#mocha rambles

i can’t believe i’ve been in this fucking pizzeria for ten years

when hbo joel is talking to tommy and hes like crying and saying when he wakes up he feels like he "lost something" thats me Because no way ive cried over joel this much. I wamna be in his bones and under his finger nails and in his mouth and In his eyes I wanna look thru his backpack and sit on his bed and rummage thru his cabinets and Watch him shower and watch him stretch when he wakes up in the morning and listen to him mumble about how its too cold or too hot and watch him write with a pen and paper and see him squint thru his glasses while he tries to read and trace his scars and feel his facial hair and watch him sleep and look at his smile and see his face when he eats rly good food and watch his shoulders relax when its time for bed and hes not trying to fight for his life at every waking moment HEEEEEELP HEEEEEEEELP!

i love akane