#mysmeme

Hiya! Of course! The ending kinda sucks, sorry about that! <3 

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You never meant for this to happen. It wasn’t planned, it wasn’t supposed to be like this…!

Hair up in a messy bun, you leaned your face temples on your hand as you sat at the dinner table, thinking about what the hell to do.

Do you tell him?

If so, how?

How would he react?

Will he be happy?

Upset?

Angry?

Will he even still want you?

All these questions bubbled in your mind like a potion in a witch’s cauldron, the anxiety of the situation almost breaking you in half.

How does one even go about saying this? How do other women manage to do this!?

The mere idea of telling Saeran that the two of you will be parents in less than a year frightened you to the bone. It was awful to think about telling him. You knew you weren’t ready, but even more so than that - you knew Saeran wasn’t ready.

He had only just started to finally be getting better, he was finally getting the help he needed for his mental issues and was starting to find silver linings in life.

You knew he wasn’t ready to take care of another human being, he was still struggling to take care of himself, after all!

Everything had been so good, and this would potentially ruin everything the two of you had worked so hard to do.

Maybe…maybe you could and should just get rid of it. Then, he wouldn’t even need to know about it.

He’d never know, and it wouldn’t destroy all you had worked so hard on achieving together.

On the other hand, that idea instilled horror and mortification into you. Even if it wasn’t a baby yet, it could be. It could be a baby between Saeran and you.

Could you even get rid of it?

Hearing the front door unlock, you hurriedly discarded the positive pregnancy test in your hand, quickly dropping it into the small trash can.

Washing your hands and wiping off your smudged makeup, you walked out of the bathroom, taking care in presenting yourself to be perfectly alright when you were internally drowning in panic and caught in an inner torment.

A forced smile on your face, you joyfully greeted your lover and his brother as they both returned from the grocery store.

“Hey, guys!” You greeted them, your tone seemed light and carefree, but Saeyoung could note a slightly stressed tone in your voice. Saeran, however, wasn’t nearly as observative as Saeyoung was.

Fortunately for you.

Both of the ginger twins placed the shopping bags down onto the counters, and you walked over to Saeran, quickly pecking his cheek affectionately, as you usually did. Saeran almost immediately turned redder than a tomato, your lover was the most adorable!

That ginger boy of yours muttered a small, shy ‘Hey’ to you, and Saeyoung made a teasing joke about the two of you, but unknown to you he was low-key observing you for any signs of hidden stress or worry. You were after all, almost like a sister to him by now, so if something was worrying you he wanted to be aware of it.

Since your return from Mint Eye, both of you had tried your hardest to make big steps to a normal life and normal mentality, especially him.

You were so immensely proud of him! Which was why this situation internally harmed you so deeply. A child might cause him to spiral again, especially into repressed memories of how awful his own childhood had been, and that was the last thing you wanted.

You didn’t want to seem weird or out of character to him or Saeyoung, so you tried to act…authentically to how you normally are.

“How was shopping?” You inquired softly, as you started to help put the groceries away into the fridge and cupboards, using small talk as a mechanism to stop you from thinking about the problem of your current situation.

Saeran groaned, running a hand through his tomato-hair. “Saeyoung kept making stupid puns in every aisle, it was the most frustrating thing in existence!” Your lover complained, putting away some apples into the wooden fruit bowl in the kitchen.

“Hey! They weren’t that bad! I, for one, think I’m juiced the most hilarious person here!” Saeyoung declared, which resulted in Saeran letting out a loud sound of dismay at hearing yet another bad pun.

You, meanwhile, shook your head playfully as the softest giggle escaped you. These were your favourite types of moments.

And you were terrified of letting times like this go when Saeran finds out you’re pregnant.

You tried your best to upkeep your aura of normalcy for the next two hours, spending time with both brothers as the three of you had ‘Family night’. It was something Saeran stated he hated, but you knew he secretly loved it. Obviously, it had been originally Saeyoung’s idea, one you supported wholly but at first insisted it just be the two of them when Saeyoung tried to include you to the weekly family night. Mainly because at the beginning, you really wanted them to catch up and bond properly, without you being in the way.

But, as you already knew, Saeyoung refused to take ‘no’ for an answer, and eventually ‘Family Night’ was a custom among all three of you.

It consisted of board games, movies, video games and card games. Some arguments would usually arise, mainly when playing games such as monopoly, however, it was all in good fun.

It was actually exactly what was needed for you all, especially after a long week.

As your current game of Cards Against Humanity, Saeyoung excused himself to go to the bathroom, and you were more than shocked he hadn’t needed to go sooner, you swore you saw him drink like three litres of Ph.D Pepper like, an hour ago.

How that man managed to keep all that liquid within him for so long, you had no idea.

The game night had managed to take your mind off your concerns, enjoying your time with the brothers. You three really felt like almost a real family, however weird of a family you all well.

You were trying not to think or worry about your situation for the time being, it could be tomorrow’s worry. For now, you wanted to enjoy this evening with your two favourite people, and pretend that nothing will ever change.

When Saeyoung was in the bathroom, Saeran and you were left alone, a comfortable silence between you two. You were sitting side by side as you played, and you knew he loved this game, and you did too, but not because it was funny, but because it made him laugh.

Saeran had the prettiest laughter and the loveliest smile. It warmed your heart immensely to watch your loved one be so cheerful and happy.

You were unknowingly lost in thought, and Saeran noticed. You had been spacey a lot, not only today but for the past, three or so days, distance in your mind and it worried him. Why were you so thoughtful lately? He couldn’t help but feel as though he may have done something to cause your distant state, he knew that being with him was surely more than anyone could bargain for, but you had always assured him that you would never leave him. You weren’t changing your mind…right?

The sudden warmth on your handmade you leave your thoughts behind and looked to see Saeran holding your hand. You smiled softly at him and felt your heart flutter in your ribcage.

Gods above, you loved this man.

Seeing you smile caused slight relief within him, but he was still more than a little concerned.

“Are you enjoying the game?” You asked Saeran, making sure to smile and seem carefree as much as possible, you didn’t want to give away that you were hiding something from him.

He nodded, smiling back, and yet you could tell it wasn’t overly sincere. You could tell he was dying to ask you what was wrong - you weren’t doing a very good job convincing him that nothing was wrong. Fortunately for you, Saeyoung came out of the bathroom before he was able to ask anything.

And so, the game continued for another hour, after which you were all planning to go to bed, at least you and Saeran, you both knew Saeyoung would stay up at least another three to four hours.

When you were all packed away, you pecked Saeran’s lips quickly, which caused him to blush due to the suddenness of it all. A giggle escaped you, and your boyfriend went to take a shower.

You were putting all your snacks back into the cupboards and fridge, and Saeyoung was sitting at the table on his phone. When Saeran left the room, his twin turned off his phone and walked up to you.

At first, you didn’t think much of it, thinking he wanted to find something to eat, how much Saeyoung could eat and not gain weight was beyond you.

“I know you’re pregnant.” The statement caused you to straighten and tense, the plate you were putting back slipping from your fingers, shattering onto the floor. Your breath hitched, hand clamping onto your chest, heart beating faster than the speed of light. Saeyoung tensed too, not meaning to scare you and make you break the plate.

“S-sorry, I just…” You sighed out, crouching down to clean the plate shards up, only to cut your fingers on a particularly sharp piece, wincing at the pain.

Immediately, Saeyoung helped you back onto your feet in a standing position, leading you to the table and sitting you down, getting medical supplies from the kitchen cupboard.

“Let me clean it up, Saeran would kill me if he finds out you hurt yourself because of me.” He tried to joke to lighten the atmosphere, but it didn’t really work.

“How do you know….about the…situation?” You questioned, as he sat down on the seat across from you, and started cleaning your bleeding hand, biting your lip in pain.

“You left the pregnancy test in the bathroom bin. I covered it with toilet paper now, incase Saeran would see it. I figured you want to tell him yourself.”

You sighed harshly when the cleansing liquid touched your hurt skin, “I want to, but I…I don’t know if i should.”

Saeyoung was hardly ever serious, but you knew if he had to be, he could be. This was one of those times.

“It…it is his, right?” Hearing the man who you saw as a brother almost accusing you of cheating on the love of your life was incredibly offensive, “Of course it’s his!” You whisper-yelled, trying not to cry. “But we both know he is not ready to have a baby - and neither am I!” Saeyoung would have loved to argue, but he knew you were right. Saeran was not ready for this, but that’s just how life was.

“He needs to know, he’ll eventually find out anyways when you start blowing up like an air balloon.”

He was trying to joke, but it really wasn’t going well.

You didn’t reply, looking down at your hand, which he was now wrapped with a small bandage.

“(Y/N)…?” He spoke up, realising what you were thinking about doing, (Y/N)…! Tell me you aren’t thinking of doing what I think you may want to do…!”

You looked up at him, tears in your eyes, biting your lip. “What am I supposed to do? If I…get rid of it, Saeran will never have to know and nothing will have to change…” You weep out.

Despite thinking about this, you knew you likely would never be able to do it.

“You can’t possibly be considering this…! This is, this could be, my nephew or niece…” He quietly argued, standing up to clean the plate shards.

“Please, just…” He breathed in, trying to stay calm. “Tell him.”

The next morning, you knew you would have to tell Saeran about your pregnancy.

You just didn’t know how to do it.

Waking up next to him every day, having all these little moments, you were terrified you’d lose them, that he’d leave you.

Logically, you knew Saeran loved you and would likely never leave you, but you couldn’t be sure.

Still, this had to be done. Your eyes fluttered open, seeing him still asleep in the bed next to you, you bit your lip and sighed silently. Getting out of your shared bed, you went to make coffee for yourself and for Saeran, making sure to make his extra creamy and sweet, he hated bitter things.

When you returned to your shared room, you found Saeran awake, seeming almost panicked, but calming down when he saw you.

“Good morning, (Y/N)..” he greeted, smiling in relief. “Good morning,” you told him, and put his coffee cup on the side table beside him, then did the same on your side of the bed, only to climb back into bed with him. Saeran pulled you close to him, which you found unusual as you were the one to usually hold him and show him affectionately.

“You know I love you, right, (Y/N)?” His tone was worried, insecure and it broke your heart. “Saeran, of course, I know. And I love you too.” You quickly responded and kissed him softly, assuring him in every way you could. You knew you had to tell him what was wrong - he was getting panicky.

“Saeran, I have something to tell you.” You knew you had his entire attention.

“I’m…pregnant.”

The words caused a thick tension between the both of you. He couldn’t believe it.

He wasn’t ready, and you knew it. You closed your eyes, and expected to be yelled at - sometimes Saeran still had his outbursts.

You didn’t even notice you were crying until your sob broke the silence, and you opened your eyes to see Saeran looking at you like a deer caught in headlights, but then pulled you even closer to him.

“…(Y/N), I love you….” He choked out, he was shaking and so were you. Both of you terrified of the future.

“…I love you too, Saeran…” You cried out, holding onto him as if he’d disappear any second. “W-We will…we will get through this….right?” He asked, and you nodded, “Yes. We will, we’ll…figure this out.”

The two of you stayed like that for most of the day, crying and comforting one another, assuring you’d be alright.

Everything would be alright.

helloo mystic messy followers! I havent been very active due to busy school days and also lack of enthusiasm.. sorry!! But do not fret ^-^ IM BACK AND READY TO POST MORE AND MORE MYSTIC TRASH FOR ALL YOU FANS! ps ik i already posted it. Mb mb