#mind block

I’m sorry

I probably won’t be on tumblr for much loner 

I’m just.... not happy? I’m not happy with myself. I’m not happy when I’m alone. I’m not happy with art. I’m just hardly happy right now. I’m not sleeping or eating right, and everything is changing too quickly and I don’t know how to approach it 

I can’t tune everything out, and I don’t want to bother my friends any more than I already am. The only things that really seem to help are listening to music, drawing the very few ideas that I get any more, or roleplaying. But I only have a few ideas that I REALLY want to invest in.

Literally, I can use paint. That's what I understand. I have TRIED to understand ibis x. I don't.

I don't understand layers. I don't understand whatever the heck vector is. I have absolutely no idea what rendering is except apparently I'm supposed to use it to make people look more realistic.

My friends when I start to get into ZBrush: