#naieve

The house was filled with food - tacos, burritos, enchiladas, everything that can be ordered from a Mexican restaurant.  There was also there was a Mexican flag, a pinata, and sombreros. 

Angela walked in to her surprise.  She asked her boyfriend Steve, “What is this?”

“It’s Cinco de Mayo, you’re Hispanic.  I am celebrating your culture. I respect it.”

Looking at the scene she replied, “No, you don’t.”

I feel Zermina didn't understand what I meant during our talk. Either that or just kind of desperately rejected it. I don't think she understands the severity of what I felt at all.  As someone she cares about why should I ever have to ask to be treated decently and with consideration. It's not just a situation where you tell someone that what they do is bothering you, it’s not something that you compromise with. It's not like "when you do this it bothers me, can you not do that? at least not around me?" It's literally please don't use me and give me false hopes and lie to me and manipulate what I feel for you to feel okay about yourself. None of it was okay. Why do I have to ask someone who is supposed to care about me to treat me good. That's something that should be known. So that’s why it’s hard for me to see a future where we’re okay. I feel like I’m suddenly aware of how bad she treated me, I feel like it’s something that she never intended on me seeing, like she got caught. That she would have been fine to keep going if she thought I’d never notice.