I'm rereading It's Always You because 1) it has the same exact plot that's exciting for me (don't look at my profile and what works I've written, it's completely unrelated lol...) and 2) finally I don't feel nauseous about the writing and the story.
A lot of things happened this summer that prevented me from writing (moving countries for an internship and living in a temporary place for these 2,5 months), but I'd lie if I said I didn't need the break. By the time I finished the last chapter, I was positively sick of it, as in it was genuinely difficult to put actual effort into the last chapter. Rereading the same scenes again and again for months stopped being fun by the end. And then I felt like I hadn't stuck the landing and the very end of this past 2 years was kinda shit, and I couldn't do anything about it because the only thing I could've done was rewrite so many things, and I just couldn't do it. I wanted to publish the chapter and leave it behind.
I know that half of this is just perfectionism because the chapter would've been fine without me having reread it for the 20th time and editing the smallest things to make sentences that nobody cares about flow a bit better, but the other half of me just wanted to let go and move on.
And reading back the beginning, the first couple chapters aren't even that good lol. But it's okay, at least it's over, and just rereading the whole story kinda slowly makes me appreciate the good sentences that didn't age like milk, and some moments are so sweet and nice to read because I almost forgot about them completely.
What I'm trying to say is that this work took so much out of me and I promised an author's note that I still haven't written, but maybe after this break I'll find motivation to write it. Until then, enjoy Orpheus, and if I ever write something else in this universe, I'll be sure to post it haha
