will always be satisfied with learning sign language.

Things do not really change in your relationship due to your condition. She keeps communicating with you naturally and believes that you being deaf isn’t a limit in your relationship.

She will save with you, giving you a part of his money if you do not have hearing aids because she would like you to hear about the good things life has, just as the sounds of nature or some good music. She is aware that it is overwhelming to wear hearing aids when you aren’t used and then you suddenly hear everything. 

Priya is always attentive to your reactions and your feelings, so the moment she sees you being anxious or something about your state, she’s gonna bring you to somewhere more calm so you can relax and rest your ears. 

She has a lot of words to say when someone disrespects you. She will argue for as long as needed until that person apologizes to you and she signs you to not forgive them because they do not deserve it.

With Priya your dignity and self-being will always be protected because she will make sure you are alright and not affected by any of this.