#moving_on

It seems that the incompleteness is a gift that you gave me or maybe its some other emotional baggage I’ve been carrying for year together now. A present wrapped in memories- Good, Bad, Worst- I wish I never had in the first place; but ‘How would I deny it?, How could I dare to not have it? How could I have not been stupid.. here Human?’ The thought of someone else completing me gives a chill down my spine! It challenges the sole existence of my individuality. I exist, as a complete whole.. Self happiness is what I thought I chased all my life. But now, I’m here writing this. I have been scared & accustomed to live life in a certain way & was happy being unhappy for a while. But, it is worth? Nah.. I don’t do great with regrets. So, maybe something or the other has to change. Maybe, it is time to just pack all of my baggage & let it sink in the deepest of oceans. Now this might sound dramatic (PS: I’m actually great at it :P) but with a pinch of humor, I move on. Make room for people who have been genuinely concerned for me, the ones who have been patiently waiting for me, the ones who have passed the testimony of time & yet, still not given up on me. Maybe, they deserve a better version of me. So, cheers to broken friendships, failed relationships-- I’ve learned my lessons. Wish me luck that I’d be a less complicated mess this time. 

“When the wrong people leave your life, the right things start happening.”

10:58 pm thoughts

Anonymous

I tried to hear any of your voice note but it was really hard to go more than 2 seconds of it

“So I’ll close my eyes… look behind and moving on.”

Hassan Carter

Moving on. We’re all afraid of it, we all try to avoid getting to that point but eventually with a broken heart and failed relationships comes the part where you have to move on whether you like it or not… .. Its going to be hard, really hard and you keep telling yourself that you were stupid to fall for him and trust him to not break your heart and put you in the same spot you were when he found you. You don’t want to go through the agony of moving on from someone all over again, its painful and hard. You’re going to feel pain, a great deal of it, memories are going to keep gushing in and out of your mind, you’re going to miss what you had with them…the good times and the bad…you’re just going to miss having them in your life. All of a sudden waking up each day in the morning seems like a challenge which you don’t want to complete because you know there won’t be a “good morning” message waiting for you when you check your phone. And you know you’ll have to go about your day without talking to that certain someone at all. The first part of moving on is really hard..truth is you’re going to miss them even more than you did before, you’re going to keep wondering if he misses you too, if he misses your company or is he just having fun, going about his day without even a thought of you in his mind. You think going out with your friends, drinking too much, partying, deleting his pictures and messages and trying not to think about him would make things easier but every night before you go to bed you replay everything over and over again in your mind trying to figure out what went wrong, how he changed and why this happened. And secretly you keep hoping that someday he’d see the light and realize what he threw away and just show up on your door step and tell you he’s sorry. But this is just reality…life doesn’t work according to movies…its our duty to be strong and move forward. Life waits for no one and time heals all wounds and very soon its going to get easier because day by day you need to keep telling yourself that you didnt deserve what he did to you, you need to keep telling yourself that you’re stronger than this and that you can make it through all of this pain. You’ll meet new people in life, amazing people who will make you realize that moving on wasn’t so bad after all :) they’ll make memories with you and slowly you’ll feel yourself letting go of all the pain and hurt that was caused by the person who once hurt you….memories start to fade eventually and that is a sign that you have truly won the battle and come out stronger than ever. Don’t lose hope….its better letting go of the people who hold you back and hurt you, treat you like an option and do absolutely nothing to keep you…you’re better off alone living life to the fullest with your friends and family who have always been by your side …because honestly you don’t need to worry about making room for temporary people in your life.