Nov 23, 2025
Feeling de-personified and not sure if it's post dance drop or something that has to do with the way I'm doing the days I organize my dance (#mydance). This happened last time too....
Organizing is a lot of like.. serving the greater good. I still got some dancing in. I should have figured out how to eat sooner after the dance. I was freaking out a bit about lower attendance than last time, but there were still enough for a good party and occasionally 2 sets. And a friend talked me down from that at least a bit. I shouldn't have given the performers an attendance bonus last time, because between the two dances I'm not quite breaking even. And December 27 will probably be smaller.
#yay for well paying day job that means it's fine to be in the hole for#mydance#some folks who were new to contra the first time came back#lots of people thanked me for organizing#they said they only go to mask required dances which means they hadn't danced locally for years#so its important work#just... tired. and lonely?
