#mpreg!derek

Happy New Year!

Imagine this.

Derek grew up really close with his uncle Peter so they're more brothers than uncle and nephew.

When Derek's in his mid-twenties, Peter's in his thirties and they're both happily in love with two great alphas, not yet mated, but have been in a relationship for a while now.

They also find out that they're pregnant, at the same time. Both unplanned, but not unwelcome.

The family is happy. Talia is...befuddled about the situation but also happy for her brother and son. Stiles is nervous and ecstatic about the baby while also weirded out and amused about the whole situation with Peter.

Because he likes Peter, he likes that Derek has someone he trusts so much and that his mate can have that same person be there for him while they go through this unexpected turn of events. But also Stiles thinks Peter is weird as fuck, and sketchier than Derek realizes. usual Stiles-Peter dynamic really.

(What's funny about this is since Peter and Derek are so close and hang out quite frequently, their heats have synced? and that's why they're pregnant at the same time. And that's why everyone is kinda what-the-fuck-ed by the situation)

Things take an angsty turn on the 9-week mark

Peter and his partner go in for their check-up (him and Derek scheduled theirs together, duh) but Stiles and Derek are late.

After being seen by the doctor, Peter asks the nurse about his nephew and she informs them that Derek and Stiles cancelled for the day.

He later finds out that Derek miscarried.

The Hale family is put in a weird position after.

Derek withdraws from his uncle a little. With some encouragement from Stiles, he does sit down with Peter first to tell his uncle that it's not that he hates him now. He just needs a bit of space from anything pregnancy related.

Peter is a little hurt, but he understands.

They settle into a new normal, where Peter tries to enjoy his pregnancy while missing his nephew, Derek tries to be as supportive as he can while trying not to be resentful of his uncle, and the Hales try to balance celebrating Peter's baby while helping Derek grieve his loss.

On a follow-up check up with his OB, Derek's doctor informs him and Stiles that everything is okay with Derek. And if they should want to try again and Derek feels ready, they could.

Stiles thanks the doctor and drives them home. Derek has a very dumb idea.

Three months later, Derek gets his heat again. Stiles helps him through it under the impression that Derek's using birth control considering what they just went through. Derek neither confirms or denies this assumption.

When Peter is 31 weeks along, Derek finds out he's pregnant again. He doesn't tell Stiles.

A week later, Derek loses it again. He almost doesn't tell Stiles, but Stiles finds out and brings him to the hospital.

The morning after that, after Stiles made Derek sleep on their bed alone out of anger and a sense of betrayal, the two have a long talk.

Stiles tells Derek he couldn't do something like that again, trying to get pregnant without Stiles' consent. He can't do that again, not if he still wants to be in a relationship with Stiles.

Derek apologises, and they agree that Derek will use protection during his next heat which should come again in 3 months.

A couple of months pass by, Peter's baby comes along perfectly healthy. Derek somewhat recovers, enough so that he's there when his favourite uncle gives birth.

Peter is grateful. Everyone is in love with Peter Jr. Maybe Derek a little more than most.

Despite his age, Peter is a first time parent. With his parents no longer around and his mate estranged from their folks, he feels a little on his own. So when Derek drops by to ask if he can hang out and see the baby, Peter is, once again, grateful.

Helping his uncle adjust to being a parent helps Derek rekindle the bond he had with Peter. It also helps ease the longing he feels for his own baby, which he should have welcomed at the same time as Peter did.

Another side effect Derek doesn't anticipate though is having his heat thrown off schedule.

All that baby exposure makes his hormones go a little crazy, and Derek doesn't realise it when he has a mini-heat a little earlier than scheduled.

Stiles also doesn't realise that that one night of crazy hot sex he has with his boyfriend was him helping said boyfriend through a mini-but-just-as-effective heat.

When Peter's baby turns 4 months old, Derek finds out he's 10 weeks along when he goes in to see his OB after worrying over missing his heat.

Derek is scared this time, and he calls Stiles right away.

He relays what the doctor told him, about hormones, and babies, and mini-heats, and he didn't mean to do it this time, he really didn't.

Stiles believes him, thankfully. When Stiles gets home, they talk about what this could mean.

Derek expresses how he's scared, but he also can't help but be a little hopeful. Stiles wants to feel the same way, but he can only worry about what another miscarriage would do to his mate.

Just a couple of days shy of hitting the 12 week mark, Stiles finds out the answer.

Derek doesn't cry as loudly and ask the doctors question after question like the first time.

He doesn't try to hide it from Stiles like the second time.

The third time Derek miscarries, Stiles' dad, the sheriff, drives them to the hospital. When Derek is discharged, he's also the one who drives them home. Stiles cries all the way, Derek holds him, crying just as earnestly but much more quietly.

The next heat Derek has, they're both much more careful about protection. Derek doesn't get pregnant then.

The same goes for the next one.

The one after that is delayed. Derek gets the flu. Nothing too serious, but it leaves Derek's body so weak, his heat doesn't come on until after two weeks past schedule.

He takes his birth control shot, but just as he feels the heat come on, strongly and suddenly. He hopes the shot works, a nagging feeling tells him it won't.

Four weeks later, Stiles comes home to find Derek having a panic attack in their bathroom, a pregnancy test thrown across the floor. When he looks at it, there are two more on the sink.

After Stiles calms Derek down, Derek asks him if they could just ignore it. For the meantime. He tells Stiles he just needs time to figure out how to feel about it.

Of course Stiles says yes.

They don't talk about it, but of course it's all they think about.

Stiles braces himself for another miscarriage, for having to take care of Derek after that, while also researching all the ways to avoid a miscarriage, what food to eat, what food not to eat, any vitamins he should get Derek, he even dabbles into holistic shit.

Derek is caught between just waiting for the cramping and the bleeding again, and secretly telling himself that if he just ignores it, if he doesn't make a big deal out of it, if he doesn't hope, maybe he'll get to keep it.

They don't say anything to anyone. Not to either of their parents, families, friends. Derek doesn't even tell Peter, especially doesn't tell Peter.

To make sure Peter doesn't suspect anything, he keeps up his babysitting duties, he goes to visit Peter Jr. and hang out with his uncle even if it only makes him more anxious about his current state, so much so he feels like throwing up every second he spends with Peter and his baby cousin.

Unfortunately, it's during a Peter Jr. visit when what Stiles and Derek fear most happen.

Derek was leaving, Stiles waiting for him at Peter's driveway, when Peter calls him from the doorway. There's blood on the backside of his pants, Peter tells him, brows furrowed in concern.

Derek has a moment of feeling his gut sinking. Stiles rushes to him, turning him around to check.

And there it is, a spot of blood on Derek's pants.

Derek sort of doesn't move. He freezes, lets Stiles rush him to the car.

Peter tags along, yelling at his mate who just got home to watch over the baby, it's an emergency.

The three of them take the familiar trip to the hospital.

They get to the ER. Derek is seen to. Then they wait, the three of them.

Derek on the bed, checked out, staring into nowhere, face shut down.

Stiles on the chair beside him, holding his hand.

Peter stands by the corner of the curtain separating them from everyone, worriedly watching his nephew.

A nurse comes in informing them that Derek's OB isn't in at the moment so another doctor will be coming in to give them news in a few moments.

The unfamiliar OB comes in.

He's relaxed, is the first thing Peter takes note of. That must mean good news. Peter's not wrong.

The doctor smiles at them, and tells them that everything's fine. There's nothing to worry about. It's just a bit of spotting which is normal especially in the first trimester. So is a bit of light cramping.

He advises Derek to rest the following day and notify him if the bleeding gets worse. But other than that, everything's fine.

Peter and Stiles breathe a sigh of relief, Stiles only a bit more felt than Peter.

Before he lets the doctor go though, Stiles brings up their history of miscarriages. Which shocks Peter, because the family was only aware of the first one.

The doctor tells Stiles that if it will put them more at ease, they could have Derek stay the night.

Stiles asks Derek what he thinks, and that's the only time they notice that Derek wasn't paying attention the whole time.

"Der? Derek, hey."

"Huh?"

"The doctor says we can stay the night if you want to. Just to make sure."

"Why?"

"To make sure everything's fine, babe." Stiles repeats.

"What's the point?" Derek looks at him, blank-faced. "It's gone."

Stiles and Peter look at each other.

The doctor repeats that the baby's fine. And Derek looks at the doctor like he's an alien.

"Oh." is all Derek says.

Stiles asks for a moment with his boyfriend after that. He asks Derek again if he wants to stay the night in the hospital. Stiles expresses that he thinks it's a good idea.

Derek wonders what's the point. He's just going to lose it again, they all know it, and he says as much.

Stiles looks at him, stricken. "Don't say that. You don't know that."

Derek looks at him tiredly in return. "What's that thing you say? Once is an accident, twice is a coincidence, three times is a pattern."

Stiles doesn't know how to respond.

Thankfully, that's when Peter steps back in from listening behind the curtain. "If you don't try," he tells Derek, trying to get through to his nephew's blank stare, "you'll regret it."

Derek looks at his uncle for a long while. He doesn't look any more convinced, but he agrees to get checked in.

The three of them spend a long night in the hospital, Peter refusing to leave Derek.

Derek's the only one of them who sleeps.

He still doesn't understand what's the point. He's sure now that he'll lose the baby. He's even morbidly hoping he just loses it that night so they won't have to drive back to the hospital.

When morning comes and the nurse gives them the all clear, all smiles and cheer. The haze in Derek's mind clears somewhat, making way for agitation.

He can see the relief in Stiles' eyes and the reassuring smile on Peter's face, and Derek finds himself getting more upset.

Their doctor comes in. When Stiles starts setting an appointment for the following week, Derek has it.

"Stop it," he says, quietly at first.

Stiles doesn't hear him and tries to work out a schedule for Wednesday.

"Stop it," Derek tries again, a bit louder this time. Only Peter hears him.

Stiles has a meeting on Wednesday and starts checking Saturday.

Derek throws the stupid stuffed bear the nurse left for him on his bedside table. "I said STOP IT," he yells.

Stiles stops talking, looking at Derek in shock.

Peter quietly leads the doctor out of the room.

Stiles ignores the teddy bear, joining Derek on the bed. Derek doesn't realise he's crying until Stiles wipes his cheek with the end of his sleeve.

Stiles holds his hand and gently commands him to, "Talk to me."

Derek shakes his head, really getting into the thick of the tears now.

"What's the point," he asks again, sobbing, "I'm going to lose it. I'm just gonna lose it again, Stiles. What's the point?"

All the planning, the relief, the wondering, and the hoping.

"I can't do it. I can't do this, Stiles. I can't!"

Stiles wants to pull Derek in and just agree. But he resists the urge, and settles for holding Derek's hand. "What do you want to do?"

Derek bites his lips and looks down in shame.

"Derek." Stiles persists. "What do you want to do?"

Do you want to terminate? Stiles doesn't ask, but Derek hears all the same.

"You tell me what you want to do, Der," Stiles pushes on, leaning close and speaking softly, "And that's what we'll do."

When all Derek does in reply is cry harder, Stiles asks the more difficult question.

"Do you want this baby?"

And Derek cries impossibly harder still after that.

Because that was the thing, wasn't it? All this time, since having that panic attack after getting those positive test results, Derek's been living in denial.

He hasn't even entertained the idea that there is a baby to be wanted.

All he has is a possibility, a chance that didn't even have the best of odds. That's what he's been telling himself. Because a chance, that's easy to lose. A chance, he can just let go.

A baby though?

A baby that he could want? A baby that he could have? A baby that he might, probably will lose? Again?

"Fuck!" Derek chokes out in between sobs.

Stiles pulls him in then, holding him tight.

Later that day, when they've all gone home, Peter to his, Stiles and Derek to theirs, Derek admits to one more thing.

They're lying in their bed face to face, seeking comfort from each other. Stiles is holding his hand, and Derek holds Stiles' right back even tighter because he's desperately trying not to put his hand on his belly.

When Derek thinks he can speak without his voice breaking, he confesses.

"I'm scared," his voice still breaks, "Stiles…"

And Stiles, who knows he can't promise that there's nothing to be scared of, racks his brain for what best to say, desperate to comfort his omega. He settles for this.

"We have to try. Whatever happens, I'll be right here. But we have to try, okay?"

Derek agrees.

Moving forward from there, Derek finally successfully gets past the first and second trimester, but he can't enjoy his pregnancy. He's just so scared that he's still going to lose the baby.

The doctor reassures him that everything's fine every time he has a check up, but it's not enough. And it's just this constant battle in his head where he's either consumed by his fears, or filled with regret because he's depriving his baby of the chance to be celebrated and welcomed into the world happily, like his Uncle Peter did for Peter Jr.

I found it, @deckerstarsdaughter! - Anastasia

When You Wish Upon a Nymph by KaliopeShipsIt

(1/1 I 19,071 I Teen I Sterek)

Sheriff Stilinski rescues a nymph who wants to grant him a wish in exchange.

Hey!

I feel like there is so much more mpreg!stiles in the fandom. So here is my very wild guess for an angsting mpreg!derek :)

Expiration Dates by  KaliopeShipsIt | 226.8K

Oh yeah! And here’s the tag. - Anastasia

Trip and Fall - Stilinski Style by KaliopeShipsIt

(1/1 I 4,081 I General I Sterek)

When Stiles wakes up in the hospital with temporary amnesia after a household accident, finding out that he's no longer 17 but 27 AND happily married to Derek Hale is not even the biggest shock in store for him that day.

And the Planets Can't Separate Us by iSlashiShipiFlail

(7/? I 10,449 I Mature I Sterek I Rape)

Derek Hale shows up at Stiles’ doorstep at ass o’clock in the morning, half-conscious and whimpering ‘please’ repeatedly, in between broken breaths.

He hears before he sees the lump of shape decorating his tiny porch and his immediate thought is he’s encountering a haunting.

Puppy Separation Anxiety by KaliopeShipsIt

(1/1 I 9,188 I General I Sterek)

Derek and Stiles' three year old daughter is completely fine with Derek dropping her off at Pre-K, but has a separation anxiety induced meltdown every time Stiles does.

Naturally, Derek jumps to conclusions that couldn't be farther from the truth if he'd tried.

From This Moment by SylvieW

(1/1 I 16,711 I Mature I Sterek I Rape)

After discovering Derek is pregnant, Stiles offers to be his “Pregnancy Buddy.” On top of the usual difficulties of carrying a child, Stiles has to navigate Derek’s emotional turmoil from the traumatic event that conceived the baby, and his own feelings that he’s developing for Derek.

Yin To His Yang by weirdwithhumor

(9/? I 26,125 I Teen I Sterek)

Derek always wanted kids. He just thought he would find the perfect man, get married and settled down first.

He just never thought he would be left pregnant, unmated at nearly 30, and on a journey to become a single father.

Tainted Love by readtolive

(11/11 I 34,157 I Explicit I Sterek)

The entire pack knew by now that Derek was back in Beacon Hills with a wife in tow. Stiles had to listen to four separate rants from different pack members, namely Erica, Scott, Isaac and Lydia, how they fully expected him not to lose his grip and to remain calm and composed. Stiles wanted that so much himself and he really thought he could maybe manage it. He was glad that they perhaps failed to realize that the main source of his agitation didn’t stem from seeing Derek after so long, but from the fact he was married now. It was something he never even offered to Stiles. It was something Stiles thought Derek would never do.He wasn’t wrong, as it turned out. He just didn’t want to do it with Stiles.

Stiles and Derek Have a Baby by KaliopeShipsIt

(12/12 I 52,438 I Mature I Sterek)

As the title says, Stiles and Derek have a baby, made possible by Derek's magical Alpha-Uterus and my belief that it doesn't always have to be Stiles who gets pregnant, gorgeous though these stories are ;-).

Sure thing. And our tag. - Anastasia

What You Won’t Do (For Love) by Blue_Five

(1/1 I 2,139 I Mature)

Derek hates the mood swings.

Strength in Numbers by HollyMartins

(1/1 I 2,427 I Teen)

There were many futures Stiles had dreamed up for himself growing up.

But out of all his fantasies for his future, he had never once imagined that this would be his reality: married to a grumpy werewolf who apparently loved being pregnant and having babies more than scowling and also raising a midwife/wise-woman-in-training.

The Doctor Will See You Now by Gonardo

(1/1 I 2,485 I Teen)

With Derek’s former doctor retiring, he sets out to find a new one. Laura gives him a name: Doctor Stilinski. What’s the worse that could happen… funny you would ask…

Summer School Homework by dancinbutterfly

(1/1 I 3,936 I Explicit)

Derek is fucking in love with Stiles like he’s never loved anyone before. This, sitting here, with Stiles on top of him, feeling like his chest is going from an overabundance of emotion is being in love, really in love in a way he thinks will last. Hell, in fifteen years, being just like this with their own kid upstairs doing homework instead of Scott will be him being in love with Stiles too. Oh yeah. He’s terrified. 

Puppy Separation Anxiety by KaliopeShipsIt

(1/1 I 9,188 I General)

Derek and Stiles’ three year old daughter is completely fine with Derek dropping her off at Pre-K, but has a separation anxiety induced meltdown every time Stiles does.

Naturally, Derek jumps to conclusions that couldn’t be farther from the truth if he’d tried.

Changeling by HollyMartins

(4/? I 5,870 I Mature)

Stiles had experienced his fair share of “bad days” at work. Being a police officer, however, meant that his bad days were really bad days.

…But he had never truly experienced heart-stopping fear as he had just now, when he received a phone call from Tallie, informing him that Daddy was locked in the bathroom and she could smell blood. Lots of it.—Stiles and Derek struggle through the worst experience of their married lives and are forced to protect the pack from an unknown entity that preys on children.

From This Moment by SylvieW

(1/1 I 16,711 I Mature)

After discovering Derek is pregnant, Stiles offers to be his “Pregnancy Buddy.” On top of the usual difficulties of carrying a child, Stiles has to navigate Derek’s emotional turmoil from the traumatic event that conceived the baby, and his own feelings that he’s developing for Derek.

And the Planets Can’t Separate Us by iSlashiShipiFlail

(7/? I 10,499 I Mature)

Derek Hale shows up at Stiles’ doorstep at ass o’clock in the morning, half-conscious and whimpering ‘please’ repeatedly, in between broken breaths.

He hears before he sees the lump of shape decorating his tiny porch and his immediate thought is he’s encountering a haunting.

Say it out loud, love by pineneedlepants

(4/? I 29,137 I Explicit)

When Derek first finds out, it’s a rainy thursday that reflects his mood perfectly. He’s been oddly dizzy lately, with bouts of nausea that don’t make any sense to him, and he’s pretty sure he’s never slept as much as he is now, not even as a carefree teenager. He thumps his forehead gently against the table top, willing the water he drank not five minutes ago to stay down. He’s rubbing his head on the wooden surface when he hears it.

There’s a soft thump thu-thump coming from somewhere near him. He lifts his head slowly, as not to make the world spin and tries to concentrate where the soft beat is coming from. Because it couldn’t possibly be -

Derek cannot be -

With growing horror, he directs his eyes downwards, to his slightly softened belly. His hands have stilled on his skin, trembling lightly. The soft thump thu-thump comes again, and again, and again, the sound getting louder with each soft flutter, until the pulse matches Derek’s own. It’s almost mesmerizing, a beautiful cadence that flutters in and out of rhythm of Derek’s own heartbeat.–

Or the one where there’s a misunderstanding of the century, a little angst, a surprise baby and a deliriously happy ending.

Soul Bitten by BasquillINKPot

(12/17 I 25,266 I Explicit I Rape)

Stiles confronts Derek about kicking Isaac out. After a brutal argument Stiles goes to the preserve to clear his head only to have his most life changing encounter yet.

Yin To His Yang by weirdwithhumor

(9/? I 26,125 I Teen)

Derek always wanted kids. He just thought he would find the perfect man, get married and settled down first.

He just never thought he would be left pregnant, unmated at nearly 30, and on a journey to become a single father.

Stiles and Derek Have a Baby by KaliopeShipsIt

(12/12 I 52,238 I Mature)

WHAT IS UP MOTHERFUCKERS?! MAY FAVORITE AUTHOR AND DEAR FIEND @kaliopeshipsit​ WROTE ME A FUCKING THING AND I AM SO HAPPY AND HONORED ABOUT IT?!!!!!!

Alright, so. It’s not secret to the followers of my blog (hello, unlucky few) that I am a gigantic fan of Derek!Mpreg, Hurt!Derek, and angst. Hence, I have a lot of headcanon involving said three tags. 

Over a month ago, I shared a particular headcanon to the beautiful, the genius, the ever-lovely Kaliope. And BOY DID SHE RUN WITH IT. 

This fucking fic, my dear ladies and gents and Kaliope, started in my head as a moment. A single moment where Derek angstfully confesses to Stiles that he's pregnant again, after a long, established, and started way to young marriage. That was it. That was all I had. Now, I threw that moment to dear Kaliope over here, and boy oh boy.

I love this woman's works because they're always so well-researched, well thought out, AND so fucking nuanced and realistic you can feel a life unfolding. Even her more crack-y fics. When this prompt came into my head, I had nothing but a yearning for some angsting. But you, dear writer, you managed to create an entire fucking life to the whole thing, an entire life with very realistic conflicts that just made the angst that much more felt and grounded for the readers. You managed to create these three children that made Stiles and Derek's history and issues as a couple who struggled through a very complicated situation have meaning, have a reward that a reader could feel.

The build up of the story's main conflict and the resolution is so gradual, and quite that it just makes it have that much more impact, leave a more lasting impression to anyone reading. And the BALANCE of the real-life angst and the fluff! oh my lord.

When we were hashing this out, you warned me that this might need multiple readings in order to be fully appreciated. And I read it TWICE to make sure I don't miss a single fucking thing. And boy did I enjoy it in very different ways each time.

That moment Derek had in the bathroom? I felt it, I was with him. I felt his inner turmoil, his self-blame and doubt. Every time he'd tear up? YUP, right there with him.

My favorite though, my very favorite was the discussion Derek and Stiles had after the scare. That was just. Who would imagine that such a heartfelt moment, an emotional rollercoaster, would happen on a married couples bed with said couple not even being in a fight? Kaliope, that's who. The confessions, the honesty tugs at your heartstrings. And the discussions of abortion that bbgirl has been so worried about was done well. I could feel the comfort sought and offered every time Stiles took Derek in his arms or when Derek held Stiles hand. I could feel the relaxation and content whenever Derek would lean on Stiles.

This fic wasn't too light, it wasn't too heavy. It was just right, at a level playing ground and so fucking refreshing compared to the rest of other fics we have going on out there. You made it more real than I ever even imagined it could be.

Thank you very much for creating this entire story for me, Kaliope. I am so fucking sorry for giving this commentary so fucking late, life just got in the way. (I told you you always had the shittiest timing when it came to publishing fics and my life, lol) I hope you know how much joy and reprieve your works always give me every time I'm going through a hardship. I still can't fucking believe you wrote something for me, you don't know how much of a fan I still am whenever I chat with you. Always, ALWAYS just looking forward to whatever you'd share with me. THANK YOU AGAIN *CUE CONFETTI*