#mitv

And it's a long one, lol!

"X-Ray" - yes. good

"All in Your Rows" - skip

"Latchmere" - music is good, lyrics are dumb but the interview where orlando was like a wavepool was a big deal. Idk what kinda place you lived where its not. 👌

"About Your Dress" - this is better live than on record. could take or leave

"Precious Time" - love it. so great. with very good lyrics. glimpse of what theyd become

"O.A.V.I.P." - no. not now anyway

"Tissue Shoulders" - nah

"Happy Faces" - no

"First Love" - this song is cute but maybs also annoying

"Mary" - what

"Lego" - sad

"Toothpaste Kisses" - absolutely not

"Love You Better" - great. the cadence, starting w better and being big out the gate. so great. orlando has gotten the voice now and god bless

"One Hand Holding" - ok. lil too zydeco school cheerleader come on eileen

"Can You Give It?" - love it. his voice on this is ahhhhhh

"Young Lions" - this is a good maccabees song. like all the talents working together perfectly

"Wall of Arms" - yes please. so good live

"No Kind Words/Bag of Bones Part A" - this is a good turn and like the dark(er)ness

"Dinosaurs" - amazing

"Kiss and Resolve" - nah. sweetheart could never be said again and thatd be too much knowing it had been said before

"William Powers" - good

"Seventeen Hands" - fine

"Bag of Bones Part B" - love it

look tbf i have no idea whats being said in a fair few of these like i just read the last line of seventeen hands and what the hell ?

"Given to the Wild (Intro)" - good way to open

"Child" - beautiful

"Feel to Follow" - good. like the casually here remix and vocals better and have now realized that song was the first time i am aware of hearing orlandos voice*. and have since learned those were special re-recorded vocals. this version feels almost draggy *this is absolutely false. i already was in love with a quickening when i first heard this remix

"Ayla" - music on this with the lyrics is choice

"Glimmer" - maybs top 3 of theirs for me. so pretty

"Forever I've Known" - or this. also so pretty. have had this stuck in my head for a couple days & the parts when the music comes in heavy, amazing. and his voice

"Heave" - Good but also kinda annoying and repetitive

"Pelican" - sure. fun and good live. like the lyrics

"Went Away" - this has such big 90s feel to it. its good but also dorky but i love the shouty ending and also sad

"Go" - love it. pretty. very pretty

Unknow (featuring Catherine Pockson)" - i love this one too. vocals are super intense and love the sentiment. think i saw somewhere it was an attempt at a dance or electronic song but its very late 80s early 90s synth sounding to me

"Slowly One" - too precious. i dont like this. and the music is weird with these lyrics. idk what the plan is here

*Grew Up at Midnight" - this is teenagery af but its very pretty and nails the emotion perfectly. its manipulative. could be in a movie

i think this might be their best album. and touches on more relationship types and circumstances. there is also the preoccupation with time which is interesting to me. like time having passed..time has passed by. things are past now

Marks to Prove It - love it. orlando is a sting like lyricist but he does it better. he has a more people centered way of looking at things. hes making characters. anyway yes love this one and the yelling at the beginning is apt

Kamakura"- yeah of course. cadence on this👌 your best friends forgive you your best friends forget you get old. this is one of those lines that can be interpreted two ways and both work and which is it

"Ribbon Road" - this like toothpaste kisses and another one i cant think of right now are so super weird in the full picture of their work. like what is this song? its so idk americana-ish, westerny idk. and kinda 50s-ish. its just strange. not, not good, but out of place

"Spit It Out" - big fan

"Silence" - :/ no. this is sad and some of the lyrics are cutting but as a song i just cant. knowing this was it (final album) i get it, but still

"River Song" - i think this song is great. and the big swelling end is how this song should go. this as a singalong would be fun so long as you had a decent amount of booze and disregard in your system. but this song is also a lil crazy right?

Slow Sun" - mixed on this. sometimes i like it and sometimes im just like shutup

Something Like Happiness" - gold

"WW1 Portraits" - is this their best song? the of course they do part. died. someone on genius said if someone wrote this about me i wouldnt know how to behave and that is too right

"Pioneering Systems" - this is a weird song

Dawn Chorus" - this and a couple others in this are getting very leonard cohen-ish or maybe lou reedish and im not feeling that.

impo you can do sad lyrics with upbeat music or happy lyrics with dark/sad sounding music but never happy & upbeat (cloying, saccharine) or dark & sad together (gimme a break). its just too Too. there exists songs that prove exceptions to the rule, of course there are. but they are rare and have to be very good.

tw: break down

 Jeremy sighed, “Michael, you don’t know that.” He grabbed Michaels hand,” just give it a try, I want you to be happy.”

“Thats selfish,” Michael retorted, he didn’t intend to sound rude, but it just came out that why, “its selfish that you want me to be happy. It’s like if I wasn’t your friend, then, then you wouldn't care at all!” He pulled his arm away.

“Thats not what I meant,” Jeremy said facepalming, “A lot of people want you to be happy! A lot of people care about you,” he smiled.

“Why because if I’m sad it makes them sad?” Michael asked, “if I feel anything other than happiness it affects their mood and I shouldn’t be so selfish to ruin their happy mood.”

“Michael, stop it!” Christine said, “you’re thinking too into this, we just want whats best for you, its okay if you’re sad some days, angry some days , or just don’t feel anything some days. We just want you to be you.”

 Michael shrugged walking up the stairs and slamming the door. He walked into his parents room and locked the door, he was a burden wasn’t he? He was rude wasn’t he? He did over react at Jeremy being a good person, didn’t he? Fucking hell, why can’t he ever do anything right? Why is it so hard for him to be a good friend? 

“I hate myself,” he whispered, “I deserve to die.” He opened a small cardboard box with the initials, A.M. written on it. It was his mothers, Amy Mell. He opened the box and found a note, addressed to him, 

“My Dearest Mikey,

 This is hard for me to write. It’s harder for you to read. Michael, I’m sorry I’m leaving you to deal with your father alone, I’m sorry, I’m leaving you to deal with life alone, but please do me a favor and never, ever, harm yourself. You are perfect, you are special, you are loved. I know you have atleast one person in your life who cares about you more than you know, whether its a boy, or girl, they love you. 

Please do not ever do what I am going to do, I don’t want your fate to be the same as mine, I know you are stronger than I ever will be. This will all end, whether its with me going, or maybe someone will be there to save you, whatever stops this, you are strong. You can overcome this baby, you can do anything I promise.

Michael, I want you to know, this is not your fault. Even if you were 16 years old, knew about this stuff and were able to try to talk me out of this, I cannot go on knowing my son is getting beaten whilst I just watch and act like its no big deal. I was a terrible mother and this is my punishment. I love you so much my son. You were the one thing that kept me alive, but the thoughts just won’t go away. Not even the brightest light can withstand the darkness of space. 

You were the brightest light in my life, and for that I love you. My thoughts, my heart, my mind are as dark as space and nothing can brighten it up anymore. I’m sorry, you are best thing to have ever happened to me, I love you Michael.

                                                              xoxo,

and my wish is the next tour, it gets dropped. its truly so fucking boring