#mood stuff

im feelin rly weird im not feeling depressed as Shit like i was for most of november/december. i feel pretty okay actually, even bordering on good, but i just cant do things,.

i know i need to do stuff. like studying or going outside or sleeping

but i cant make myself

like ill think about it and ill convince myself that i need to, or want to, but i never do theres always something stopping me

and im rly worried that i wont get anyhting done that i wont start studying and that ill eventualoy fail bc i dcant make myself

none of this ‘find motivation’ stuff helps me. bc i know i need to do things. buit nothing at all makes me or keeps me motivated. and i cant be bothered to do anything

i just dont know what to do im constantly bored but nothing i can think of doing is anything thati want to do. i dont want to do anything. all i do is sit on my computer and scroll the same 5 posts on my dash or the same 5 tweets on my tl and flick between tabs hoping that someone will message me or that ill somehow find motivation to study or go outside or do somethin,anything,

typing this is making my mood turn sour

idk