With all the severe anxiety and derealization, I think it's safe to say lurasidone was not it for me. Can't wait to find out what new psych med my psychiatrist is going to try on me tomorrow
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With all the severe anxiety and derealization, I think it's safe to say lurasidone was not it for me. Can't wait to find out what new psych med my psychiatrist is going to try on me tomorrow

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I would like to stop having debilitating spikes in anxiety that are intense enough to trigger my freeze response and make me feel awful, but not intense enough to be called panic attacks
I'm really glad my psychiatrist didn't think I should be on the olanzapine long term. Cus not only does it give me terrible indigestion, but it makes me hungry all the time. Like, it's near 6:00 AM and I can't sleep cus I've had the double whammy of heart burn and hunger all night.
So, uh... I might be getting hospitalized 🙃
My therapist is recommending I got and get evaluated at a hospital.
ETA: wanted to clarify that I'm going to a hospital to get evaluated. I just don't know if I'm going to be hospitalized. I'm hoping not since I'm pretty sure this is just a meds issue, but we'll see 🤷♀️
Genuinely can't tell if I need a medication adjustment or if it's just February doing what it always does to my mental health and I just need to white knuckle life until March...

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Happy Birthday to me.
I don't usually say a word about it when it passes but I'm 35 this year. Which is crazy. And I'm super depressed so I'm trying to talk about something less depressing. Whoo!
I feel so hungover. But! I'm not tense/needing to stim to keep myself grounded like I was up until ~5 hours ago, and I think the delusions have, at minimum, calmed the hell down. I just woke up, so I'm not sure if they're gone gone, but I don't think the garage isn't real anymore (don't ask), so that's a positive. My brain still feels like it's been put through the spin cycle and wrung out, and my thoughts still feel scattered, but I'm cautiously optimistic that the worst is past.
The benefits of A LOT of sleep lol. What an absolutely miserable 1 1/2 - 2 days :')
Oh. Oh, I'm doing a lot worse than I thought. Cool 🙃
Just had the urge to soft block everyone and private all of my blogs because the good ol' paranoid delusion of "everyone actually hates me and is only pretending to be nice and care about me so they can get dirt on me and laugh at me behind my back to each other" delusion reared has decided to rear its ugly head again. Not sure if that's more gang stalking or persecution...
Anyway, I'm going to go NOT do that, no matter how much my brain is screaming at me that it's true and to do it. Gonna go take another Ativan (my script is for 0.5 mg tablets. So I'll have taken 1 mg in the past 12 hours. It's fine. Ativan is REALLY hard to OD on. And when we were kids, my sister had a script for I think 5 mg as an emergency seizure med) and message my psychiatrist. He should probably know I'm having acute psychotic symptoms.