❛ i’m not in love with you. ❜ ( con artist!saihara -> yakuza!amami )
Angst starters!! – Accepting!!
“That so?”
He chuckles quietly. His expression is unreadable. What he thinks, what he feels… are carefully contained by several layers. He wonders who Saihara’s really trying to convince. Is he trying to convince Amami or himself? Truthfully, the yakuza boss has little idea of where the L Word has come from. He knows they’ve had some… precarious interactions when he’s been drunk, but…
He’s not one to say such deep feelings so readily, even if circumstances were far different than they were. Perhaps in action, his feelings had been obvious whilst drunk. But that was so time ago now. And time changes things, does it not? He knows that change doesn’t come easily, ironically. He knows Saihara can’t change his way unless he wants to. Amami still wishes he would for himself, rather than for him.
After all…. time and distance change things. They no longer see each other or speak in the chatroom regularly. Amami’s in this or that place. Traveling for work. He has priorities that take up most of his thoughts and times. He has time to go sailing as he always dreamed, too.
“Would be lying if I said I knew why you’re bringing this up right now, Saihara-kun.”
He rubs the back of his neck as he looks at the con-artist. He still cares for Saihara. More than just as an ex-business partners. Far less than someone he likes in the sense that has been brought up. Saihara’s just… someone who knows a lot about his past. An acquaintance. If things were different, maybe he would feel different. Maybe Saihara’s would feel more than like just a dull ache in a corner of his heart. Amami’s been living his life with or without Saihara for some time now. He’s come to terms with it some time ago. He’s made peace with it.
“Haha, thanks for telling me, I guess. Haven’t been waiting around though. Not in love with you either, if you need to know. No need to drag this out longer than necessary, yeah?”













