I hate not being okay with doubles. I hate it so much. Sometimes I'm just wary of kintype doubles, whether because of uncomfortable fanon or because of the track record of the doubles I've found in the past. But my inability to even see doubles of myself is so debilitating that I can't even join spaces for my double-friendly kintypes from the same source, because it would either be unfair to everyone or a detriment to myself. It sucks. It's the ONLY identity of mine that has this issue, I LOVE interacting with doubles for just about everyone else. I just want to talk to sourcemates, I just want my fragile individuality to get over the possibility of there being other "me"s.
Fuck you for mass-producing offshoots from my blueprints in the first place, fuck you for the identity crisis that's forced me to strive to be the one and only, for making me feel like my individuality is threatened if I don't assert it.
I wish every other me out there the best, and that you're coping with the mess that we are better than I am. Just. Somewhere where I won't see you. (Doubles please do not interact with this post, if I am allowed to request such a thing)
— Blues (Protoman), Fictive (source is Mega Man)
