#mobius wheel

When you’re pulled onto one, you’re gravitating back to the other. There’s a lot of concentrating (gravitational) power on both pulling you into this motion where you’re in between two gravitational force, belonging in two places -- a lot of the time it’s also limiting it to your vision as well. Because look at the big picture -- there’s so much space in your chart extended beyond just these two loops-- so how do you spread your energy there (outside the loop) to help ease/elevate the tension? 💕 

A part of it is evaluating what you considering to be your best assets, your habits, your 'worth’ and value and ‘what’ you bring to the table (where your pride lies, SN)  --- and letting that ‘go’ or breaking down that wall of ego, want, desire, need, self-protection. Only through breaking it down, does it go through transformation -- which is what Pluto brings to the SN. 

Wanting it to transform but only through changing and challenging yourself/what you ‘know’ about yourself (your stable/ground point) to change. 

With Sagittarius, perhaps it’s hopes/optimistic ideals, knowledge, expectations,  part of your dream/goal/ambition. 

Think of it as a baseline? And Pluto coming in going ‘well we should do some renovations’ (which is how it can healthily manifest) -- experiences where certain things are crushed are regenerated into a better positioning of the SN/baseline. And that can help you a lot as well? 💕

If Pluto/SN is not doing that, it can sometimes create a certain forcefulness, forcing the person’s good points, teachings, advice, skill-set to be pushed/forced onto others/acknowledged (which is why we talk about breaking down the SN so that the energy can be?? better). Wanting to be acknowledged, wanting to be a teacher or admired for our qualities, wanting or expected to gain something from our skill sets. 

Sagittarius can be very stubborn, especially when it relies on it’s ‘better-qualities’ to make it appeal to others/get what it wants --  and look away from the problem at hand. Somethings you can’t ‘fake it till you make it’ but actually have to sit down and dismantle, re-wire and let expansive energy in honestly (and not look at what it wants/what it understands). 

Opening it up is something to talk about-- and to do that, understanding the consciousness and what we internalize/fear we’re not as ‘good’ as we are in something-- learning how to look at those factors (internalized fear/desire) and accept them

Kinda like asking: what do you desire? and perhaps, why? and do you think you’re good at it? and then going -- what if that’s not relevant to achieving your goal? You’re focusing on something that’s only restricting you? BUT yes, it’s a wonderful goal/desire and it is definitely valid. And you put so much work and energy into it, all this effort and energy -- put into seeing it through, gaining grounds on it and with it. There’s sentimental values in what you’ve ‘had’ or ‘been with’ for so long, and that sentimentalism fool-hardiness is obviously valid from a goal/ambition and manifestation/emotional standpoint as well. 

But what if you let that ‘desire/goal’ go -- and instead, denounce, evaluate, or critically look at how it is realistically dragging you down as well? What if you embrace -- perhaps, what you see others doing and vehemently didn’t want to do before? Those you’ve judged, or moral values/issues you might not have been ok with, perhaps denouncing your values (expectations of the self) -- you can accept others values and perspective better now.

There’s power there too, where technically -- you have to have a certain level of ‘moral looseness’ in order to accept different view/paths of life and embrace them.

There’s a fear of ‘losing yourself’ if you just -- take other’s values or be integrated into it -- but don’t worry so much because the true goal of this is self-regeneration (Pluto) and you DO have a Sagittarius SN which is going to come through with finding YOUR perspective in all this chaos/values -- basically, it’ll be good for you if you learn how to ‘let go’ of this thing you cling onto.

With Sagittarius, it’s also your ‘contribution’ to the world and what you ‘bring’ to the table. And with it being in important house (1st-7th) what matters more is seeing how you can help others without expending yourself or relying on your skill-sets/clinging stuff so much. Breaking down that core ego/sense of self that has to do with it -- and instead, learning, growing and seeing the spaces around you (and their value/worth) for the first time. 

Open up Sagittarius in a healthier way (a student, as much as a colleague/TA) helps a lot with it’s giving nature without the reliance on the ‘self’ (what you provides, want, give, is valued for) --- you define your own value/worth, and if you can’t trust yourself to just say ‘i am valuable whether or not i provide something, i am and therefore, im worthy of receiving’   -- then maybe you’re in no position to be giving until you can say that with a deeper conscious/honesty to it? 💕

Anyways, this is all to do with clearing up that receptor in the 1st. Because your Gemini Stellium is also the one power-housing energy as well (and is?? more chances of being stable/less of a problem from first glance) -- it provides power for sure, but if the receptor of those energy is slamming that power back to the Gemini stellium when it sends it out (trying to balance itself) -- then that energy will be going back and forth without going anywhere.

Thus -- why clearing up some of those transformative power and amazing skill-sets you have in the 1st -- to actually be something that could grow, heal, regenerate and provide (disperse it around and help nourish the rest of your chart)  -- helps with moving along some of that loop-y motion as well.