Yesterday I touched on my own experience lacking self confidence, and today I wanted to expand on that in today's post. ➡️ As I mentioned yesterday, journalling about times I felt my emotions spike during the day helped me to realize that I had a big self confidence problem. It started by not being able to take criticism, but quickly turned into learning much more about why I do the things I do. ➡️ Here's the thing: I've always known that I struggle with self confidence. I'm quiet, bigger, and have never seen myself as particularly attractive. However, I've noticed a big difference in acknowledging the self confidence problem and really looking into it. ➡️ After journalling, I started to think about other times that I felt inadequate. After numerous journalling sessions, I figured out that my wardrobe is almost exclusively black clothing because I don't feel comfortable wearing anything else. I found out that I don't speak up because I never felt good enough to say things in a group (Assuming that literally anybody else had more important/better things to say). I learned that I don't like going new places because I felt judged for how I look. ➡️ I know that it's almost totally in my head. I'm bigger, but I'm not extremely big. I'm not hot, but I'm not ugly. But simply knowing that information doesn't diminish the feelings. ➡️ I was able to hide it from myself for a long time. I've worked the same job for the past 4 years, with close to the same people doing the same job. In my department, I'm the life of the party. But with new people, new situations, I was crippled. And it was easy to use my work life to convince myself that I didn't have a self confidence problem. ➡️ This is my story, and I wanted to share it with all of you 💕💕 ➡️ #Selfconfidence #Love #Selflove #Acceptance #bodypositive #bodyacceptance #allbodiesaregoodbodies #edrecovery #monthlymindset
