#midtermpt

So this is my genogram! 😂 We love each other, we care for each other, and we support each other! 😊😊

The first time I lay my eyes on you was the first time I had wished for something that I know is impossible to happen. But then.....it happened. 

The kind of love that I have been looking for ever since i was a kid. I thank the heavens that fate have tricked me so much and that is when I met you accidentally on the coffee shop. My wishes before became true the moment you flashed that smile on your face. It gave me that tingling feeling inside me that triggers me to fall more on you. 

I didn’t expect things to happen as I wished before. That you would hold my hand every time we’ll cross the street coz you’re scared I might get to an accident because I don’t know how to cross. You would play with my hand and thumb, not because you liked it, but because like what your mom said, it’s a mannerism of her showing her love to a person, that’s why you do that, because you’re showing me how you love me. 

A kind of love that I had been seeking before. Where you will always look after me even if we’re far from each other. Call me every morning and every night just so you could make sure that I am fine. When I am sad or when I am not in the mood to talk to everyone, you would just stay by my side and wait for me to call your name. You make me feel so important above every one.

You would always ask me to go to church and pray for the blessings that He gave to us. You never left me when I am in my darkest time, instead, you stayed and you keep on reminding me that everything will be alright so I better not do things that I will regret soon. When I lost my hope for everything, you were there to hold me tight and embrace me. 

We would fight on petty things but still, at the end of the day, we would both apologize to each other. You are there to hear my resentment. You are there watching me in my agony. You were there to calm me after the storm I had made and will brush my back while hugging me, saying sweet nothings. 

Dear Mama, 

         Hi Ma! How are you? I've been so busy these days that I forgot how to take care of myself. If I were to ask, no I am not fine Ma. I can't have the right sleep every now and then. I sometimes forget and skipped meals. I have so many things to handle and I don't know if I can still hold on to this. What can you say about the things that I experience Ma? Can you help me with this :

1. When I got home, things are already piled up on my shoulders. Do homework and I'll do my  do household chores. But then, when  I do homework, I sometimes forget that I still have to wash the dishes. But then when I will also work on the dishes I tend to get lazy after and won't do my homework. 2. I still get a little shy approaching my classmates. Sometimes I just act as if I'm busy with something so that I have a way not to talk to them and to get away with awkwardness. 3. I'm still pressured ma. I think this won't leave me. I still can't adjust fully on my new environment. I'm striving but not too much to say that I improved. How can I be able to do this Ma? 4. I get too emotional now that final is already approaching, meaning more lessons to come and I need to be more attentive so that I can understand and follow the discussion. But ma, I'm scared already. What if I will receive low grades? Ma, I hope you can help me about the problems that I am facing right now. This ends here ma. Thank you.                                        

                                                     -Khea

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Hi ate,

What you re going through right now is just part of the evolving journey of a teenager.

Comes along the pressures of your studies are your peers, and at the same time the pressure of religiously serving your family.

I do not believe you wont be able to do it. You will and you are able because you are capable. You are actually matured and are able to handle your tasks well despite all the pressures.

Your new environment? Well, what can I say... I don’t know if its because of the new crowd... Their status in life, meaning well-off. Or they are intelligent that makes you feel you're a little less mentally equipped. This is what i can say, disregard who they are and who you are. Just be who you are, enjoy being a teenager but with boundaries set, enjoy student life, and don’t get intimidated with them. Each of us are born unique. You are unique in your own subtle way.

Shy? You are not actually shy, i guess its a feeling of you being intimidated with them. You can overcome your shyness by trusting yourself. Have total trust in yourself. And most importantly also, you need to establish rapport. Make friends ... Because they may help you ease the pressures that is stressing you right now.

Prioritize your studies... Your household chores should now be a joint responsibility. I'll speak with your lil bro n sis to help you with the household chores.

Don’t be afraid to get low grades. Be optimistic... Because i know, and i trust that you can make it. Even your mommy Darlyn is so proud of you. Well, we just did accept the fact that math is indeed your fave subject.

Love you ate, so.much... Believe in yourself and keep on dreaming...