#mischeifmanaged

So the vote went as well as could be expected. But now Joannas acting all innocent as if she didnt know i was getting votes and just went along with it. She even said she was going offline because she was “feeling betrayed” uhhhhh I was the one getting votes after trying to work woth people. But whatever, shows me where her loyalties lie.

Yeah, I'm pissed that Sammy went home. I'm mad at AJ, but I do want to keep working with her so I think that I can get over that. But Alex seemed to orchestrate the entire thing and idk. Honestly, I'm just mad in general. It isn't looking good for Lukas and I so I need to get over everything and find my way into some cracks and try to find a way to save myself and Lukas. 

There are two things I have learned from my times playing this game. 1) Tribal council is one very long, very complicated, game of telephone. 2) Whenever you think you know exactly what is going to happen, is exactly when you have absolutely no idea what is going on.

reaction to third tribal council + what will i do moving forward?

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So I am feeling a lot better about this tribe.

Last night, Olivia said to me, totally unprompted, that she really likes me and Ruthie, and that she feels closer to me than some of the other people on her first tribe.  I also have a working relationship with Elmo, and I have...sort of adopted Kevin?  It's like when there's a puppy that follows you home and decides you're his dad now, Kevin's the puppy and I'm his dad, which, okay?  I'll take it?

I think Sammy going on the other side shook everyone up, which is GREAT and I love it!  But I feel like I'm in a good place over here, and considering we're only gonna have, like, three or four people playing the bludger challenge today, I don't feel great about our chances.  But if we lose, I think we'll be okay?  Maybe?  Oh lordy I hope so.

So the other tribe just pulled a fast one and switched all of their names so that they would confuse us, which worked, but it's not only annoying but seems unfair, so now it's just Madison and I trying to fight them

So we lost. It sucks but I think because Lukas and I performed well enough (Alex got Lukas taken out so it wasn't his fault) that we should be safe. It was 2 am for Stephen but he and Anna didn't participate at all. But I think Madison and I put up one hell of a battle and as much as it sucks to see us have to go back to tribal I am proud of the effort we put forward, now we just have to figure out who to vote out.

NuZonko aka creative QUEENS

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So Anna Alex Madison and I made an alliance, but Joanna has pitched to me that voting out Alex is a big move. But imo now is not the time to stab someone in the back its time to remove the daggers from my own. I am keeping my eye on Alex and Madison though, they are smart, and I don’t trust them 100% Not that you trust anyone 100% in this game. But as I said, get far in the game before you tear your one alliance apart.

I think that all my effort to try and save Lukas has just blown up in my face. If I can't get someone to swap and vote with me, I'm either next or they are going to switch the vote to me. If I go home tonight I am not going to be shocked. I just really wish that I can actually trust the people who said that I could trust them. The only person I trust 100% is Lukas, because we are on the bottom together and I don't know if there is anyway out of it. AJ keeps saying she wants to work with me but if she seriously wants to work with me she needs to stop screwing me over. Her betraying me is getting really exhausting. Now I have a lot of damage control to do before tribal. 

Kinda getting ready to leave tonight. I played every single card I had, and it didn't work. I know that if Lukas goes now I'm probably next. But since I stirred the pot so much I wouldn't be shocked if they switched the vote to me. I send a paragraph to Alex telling him how I tried to work with him before and that I was sorry that I went against him this time, but honestly what else am I supposed to do? I felt betrayed when Sammy went out and I know that Alex orchestrated that, he was the one that made me switch my vote to Stephen, so apparently it is my fault for maybe wanting to get him out. I just feel lied to by everyone, and very alone. But if I do leave tonight, everyone better know that I put up one hell of a fight. 

I honestly cannot BELIEVE we won!  I am so mad at myself for my stupid fuckup as well, GODS I'm so dumb.

Anyway the group that was working together on the challenge (myself, Elmo, Olivia and Ruthie) REALLY gelled, which is great for me.  I'm hoping that if we lose, or as we move into a merge-type scenario, this group can form the core of a really good alliance for me moving forward because I really like the people there and I could use a solid group against whatever fuckery I'm sure Alex C has planned.

We keep winning! I feel that we will never lose! Atleast now that I'm with zonko! But im still worried about the room of requirements will never open for me...

ok I didn't throw the challenge. I won an advantage and I'm PRETTY sure that merge is at f10 wooh. I think I want to throw f11 immunity. I'm pretty secure rn I think :')

Pray for Joanna tbh, if she goes imma be sad

I'm just really lit that we're not at tribal AGAIN! It's so tiring and I'm really grateful that my teammates pulled that off; they're geniuses. Everything is smooth sailing right now and I'm living for it

I’m so glad our tribe won! I feel super good vibes with Olivia, Elmo and of course Alex! I’m hoping that if we do ever go to tribal we can maybe get rid of Kylie since she’s kind of MIA anyway. I really hope that Anna is going to be okay tonight, time will tell I’m sure! My fingers are crossed for her, I want to make merge with her and for she and I to rule the game together. 

... tribal sucks and i’m confused and Lukas is offline and AJ wants to work with me again but she is still wanting to vote for Lukas. Alex is gunning for me, Madison and Stephen haven’t responded.

IM IN THE GREASTEST CITY IN THE WORLD AND IM NOT GOING HOME TONIGHT LADIES

Joanna is supposed to go tonight but I actually wanna go instead. Not because I don't want to play... but I love Joanna sm and I want to ensure she gets a full experience. 

So much is going on.. so theres a majority alliance, me, Stephen, Alex C and Madison who all voted together last round to blindside Sammy and then there is Joanna and Lukas. Us 4 are going to vote Lukas but tell Lukas we are voting Joanna and vice versa. Their reactions about the other one going is actually very suspicious and is putting the nail in the coffin. If you are 100% unwilling to vote someone out and you make that clear to me, then I see that as you are more loyal to them then you are anyone else. Therefore, I am going to vote them out. 

Joanna tried to blindside Alex, I told Alex because I trust Alex more than anyone else right now. Joanna found out I told Alex and then started to throw MY name out there.... so then I confronted Joanna and we talked everything out. I apologized for last round of voting out Sammy and hopefully we mended things for now. Her and Lukas should be voting Alex C while all of us vote Lukas. If an idol is played then RIP.

Well here's my personal life that no one needs to know about but woo

So the big thing hitting my life right now is that my grandma, 77, contracted RSV and Pneumonia. She's in hospice care now and won't last a lot longer. That's the big bulk of why my life has been a big mess, and overall the saddest part. But it seems this week is just a big week of stress for me.

I got a scholarship from Nebraska for $10,000, which is fantastic and I'm not trying to gloat with that. But the scholarship only resides with Public Schools and I wanted to go to a Private one. I haven't looked at the Public Schools but I'd basically get to go to college for free and in this economy that's fantastic. With that, there's a lot of paperwork I have to fill out by May 1st and it's this big decision that will literally impact the rest of my life.

Then I am having a job at a Day Center working with kids from Kindergarden to Fifth grade. That's a great thing for me since I want to be a teacher, but they're also wanting all the paperwork by May 1st.

And lastly I have a production that my school puts on every week that has tech week starting... May 1st! So it's coming up and we're hardly done with anything and that's a big stress on it's own.

So this has just been my big rant of "everything seems to be piling up at once and to top it off I'm a senior trying to make sure everything's settled so I GRADUATE" and it's just been a mess and I needed to type this all out for y'all woo.

But as for this vote HOOOOOOLY SHIT.

We're voting for Lukas but telling Lukas we're voting Joanna.

Joanna tried throwing my name out, then did AJs. It's just been a slew of messiness.

Lukas tried telling me he'd vote out anyone I'd ask, and would even make it known it was his vote. So I told him to vote Joanna. He said he'd not vote for Joanna and if I didn't have another name he'd vote me.

I told him to go right the fuck ahead. I'm not about to throw my alliance under the bus after a round of working with them. I'm messy, but not that messy.