#mathphys

Potential-Steps V(r)

Gotta admit, this was one of the most depressing weeks of my life lmao. I need around 7 points in that theoretical mechanics exam to pass the subject, I'm dropping numerical methods (even though I love it), I gotta finish my QM graphics before Monday, tomorrow I have two social events (family and that stuff), I would love to do gymnastics tomorrow but man, am tired af. I really hope I can see some light at the end of the semester.

And well... On the other hand. I had a little discussion/talk with an old teacher who taught me Calc-III. He's one of my favorite teachers in the academy. I told him about my decision on changing my field into a math major. He just asked me a simple thing that broke my reasoning a lil' :

"Do you really want to be a mathematician or you just wanna be a good physicist?"

And that's true. I mean, I want to do mathematical physics but not because I want to derive pure math results, it is just bc I want to clarify the maths, I want to understand the ideas behind the physical structures. I don't want to solve numerical and senseless theorems (not because they're useless or stupid per se, because mathematics is an art branch that doesn't really need a practical or mechanical ending). I want to formalize physics and improve the physical tools in multiple branches (particularly QM, relativity relations and Thermodynamics lol) but well... I'll try a math major, bc of my physical goal.

Depression n' obsession.

I love what I do for living, but not gonna lie. Sometimes being a mathematical-physicist it's kinda depressing. You study the most part of the time, you fail some exams, you keep studying and then you realize you're into an SU(n) so you can't escape lmao.

Anyways. I love quantum mechanics, numerical methods but I fckn' hate theoretical mechanics bc of newton's formulations. I got an 8 (I think it's like B+ out there) in Lagrange equations this week.

Once I finish this degree, gotta forget about physics and get a math major. You really don't know how beautiful maths are beyond physics derivations. I do really love working with groups, symmetries, categories, manifolds and all that kinky stuff.

Yeh, I know. Some people might ask: why didn't you study maths?

Well, I came here bc I thought physics was beautiful and had a lot of interesting math. I would never have imagined that physical "assumptions" were so ridiculous when solving problems.