#me crying

A bit steamy under the cut…👀👇

You know, the boyfriend who's obsessed with that niche unknown Band from the 80's, of that picassian looking character, the artist boyfriend, the boyfriend who makes art for her, the nerd boyfriend, the boyfriend who wants the best for her

I wish i was someone's love, someone's guy

I almost forgot to post it here

So

I had a little like "breakdown" today?? When something about people happens, you're sensitive, it triggers you, you go back home sooner, and you ask yourself- let's stop here

Very silly and mid art way below

Anyway

I'm projecting my sadness into my wife: Castiel

Actually, it doesn't make me feel any better about the whole "people I like can be mean about others"

BUT

It actually gives me a little excitement of head canoning a bit and sharing my feelings with you (anyone reading this or skipping)

Anyway

I want Cas to be, as a recent human, overwhelmed by the sensations and feelings

I know he has had this before, this conflict, but what I want is something a liiiittle bit different:

Okay, so good. Let's imagine that Cas, like Steve, has met someone. He's a regular customer. He likes them almost like a friend. But sometimes, often, this person says really bad things about other people for no reason (this could be racism, ableism, homophobia, etc.)

Cas has been more sensitive since the whole expulsion thing. And he meets so many different people. And the scary thing is: nothing is black and white, or vice versa. They're normal people, but they spread so much hate sometimes. Hatred he didn't see in Dean. He doesn't understand. He can't understand.

The plushie thing is my reality

I do hug tight my plushie during those bad times

It helps

A little

I'm crying right now again

Anyway

I just

I don't know

somebody

catch my breath.

I’m a goner

somebody

catch my breath.

I want to be known,

by you

I want to be known,

by you.

This song makes me cry so hard because i get it,