Thanks for listening

I'm disappointed on the fact that you are a bisexual, but that doesn't mean that I'm hating you big time. I love the fact that you are now being true to yourself, that you are more open and more YOU... and you are not holding back on anything from us. 

Your boyfriend is also such a cutie, and I think that the two of you look cute together. I love the fact that you're both sweet and lovely, even though my heart breaks at the sight of both of you being in love. 

yes I'm jealous. and yes i'm lonely. and i was hoping that i could experience it with you. but we're friends, and i don't wanna ruin the friendship that we had. that would break my heart into bits and pieces. 

thank you n-chan, for the friendship and the closeness. for being true and for helping me a lot at the office, along with mac, bill, osh and she. i saw a different side of you that makes me love you more. i pray that this closeness will last for long. you and the rest of the guys are one of the huge blessings in my life, that is why i am the most thankful of all.

it was a complete shock for all of us. I even texted you the night before for our plans of running again, only to find out about you losing your dad. 

It seems like you look ok, but deep inside, i can feel that you're trying to cover the burden that you're feeling with a smile, and even trying to make yourself busy so that you will not think of all the problems that you're facing right now. 

N-chan, I can only promise you that I'll be always be at your side. if you want some space then It's ok. I'll just sit here and wait. 

I really wanted to rush to your place and hug you tight today, and just stay there and give you the assurance that everything will be alright. We just need to believe that God give us trials to test our faith and our strength. 

You see N-chan, I've been frustrated because of our menial boss. It's a stressful thing you see. Everyday, I get to see him on a daily basis, and we get to complain on his bipolar attitude, especially if he's hitting on us both. And what we're doing to overcome this is to laugh it over while having lunch. I love our company as I love you, and you're one of the reasons why i'm still here. 

I've already told you that 2014 is gonna be my year - hopefully it'll be your year too. fast forward to next year, I'm really hoping that we could work together again in our new office soon, may it be in Ayala again or in Ortigas or whatever. I'm so tired with our boss' attitude and I wanna destress. And I wanna be with you in the soonest possible time. 

Last thursday, I was supposed to either go to The Feast or to run. But after Abby texted me on that day, I knew that I needed to be there in Ortigas to be with the VG group. I never thought that we will ride the bus together going to Robinsons. 

It was a safe, fun and comfy ride. And with you by my side, I felt so comfortable talking to you about everything under the sun. It was a hour of fun and laughter, and I can't help but to be giddy by the thought that we never had a dull moment at that time while being stuck in traffic along EDSA. 

I'm also happy that you accompany me in KFC while waiting for Abby. Good thing that I saw Ben and the others, so I went along with them. I gotta admit, I wanna kiss you at that time before we part ways. And until now I can't help but to think of that moment, but in my heart and in my mind, we sealed our lips for so long we don't even bother on other people staring at us while we have that defying moment. 

It was infinite bliss. 

I don't even remember where or when or how it started. I just stared at your eyes and I thought you were wonderful. Your smiling eyes, your haunting smile, your mischievous laugh, your uncanny sense of humor and your childish demeanor. All of these are those I like from you, and I hope and pray that you'll be like that for the longest time. 

Hello there N-chan, I like you. I'm not hoping to be your special someone, I'm happy that you're my friend and I'm having these special feelings for you. I'm not even hoping that we can be more than friends, having this kind of setup is enough for me to have you. 

For now.