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WHAT IS UP MOTHERFUCKERS?! MAY FAVORITE AUTHOR AND DEAR FIEND @kaliopeshipsit WROTE ME A FUCKING THING AND I AM SO HAPPY AND HONORED ABOUT IT?!!!!!!
Alright, so. It’s not secret to the followers of my blog (hello, unlucky few) that I am a gigantic fan of Derek!Mpreg, Hurt!Derek, and angst. Hence, I have a lot of headcanon involving said three tags.
Over a month ago, I shared a particular headcanon to the beautiful, the genius, the ever-lovely Kaliope. And BOY DID SHE RUN WITH IT.
This fucking fic, my dear ladies and gents and Kaliope, started in my head as a moment. A single moment where Derek angstfully confesses to Stiles that he's pregnant again, after a long, established, and started way to young marriage. That was it. That was all I had. Now, I threw that moment to dear Kaliope over here, and boy oh boy.
I love this woman's works because they're always so well-researched, well thought out, AND so fucking nuanced and realistic you can feel a life unfolding. Even her more crack-y fics. When this prompt came into my head, I had nothing but a yearning for some angsting. But you, dear writer, you managed to create an entire fucking life to the whole thing, an entire life with very realistic conflicts that just made the angst that much more felt and grounded for the readers. You managed to create these three children that made Stiles and Derek's history and issues as a couple who struggled through a very complicated situation have meaning, have a reward that a reader could feel.
The build up of the story's main conflict and the resolution is so gradual, and quite that it just makes it have that much more impact, leave a more lasting impression to anyone reading. And the BALANCE of the real-life angst and the fluff! oh my lord.
When we were hashing this out, you warned me that this might need multiple readings in order to be fully appreciated. And I read it TWICE to make sure I don't miss a single fucking thing. And boy did I enjoy it in very different ways each time.
That moment Derek had in the bathroom? I felt it, I was with him. I felt his inner turmoil, his self-blame and doubt. Every time he'd tear up? YUP, right there with him.
My favorite though, my very favorite was the discussion Derek and Stiles had after the scare. That was just. Who would imagine that such a heartfelt moment, an emotional rollercoaster, would happen on a married couples bed with said couple not even being in a fight? Kaliope, that's who. The confessions, the honesty tugs at your heartstrings. And the discussions of abortion that bbgirl has been so worried about was done well. I could feel the comfort sought and offered every time Stiles took Derek in his arms or when Derek held Stiles hand. I could feel the relaxation and content whenever Derek would lean on Stiles.
This fic wasn't too light, it wasn't too heavy. It was just right, at a level playing ground and so fucking refreshing compared to the rest of other fics we have going on out there. You made it more real than I ever even imagined it could be.
Thank you very much for creating this entire story for me, Kaliope. I am so fucking sorry for giving this commentary so fucking late, life just got in the way. (I told you you always had the shittiest timing when it came to publishing fics and my life, lol) I hope you know how much joy and reprieve your works always give me every time I'm going through a hardship. I still can't fucking believe you wrote something for me, you don't know how much of a fan I still am whenever I chat with you. Always, ALWAYS just looking forward to whatever you'd share with me. THANK YOU AGAIN *CUE CONFETTI*
Side note: As fair trade, I shall write a little something for my homegirl in the near future. Will it be fluff? Will it be angst? Will it be short and sweet? Will it be a long-ass multi-chaptered fic? Who knows? Idek. But I WILL do it that much I can say.