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In A Court of Mist and Fury (ACOMAF), Feyre and Tamlinâs relationship disintegrates, and many fans are quick to place blame entirely on one or the other. Some see Tamlin as the villainâoverbearing, controlling, and dismissive of Feyreâs needs. Others view Feyre as the one in the wrong, shutting down emotionally, and failing to give Tamlin a chance to understand her. But the truth is, both Feyre and Tamlin were in the wrong, and neither can be fully blamed for their relationshipâs collapse. Why? Because they were both navigating the deep, complex waters of trauma. And trauma doesnât just break peopleâit breaks communication, relationships, and trust.
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The Silent Pact: Avoiding the Pain
Feyre and Tamlin's relationship post-Under the Mountain is one thatâs built on a foundation of avoidance. After the trauma they both endured at the hands of Amarantha, they fall into a silent agreement not to discuss what happened. At first glance, this seems like an obvious red flagâafter all, how can a couple move forward without addressing the deep emotional wounds they both carry? But in reality, avoidance of trauma isnât a flaw exclusive to Tamlin or Feyreâitâs a very human reaction to extreme pain.
Psychologically, avoidance is one of the most common coping mechanisms for trauma survivors. According to the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5), avoidance is a key symptom of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Survivors avoid thoughts, memories, and discussions that remind them of their trauma because itâs too painful to confront. In Feyre and Tamlinâs case, talking about what happened Under the Mountain would mean reopening wounds that were still raw. Tamlin is a High Lord, a man who feels responsible for everyone, and his inability to protect Feyre still haunts him. For Feyre, sheâs dealing with not only the trauma of her own experiences but the guilt of the lives she took.
Itâs easy to sit back and say, âWell, they should have talked about it,â but if weâre being realistic, many of us avoid difficult conversations about our own emotions and pain, especially with those we love most. Trauma survivors often feel that talking about their pain will burden others or that theyâll be seen as weak for struggling to cope. In relationships, this can create a wall between partners who are both silently suffering, as neither wants to âbreakâ the other with their vulnerability.
The Psychological Cost of Silence
Tamlin and Feyreâs mutual avoidance wasnât about not caringâit was about protecting themselves from further pain. Dr. Judith Herman, a renowned expert on trauma recovery, explains in her book Trauma and Recovery that trauma survivors often experience a âdouble-edged swordâ of wanting to connect with others but fearing the vulnerability that comes with opening up. Tamlin, as High Lord, is burdened with the expectation to be strong and unbreakable. He canât afford to show his weakness, not to Feyre, not to his court. He believes that if he holds everything together, he can fix whatâs broken. Feyre, on the other hand, feels emotionally and physically depleted. She canât summon the energy to reach out, and the more isolated she feels, the more she retreats.
Dr. Herman also notes that trauma can cause survivors to feel alienated from others, even those they love. This is exactly what happens to Feyreâshe feels like sheâs drowning in her own despair, and instead of being able to share that with Tamlin, she perceives his actions as controlling and suffocating. To Feyre, Tamlinâs need to protect her feels like a cage, not comfort. She becomes emotionally numb, which is another common symptom of trauma survivors. According to the National Center for PTSD, emotional numbness, or feeling âshut down,â is a way for trauma survivors to protect themselves from being overwhelmed by their feelings.
Tamlin: The Strong Protector, Who Never Heals
On the surface, Tamlin seems like the âstrongâ one in the relationship. Heâs the High Lord, after all, and High Lords donât fall apart. But beneath that strength is a man whoâs been shattered by his own trauma and guilt. Tamlin failed to protect Feyre Under the Mountain, and that failure haunts him. In his mind, the only way to keep her safe is to control her environment. He barricades her inside his estate, thinking that if sheâs sheltered, nothing can hurt her.
But what Tamlin doesnât realize is that his overprotectiveness isnât strengthâitâs fear. Fear of losing her again. Fear of failing again. And fear of facing his own trauma. This isnât unique to Tamlin; many trauma survivors, particularly men, fall into the trap of thinking they need to be invulnerable to protect their loved ones. Dr. Terrence Real, a therapist specializing in male depression, explains that men are often conditioned to believe they must be the âfixersâ in relationships. When they canât fix the problem, they feel powerless, and that powerlessness turns into control as they try to manage their environment instead of addressing their emotional wounds.
Tamlinâs way of coping is to be the protector at all costs, but in doing so, he isolates himself from Feyreâs emotional needs. His controlling behavior isnât about dominanceâitâs about shielding himself from the fear of another failure. Research shows that controlling behavior in relationships is often rooted in anxiety and a fear of abandonment (Simpson et al., 2017). In trying to keep Feyre safe, Tamlin inadvertently builds a prison around her, and that isolation becomes unbearable for her.
Feyre: The Self-Destructive Survivor
Feyre, on the other hand, is falling apart in silence. Sheâs lost, broken, and burdened by the trauma of her experiences and the lives she took Under the Mountain. Yet, she doesnât know how to express that pain, especially to Tamlin. Psychologist Dr. Bessel van der Kolk, in his book The Body Keeps the Score, emphasizes that trauma survivors often feel disconnected from their bodies and emotions. They may become passive or disengaged, unable to articulate what they need. For Feyre, this is exactly what happensâshe feels hollow, empty, and disconnected from herself, so she withdraws from Tamlin. Instead of sharing her pain, she self-destructs. The nightmares, the apathy, the loss of interest in the things she once lovedâitâs all part of the trauma she hasnât processed.
Research into PTSD and depression shows that survivors often feel a profound sense of isolation, even when surrounded by loved ones (National Institute of Mental Health, 2021). They may believe that no one can understand what theyâve been through, or worse, that no one cares. Feyre falls into this trapâshe interprets Tamlinâs controlling behavior as indifference to her emotional needs when, in reality, itâs his misguided attempt to protect her.
The Insecurity and Breakdown of Their Relationship
At the core of Feyre and Tamlinâs relationship is deep insecurity. Tamlin is insecure because of his failure to protect Feyre, and Feyre is insecure because she feels like a burden. Neither of them feels safe enough to admit that theyâre struggling, and so they continue to put on masks for each other. Tamlin pretends to be strong, while Feyre pretends she can handle it all on her own.
Their avoidance of the issue and failure to communicate lead to the mutual destruction of their relationship. This isnât because one of them was ârightâ and the other was âwrongââthey were both struggling with unprocessed trauma. According to relationship expert Dr. John Gottman, one of the keys to a successful relationship is the ability to repair conflicts through open communication. When couples avoid discussing their pain, resentment builds, and the relationship begins to fracture.
But for trauma survivors like Feyre and Tamlin, communication isnât as simple as sitting down and having a conversation. Trauma creates emotional barriers that make it difficult to open up, even to those we love most. This is why Feyreâs resentment toward Tamlin grows, and why Tamlin becomes increasingly controllingâtheyâre both reacting to their trauma in ways that only push each other further away.
Conclusion: No True Villains, Just Trauma
So, can we truly blame either Feyre or Tamlin for the collapse of their relationship? In reality, they were both victims of their trauma, and they both failed each other because they couldnât face it. Their silence wasnât malicious, and their emotional distance wasnât about a lack of love. It was about fearâfear of reopening wounds, fear of being vulnerable, and fear of losing the other person.
In the end, both Feyre and Tamlinâs coping mechanismsâwhether it was Tamlinâs control or Feyreâs withdrawalâwere their ways of surviving. Itâs easy to say they should have communicated, but as weâve seen, trauma complicates everything. Both were struggling to keep their heads above water, and unfortunately, neither of them could see the other drowning.
Here are some quotes from books I've done my research on!! I wanted to make sure my arguments were as clean and precise because mental health Is not something you half ass
1. On Trauma and Avoidance:
Judith Herman, "Trauma and Recovery":
"Trauma isolates; the words and feelings associated with it often remain unspoken. Survivors find it difficult to share their experiences with others because talking about the trauma seems like a betrayal of the self."
Bessel van der Kolk, "The Body Keeps the Score":
"Trauma by nature drives us to the edge of comprehension, cutting us off from language based on common experience or an imaginable past... It is as if time stops, and we are trapped in a perpetual state of helplessness."
2. On Emotional Numbing:
Bessel van der Kolk:
"Many traumatized people seem to shut down emotionally. As long as they are not being confronted with their trauma, they function relatively well. But as soon as something reminds them of the past, they may become helpless, upset, or furious."
Feyreâs emotional shutdown and numbness, post-trauma, is a common response for trauma survivors. Her inability to connect emotionally with Tamlin can be seen as a coping mechanism to avoid pain.
3. On Controlling Behavior as a Response to Anxiety:
Simpson et al. (2017), Journal of Personality and Social Psychology:
"Individuals with a high need for control often display overbearing or controlling behaviors in relationships as a way to reduce their own internal anxiety. This behavior often stems from feelings of powerlessness or fear of failure."
This aligns with Tamlinâs overprotective behavior toward Feyre, not as a way to dominate but to manage his own anxieties about failing her again.
4. On Insecure Relationships and Trauma:
Dr. Terrence Real, "I Don't Want to Talk About It":
"Men are often taught that emotional vulnerability is a weakness. As a result, many men struggle with expressing their pain or discussing their emotional needs, which can lead to controlling or distant behaviors in relationships."
Tamlinâs desire to protect Feyre without acknowledging his own emotional needs fits into this psychological framework. His need to appear strong likely prevented him from admitting his own trauma.
5. On Communication Breakdown in Trauma Survivors:
John Gottman, "The Seven Principles for Making Marriage Work":
"When couples avoid difficult conversations, the issue doesnât go awayâit festers and can lead to increased resentment. Open, honest communication, even when difficult, is necessary for a relationship to thrive, especially in times of emotional distress."
This quote highlights why the breakdown between Feyre and Tamlin happened. By avoiding discussions about their trauma, they allowed distance and resentment to grow.
6. On the Difficulty of Vulnerability:
BrenĂŠ Brown, "Daring Greatly":
"Vulnerability is the birthplace of connection and the path to the feeling of worthiness. If it doesnât feel vulnerable, the sharing is probably not constructive."
Both Feyre and Tamlin were afraid of vulnerability, thinking it would expose their weaknesses rather than heal their bond. This is part of why their relationship fell apart.
7. On Emotional Isolation Post-Trauma:
National Institute of Mental Health, PTSD Fact Sheet:
"Trauma survivors may feel detached or estranged from others. They may avoid close relationships or feel emotionally numb, which can make it difficult to connect with loved ones."
This highlights how Feyre, in particular, felt emotionally detached and distanced herself from Tamlin, contributing to the breakdown of their relationship.
8. On Mutual Coping with Trauma in Relationships:
Susan M. Johnson, "Hold Me Tight: Seven Conversations for a Lifetime of Love":
"Trauma survivors in relationships often either withdraw or become overly controlling as a way to manage their overwhelming emotions. Without understanding this cycle, couples can become trapped in mutual avoidance."
This captures the essence of Feyre and Tamlinâs post-trauma dynamicâFeyre withdrawing emotionally and Tamlin becoming more controlling, both as coping mechanisms to deal with their trauma.
This was genuinely one of the hardest essay arguments I've written, I've spent 2 days writing this, that's why I didn't post anything these past few days. I hope this was precise enough and of course If you have anything to add don't hesitate to tell me! Thank you!!đ
Not back yet (Silksong is huge) but I am completely unable to find a poem that I'm pretty sure was on here and wondering if anyone knows it
It was about a parasitic wasp and a caterpillar? The wasp is talking to the caterpillar who is unaware (maybe curious?) of the parasitic wasp, yknow, doing parasitic wasp things.
I remember it ending with a line about "how lucky it is to be born."
Not sure the exact phrasing / adjective.
Pretty sure it was a picture so text search is basically impossible... anyone know it?
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