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As soon as Yoongi hears the overhead announcement that the library is officially closed, heâs shutting down his computer at the reference desk and heading towards the back to grab his things. Itâs one of the last Sundays of the season that theyâre open and heâs eager to enjoy the end of his weekend before coming back to work for another six straight days.
He passes by Taehyung whoâd been assigned to the computer area for todayâs shift and winces a little as he sees his coworker helping three different people print while trying to hurry them along as quickly and subtly as possible.
When Yoongi gets to their workroom, Jin and Jimin are already packed up and ready to head out.
âIs Namjoon at the restaurant already?â
Jimin laughs as he types something on his phone. âOf course. He rode his bike there and already put in his name for a table. We should be seated as soon as we get there. Hobi-hyung just drove straight to the restaurant on his way back into town so he'll be there, too.â
Groaning, Yoongi makes sure he has his wallet and keys before shuffling over to the door. âThank God. Iâm hungry and need to vent.â
âAh, Yoongi-chi, what pissed you off today?â
Grumbling as he opens the door and still sees Taehyung helping the last patron, Yoongi just mutters, âIâll tell everyone later.â
Jin and Jimin hum in understanding, knowing that they never talk shit about patrons when theyâre at work and can be overheard.
The three of them leave through the staff entrance at the back, Jimin making eye contact with Tae to make sure he knows where theyâll be waiting, and Yoongi squints at the bright early evening sunshine.
Itâs a little past five oâclock but itâs still warm. Yoongi feels a little like a bat or a particularly grubby mole as his eyes literally burn at the brightness.
Jimin sees his suffering and has the audacity to laugh. âHyung, you should get out more, enjoy the fresh air. You look like a baby vampire.â
Yoongi snorts. âFuck off, Jimin,â he retorts absently.
Thankfully, itâs not too much more before Taehyung comes tumbling out of the staff entrance.
âOh my God,â he whispers, looking like heâd just stared death in the face. âI didnât think Iâd ever make it out of there.â
Everyone laughs in commiseration at their friendâs dramatics. âWe were losing hope too,â Jin snickers before patting him on the shoulder. âBut youâre free now and Yoongiâs about to start eating his foot so let's get to the restaurant.â
They decide to walk since itâs such a nice day and not for the first time, Yoongi begrudgingly admits that he really does love living in a small town where everything is within walking distance. The library is just a few blocks from Main Street, closer to the school, and Main Street is chock full of small businesses-- everything from a coffee shop to the soap store that he spends way too much at every time he visits to a world-famous toy store that makes their little corner of the world especially hectic during the Holidays.
There are a dozen restaurants, each with their own specialty, and Yoongi is glad that Namjoon had chosen the barbeque place for his weekâs pick. The six of them go out every Sunday evening for what theyâve taken to calling family dinners and while heâll never admit it aloud, Yoongi loves this little tradition of theirs.
Itâs a pleasant walk, less than fifteen minutes, and Namjoonâs bike is clearly visible near the front. When everyone walks in, they see Hoseok and Namjoon at their favorite table in the corner. A messy few minutes later as everyone settles, and Yoongi breathes a sigh of relief at sitting down and being off the clock and away from hell, at least for the next fifteen hours.
âSo,â Taehyung starts, skimming over a menu he could probably recite at this point. âHow was your weekend, Hoseok-hyung?â
Hoseok grins, taking a sip of his coke that he mustâve ordered before everyone else arrived. âIt was wonderful, Tae-ah. Iâm glad I put in for this weekend off. Going back home was fun, especially since the weather was so nice, and my mom sent me back with enough food to feed an army.â
âWell, we know where to stop by for dinner this week, donât we,â Jimin asks and Hoseok groans good-naturedly.
âIâm glad you had a good time, even if you left the rest of us to suffer in your stead,â Taehyung says solemnly and Namjoon snorts.
âWhat happened this afternoon, Tae? I know Yoongi texted me last night about how awful things were at closing yesterday but you look, no offense, a little wrung out.â
Yoongi interjects before Taehyung can reply. âYou act like you donât remember how Saturdays used to be. If weâre not dead then itâs Bedlam. Just because youâre management now doesnât mean you should be so impervious to the plights of your staff. After all, if it werenât for us common librarians--â
Everyone, including Namjoon, groans at the familiar spiel. âStop bullshitting, hyung. Did I not cover the desk all week with you last month when Jin took off and we were short staffed in the evenings? And did I not have to calm down Cerano when he almost went nuclear at the prospect of, God forbid, having to pay for his 132 single-sided color prints?â
Grumbling, Yoongi just rolls his eyes. âAt least you didnât get hit on by a woman looking old enough to be your grandmother yesterday. And I couldnât very well offend her delicate sensibilities and tell her I was gay as fuck, so I just had to smile as she had the audacity to pinch my cheeks and call me a goddamn dumpling. When I tell you that Iâm entitled to financial compensation--â
âThe union pays a fair wage, you know,â Jimin breaks in mildly and Yoongi just glares at the flagrant disrespect.
Before things can get any more out of hand, though, Namjoon calms everyone down. âWell, itâs good to know that the buildingâs still standing and that my department is making me proud even when Iâm not there.â
Everyone scoffs and as the topic turns to talking about potential plans for the group to go on a weekend trip together over the summer, Yoongi reflects that heâs really quite glad he took this job in a small town a few years ago.
Yoongi hadnât always known what he wanted to do. Heâd majored in history in college-- minoring in a few other areas that caught his interest-- but knew he didnât have the patience to pursue his Ph.D. and become a professor. Heâd always had fond memories of his own library back home, though, of reading any book he could get his hands on, of his mom taking him every week when he was still young enough to participate in childrenâs programs.
As graduation had started looming, Yoongi had applied for an internship at a research library and had fallen in love. He loved learning and helping others find what they wanted made him feel good, like he was making a difference, even if it was such a small one. As soon as his last semester had began and his internship had wrapped up for the summer, heâd started applying for Masters programs in Library Science and had learned very quickly that there is a lot that goes into making libraries run smoothly and stay relevant to the masses.
Heâd been roommates with Seokjin and Namjoon during college and while heâd wandered from library to library for a few years, trying different types of institutions to see what fit and what didn't, his old roommates had started as entry level librarians in a small town a couple of hours away from university.
The three of them had stayed in touch and Yoongi had treated them to a celebratory dinner whenever Namjoon was promoted to first assistant manager and then manager of the adult services department. Seokjin, for his part, was content enough in his role, tending to his collections and away from the pressure of dealing with the director directly and having to make all those big grand strategic plans for their department and library at large.
Namjoon thrived in his new role and when heâd reached out to Yoongi, let him know that someone was retiring and theyâd have a spot open, Yoongi hadnât hesitated to apply.
His best friend hadnât been part of the interview committee and all around, that made things easier. Heâd been offered the job the next day, started within a month, and had quickly found himself surrounded by idiots.
He loved it.
Yoongiâs been at the library for a few years now and while the whole department is full of dumbasses, they have the highest circulation of any neighboring library and Namjoon keeps them all in line with firm but fluid leadership.
Moving to a new town is always nerve wracking but Yoongi likes to think that heâs settled into things. He had Namjoon and Seokjin but his other coworkers in the department became fast friends, welcoming him with open arms. Of course, heâd heard stories about Hobi and Jimin and Taehyung-- but they had heard stories too and they had seemed to be friends almost before he even started his new position.
All in all, things were good. Yoongi didnât absolutely hate his job, he had good friends, and he lived in a quiet neighbourhood with a bustling town life that he rarely participated in but knew he could if he did.
Yoongiâs thoughts break off as he hears Jiminâs peel of laughter. Tuning back into the conversation, he hears Hoseok exclaim, âYou should see the way Yoongi turns red whenever he comes up to the desk. I thought his ears were gonna catch fire the last time he helped him.â
Glaring, Yoongi demands, âWhat the hell are you cretins talking about now?â
Itâs Namjoon who laughs. âEveryone was filling me in on your admirer. I canât believe youâve had to tell him where the computers are six times and you havenât lost your patience yet. It must be love,â he teases with a grin and Yoongi plots murder.
âI donât know what youâre talking about, Joon-ah,â he says stiffly and resolutely ignores the fact that itâs getting a little warm in the restaurant.
Thankfully, everyone simmers down as the waitress comes by with drinks-- Hoseok and Namjoon ordered for everyone while they were waiting-- and itâs time to order food.
That only eats up so much time though and soon enough, Yoongiâs back in the hot seat and cursing his existence for moving here and landing himself with a bunch of idiots.
âSo hyung,â Taehyung starts with a wide smile. âHave you gotten Jungkookâs number yet?â
Yoongi just narrows his eyes. âHow do you know his name?â
Taehyung waves the question away. âOh, weâre getting to be friends,â he answers airily.
Jimin giggles and itâs a little concerning how devious it sounds. âSometimes he comes in and youâre not there so we got to talking one day when Taehyungie and I were at the desk together. He really is cute, isnât he?â
Feeling like heâs chewing glass, Yoongi grits out, âI guess if youâre into that kind of thing.â
âAnd are you into that,â Hoseok asks with an infuriating smirk. âYou know, tall and toned and with those tattoos--â
âThe way his hair falls into his eyes,â Jin adds dreamily. âThe way he dresses like he wants to tell you to fuck off but then he speaks and heâs the cutest, most polite thing you ever saw--â
Yoongi tries to keep from smiling but sees from the way Namjoonâs eyes sharpen as he watches him and knows heâs not being as subtle as heâd like. Knowing that he has to say something, all Yoongi can manage is, âSo maybe I think heâs attractive. That doesnât mean anythingâs going to happen.â
âAnd why not,â Jimin asks, genuinely curious. âYou like him, he likes you--â
âHow on earth can you know that,â Yoongi cuts in flatly. âHeâs never done anything to show heâs interested in me as more than the librarian who knows where the copier is.â
Heâs stunned when the entire table groans in unison.
âYou have got to be kidding me,â Hoseok asks, looking a little put-out. âAs if Jungkook doesnât make a beeline towards you whenever he comes to the library.â
âLike he doesnât know exactly where everything is by now and like he isnât a reasonably well-adjusted adult who could figure things out by himself but still asks you for help just so he can bask in your grumpy little gremlin presence for a few minutes--â
âWait what,â Yoongi breaks in, shocked. âWhat do you mean he knows where everything is? Every time he comes in, he needs directions.â
âYeah, from you,â Seokjin says pointedly.
âIf he doesnât see you at the reference desk, he doesnât even look at us,â Taehyung adds. âAt least before I introduced myself and pulled him into a conversation. The most we ever got from him was a wave and a little smile.â
From his periphery, Yoongi sees Namjoon open his mouth and he closes his eyes in defeat, knows that his friend is about to put the final nail in the coffin that has been Yoongiâs frankly impressive ability to downplay his feelings and any hope that they might be reciprocated.
Heâs right.
Namjoon looks sheepish as he adds his two cents. âIf this is who I think weâre talking about, Iâve seen him around.â
Looking intrigued, Hoseok prompts, âDo tell.â
With a wary glance in Yoongiâs direction, like Namjoon is afraid heâll just lunge across the table to shut him up, Namjoon explains, âI was walking back from a managers meeting and saw someone in the New Nonfiction section? He was a little distracted looking at the cover of a book and someone bumped into him. He was admittedly pretty hot so I wasnât running back to my office like I usually am--â
Jin snorts but Namjoon merely plods on, neck a little warm, âAnyway, I heard the patron who bumped into him ask if he knew where the scanner was and Jungkook told them. I was ready to step in but he had it handled. A few minutes later after I talked to Jimin-ah at the computer desk, I looked up and he was actually helping the old woman scan her papers.â
Nodding along like it confirms everything theyâve been saying, Hoseok looks smug. âHeâs not only a gentlemen but he knows how to use technology.â
Jin stabs into his starter salad that's just been placed in front of him before pointing his fork with a cherry tomato hanging off the end at Yoongi. âSnap him up before someone else does, Yoongi-chi.â
Taeyhung laughs. âYeah, you know Jimin and I are always looking--â
âShut up,â Yoongi pleads quietly as he brings a hand up to his temple. âWhat the fuck,â he mutters to himself, wondering what Jungkookâs aim is here.
âIsnât it obvious, hyung,â Namjoon asks, making Yoongi realize he mustâve spoken aloud. âHeâs trying to woo you.â
With an unattractive snort, Jin tacks on, âI know it might be hard to believe, but some people think youâre cute.â
Yoongi blinks but Jin doesnât let him say anything before his tone turns philosophically wry and heâs continuing, âSome people really like the grump look. Admittedly, I didnât think odds were on that youâd find someone at work when all you do is glare at your computer screen mutinously and whisper under your breath about running away to a fishing village in Florida but here we are and Jungkook seems like a nice enough guy, albeit one who makes me worry about his taste in men, if he likes them so prickly--â
âOh but hyung,â Taehyung breaks in mischievously, âHave you really seen Yoongi with Jungkook? He turns into a little kitten, I swear--â
âYah, Iâm still your hyung, you brat,â Yoongi interrupts darkly. âWould it kill you to show a little respect?â
âBut heâs right, Yoongi.â Jimin would almost look apologetic if it wasnât for the devilish gleam in his eye. âIâve seen you stutter when Jungkook asks you a question and as soon as you see him, your whole face lights up. Granted, I donât think most people would be able to notice but your dourness is only, like at a one out of ten instead of off the charts. He even makes you smile when heâs being adorably awkward, too.â
âToo,â Yoongi repeats, squinting a little.
Taehyung nods solemnly. âYouâre a mess around him, Yoongi-hyung.â
âA match made in heaven then,â Hoseok crows and the rest of the table laughs.
Yoongiâs just trying to stop his thoughts from spinning out of control at the fount of information that just dumped all over him. Deciding he needs a quick break to get himself under control, he moves his chair back, merely offering, "I need to go to the restroom," when Jimin looks at him in question.
The group waves him on, having a merry time, and Yoongi rolls his eyes even as he huffs out a fond laugh at their antics, even if they're at his expense.
They come to this restaurant at least once a month-- they all love barbecue a little too much-- and Yoongi's sliding around tables and heading towards the restrooms near the front of the building. He spends a few minutes at the sink, and when he looks at himself in the mirror, he winces seeing that his face definitely didn't hide his reactions to all the ribbing about Jungkook.
He collects himself and feels better as he washes his hands and goes to head back to the table. Swinging open the door, he's passing the hostess stand when he hears someone call out his name. "Yoongi?"
Looking over, Yoongi freezes when he meets Jungkook's eyes. Out of everyone in town, Yoongi despairs, he just just had to run into his crush when he'd just gotten himself back under control. He only hopes that none of his friends are looking over or he'll never hear the end of it.
"Hi, Jungkook," He greets warmly. Not seeing anyone obviously with him, Yoongi asks, "Are you eating alone?"
He's all set to ask Jungkook if he'd like to join him and his friends-- and he knows, he knows, that his friends will have way too much to say if he brings him back to his table but there's a little voice in his head that points out that Jungkook seems pretty new in town and if he's eating out at a restaurant alone, he might like some company and apparently, Jungkook is already friends or at least friendly with the devil twins and it might not even be so bad to eat with Jungkook, to see how he acts with the most important people in Yoongi's life, that he'd love to spend more time with him outside of the library-- but all of his rambling internal wishes are for naught when Jungkook just smiles sheepishly and nods towards where the hostess is walking towards them with a bag.
"I'm just picking up takeout, don't worry."
Yoongi nods, thinking of what he can say to add to the conversation before the silence grows too long and awkward between them. "This is one of the best restaurants in town. Even their takeout is amazing."
Jungkook grins and reaches out for the bag the hostess holds, murmuring his thanks before he turns fully to Yoongi. "I might have a serious weakness for their lamb skewers. I come here like, twice a week at least," he admits with a little laugh and Yoongi doesn't know why, but he's endeared.
"That's what I usually get," Yoongi says and watches Jungkook's eyes light up.
"Really, Yoongi-ssi?" Yoongi nods, feels his face get warmer which is infuriating since he had just cooled down but Jungkook suddenly looks a little nervous as he bites his lip. Finally, looking at Yoongi a little shyly, Jungkook says, "Maybe one of these days we could get lamb skewers together?"
Before Yoongi even has a chance to respond, Jungkook's eyes are widening and he's almost backtracking. "I know that we don't really talk outside of the library and that even when we do, you're always helping me but I thought it might be nice to talk-- outside of your work, sometime. If you wanted to, of course! I don't mean to put you on the spot and I know it must be awkward to have to tell someone who sees you at your work no but please feel free to if you don't want to--"
"Jungkook-ah," Yoongi finally breaks in just for Jungkook to obviously cut himself off and take a deep breath. "I'd like that."
"Yeah," Jungkook asks, hopeful, eyes wide and the hint of a smile curling on his mouth.
Yoongi had mostly talked before he'd let himself think but it's not like this isn't what his friends were just hinting at. He's still loathe to get his hopes up but if this is Jungkook making a move or trying to be friends, then Yoongi definitely doesn't want to discourage that. And while he knows he's a flustered mess, he'd really like to hang out with Jungkook more, especially outside of work. "Yeah," he confirms with a smile of his own, tentative and small, just to watch Jungkook grin.
It's almost blinding. Yoongi loves it.
"Great," Jungkook says. "We'll definitely do that then."
Yoongi can't think of anything to say besides repeating Jungkook again. "Great," he says, abashed and drops his eyes to stare at Jungkook's combat boots.
Looking down, he doesn't see the way Jungkook's gaze softens, turns into something gentler and unforgivably enamored.
It's silent between them for a moment and Yoongi's used up all of his brainpower to get this far so it's a little startling when Jungkook suddenly shifts and lifts his bag a little, apologetic. "It was really great running into you, Yoongi-ssi but I should probably get going before my food gets cold. I'll see you soon?"
Nodding along to whatever Jungkook was saying, Yoongi blinks a little before offering, "Hyung."
Jungkook tilts his head a little, confused, and Yoongi takes a breath. "You can call me hyung. If you want."
This time it's Jungkook's turn to look away, flustered and happy, but he's meeting Yoongi's eyes again a split second later. "Okay, then. Hyung. I'll see you later?"
"Okay, Jungkook-ah. I'll see you later. It was nice running into you like this."
Jungkook waves with his free hand, smile bright as he steps toward the door. "Bye, hyung!"
Yoongi watches him stride past the big window and sighs a little to himself. He doesn't really know what the last five minutes were but he's happy and a little nervous but definitely feeling good.
Knowing that his friends will probably start looking for him soon, he take a deep breath, wills the blush he just knows is high on his cheeks to fade, and walks back to their table.
Everyone smiles at his return and he takes his seat quietly, listening to Hoseok update everyone on how his parents are and what he did this weekend back in his hometown. He's not really paying attention to the conversation though, too wrapped up in what just happened with Jungkook and if it means what he really wants it to mean and how it might connect to what his friends had been telling him before he'd left the table.
There's a pause in the conversation as the waitress brings their meals out and Yoongi debates with himself on bringing Jungkook back up but he wants to be sure, canât quite stop the hope from sparking but before it starts raging out of control. He just needs one last bit of reassurance.
Taking a deep breath, his quiet voice breaks through the pandemonium thatâs his friends making fun of him.
âSo he really doesnât need help,â he asks, out of nowhere, trying to pretend the answer isnât important to him, like heâs not hinging on his friendsâ next words. âHe only singles me out?â
Jinâs eyes soften as he looks at him and Yoongi feels both put on the spot but comforted as one of his oldest friends just nods softly. âIâm telling you, Yoongi-yah, Jungkook is at least interested in you.â
âDefinitely,â Jimin confirms nodding earnestly. âDid you know that heâs had his office printer set-up for weeks now but still comes to the library to work sometimes? But hyung, if he doesnât see you then he just wanders in the books for a little while before grabbing one and checking out. He really is just coming to the library for you.â
âMaybe you should give him a chance, hyung,â Taehyung encourages and Yoongi smiles despite himself.
His friends really do mean well even if theyâre a pain in his ass most of the time.
âI donât know,â he says, unsure and not bothering to hide it. âWhat if I do something, or let myself think something means something, and it turns out heâs just a nice guy whoâs polite and I read way too much into things?â
It looks like Hoseok is praying for patience but his voice is soft and nothing but supportive and understanding as he replies, âThen you still put yourself out there and thatâs something to be proud of. Plus, youâre both so awkward and nice that it wouldnât ruin anything. You could at least be friends.â
âAs your manager,â Namjoon breaks in and Yoongi stiffens a little wondering if this is going to be one of the times when his friend has to be the bad guy. âI donât see anything wrong with talking to him outside of the library or even asking him on a date. Youâre never presumptuous or pushy, hyung. If he even hinted that he wasnât into you like that, youâd back up and remain professional. I donât see any issue with you crushing on a patron.â
The rest of the table cheers now that they have their bossâ approval and Yoongi pretends like he doesnât feel the same relief.
âWhatever,â he finally says when the expectant looks of his friends starts to be a bit much and he feels like he has to speak. âWeâll see what happens but Iâm not in any rush to make a fool of myself.â
âAh hyung,â Jimin says, wrapping an arm around Yoongiâs shoulders, âYouâll be fine. Itâs not like Jungkook doesnât look ready to bookmark your ass as soon as you give the okay.â
Yoongi chokes, reaching for his water, and all of his friends laugh at his flustered face, rapidly turning red. He hates them, he really does.
But then Seokjin pats his shoulder and deftly turns the topic back to work and how heâd almost gotten into a fight with a group of teenagers whoâd called him an ancient hag when heâd merely told them to lower their voices a little, and Namjoon looks like heâs seeing his department demerits flash in front of his eyes and everyoneâs laughing as the heat is taken off of Yoongi and he decides that this isnât so bad, after all.
He doesnât know if anything will come from his conversation with Jungkook tonight, so he decides not to say anything, doesnât want to give anyone any more fodder against him-- really doesnât want his friends to get so excited that it makes him hope, too. Heâll see what happens and maybe he wonât try so hard to hide his feelings.
Ignoring a voice that sounds suspiciously like Jimin telling him that heâs already shit at hiding his feelings, Yoongi forgets about crushes and guys who can be both hot and adorable at the same time and enjoys the rest of his family dinner with his friends, thinking about how his life is made up of small moments like these that all string together to make a pretty good existence, all in all.
My Mouth Is The Speaker started recording their debut 7" for Escapist Records yesterday. I'll be in the studio with them documenting the entire process. Look out for lots of photos and videos in the future.
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