#n-chan

Avanna (she was my first Vocaloid I got), IA, and Yukari~

it was a complete shock for all of us. I even texted you the night before for our plans of running again, only to find out about you losing your dad. 

It seems like you look ok, but deep inside, i can feel that you're trying to cover the burden that you're feeling with a smile, and even trying to make yourself busy so that you will not think of all the problems that you're facing right now. 

N-chan, I can only promise you that I'll be always be at your side. if you want some space then It's ok. I'll just sit here and wait. 

I really wanted to rush to your place and hug you tight today, and just stay there and give you the assurance that everything will be alright. We just need to believe that God give us trials to test our faith and our strength. 

You see N-chan, I've been frustrated because of our menial boss. It's a stressful thing you see. Everyday, I get to see him on a daily basis, and we get to complain on his bipolar attitude, especially if he's hitting on us both. And what we're doing to overcome this is to laugh it over while having lunch. I love our company as I love you, and you're one of the reasons why i'm still here. 

I've already told you that 2014 is gonna be my year - hopefully it'll be your year too. fast forward to next year, I'm really hoping that we could work together again in our new office soon, may it be in Ayala again or in Ortigas or whatever. I'm so tired with our boss' attitude and I wanna destress. And I wanna be with you in the soonest possible time. 

I don't even remember where or when or how it started. I just stared at your eyes and I thought you were wonderful. Your smiling eyes, your haunting smile, your mischievous laugh, your uncanny sense of humor and your childish demeanor. All of these are those I like from you, and I hope and pray that you'll be like that for the longest time. 

Hello there N-chan, I like you. I'm not hoping to be your special someone, I'm happy that you're my friend and I'm having these special feelings for you. I'm not even hoping that we can be more than friends, having this kind of setup is enough for me to have you. 

For now.