#more changes

So tumblr has made yet another ridiculous change.

So because I am a indecisive little shit I have changed my mind yet again. (Sorry, it happens a lot with me) Animals was finished a few months ago and I had started one sequel called Things Forbidden. Weellllll......in light of the recent Dark Gabe series that have been popping up all over the place my writing muse has smacked me with ideas for another sequel idea. What I am doing is kind of a “choose your sequel” kind of thing. (similar to choose your own adventure) Things Forbidden will still be in the works but I am also doing a Dark Gabe sequel that will work with the ending of Animals better. The name of this one will be “Coming Back for You.” (I am apparently doing this whole series with Maroon 5 song titles :) In closing my lovelies, pick a sequel and go with what you want. You can have fluffy sweet Gabriel or Dark Gabriel.....cheers. 

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All the while, spiritual things progressively felt more and more off. I did (and am doing) my best to maintain myself. Understandably though, I did have angry outbursts, pleas, emotional emptying, and straight up tantrums in front of my altar.

and then things felt more spiritually off. my gods and i just stopped talking. i understood, i crossed a line, they wouldn't/couldn't give me what i needed/wanted in that time frame.

I tried to go back to my lore religion of Catholicism and that is it's own beast (especially in online spaces), mass was not comforting at all. (I'm still a huge Mary & the Saints stan though.)

So after a lot of work and multiple readings from multiple people, it turns out (at the ripe age of 45) I'm being introduced to a brand new pantheon and um.

I'm shook. it's weird. it's exciting. it's overwhelming.

It is nice to feel the Ladies are wanting to be in my life (and each of them fill something I had been trying to manifest in my life, didn't think it would be gods though.)

my ocd is not happy cos it's new rituals/routines to start while releasing the old ones so everything is different. I'm not the best at that.

I sat and watched the waves crash against the rocks, this song on repeat. It always brings back good memories. I tried to make a big decision, concerning my future and the fall. Distanced myself from everything and everyone, because I needed to think.