Living life in the moment--Doing that better.

That is my main goal right now.

It is staying out of head about my future past.

Just bringing the best to the moment.

Living in my heart and soul. Letting go of control.

So many times in life I have sat out and watched on the sidelines…

Due to an issue with social anxiety.

Anxiety that has paralyzed me at times…or turning my head on my shoulders into a shower head instead.

So many social situations I truly dread.

I feel safest amongst my longtime friend crew.

But something I witnessed a couple months ago woke me up from my anxious state…

Life sometimes cannot simply wait.

I was outside at a restaurant table stting with my pup, Bowie on a warm Labor Day evening.

My wife, Brooke, and mother-in-law, Roz, were inside the restaurant ordering.

I claimed a table outside where we could all sit.

I looked towards the restaurant and saw a late 20 something old man catch eyes with my pup.

He was dressed surprisingly warm and formal for such a sunny day.

He was all smiles and and as he got near, he asked if I “would mind.”

“Would mind” in this case meant that he was asking to play with my pup for a moment.

I granted that wish completely while affirming - “Yes, of course, he’s (Bowie) only love.”

As the man took me up on this invitation and I let him have and hold Bowie…it looked more like he was reuniting with his long lost puppy from childhood whom had died and gone to doggy heaven …not just a li’l petting and “good boy.” Bowie responded with kisses to him and went all in.

The man’s smiled beamed…he was loaded with light it seemed….and I felt like I was witnessing something special for which I couldn’t put my finger on…

But when the man put his hand on my shoulder to thank me for that moment…I felt a surge of energy penetrate my being.

It wasn’t normal. At all.

A moment later he was at another table as Brooke and Roz sauntered to our table post order.

I explained a bit what happened from the man who said Hi to Bowie…as he smiled and waved from another table…I almost felt some shame.

I never asked for his name…and a moment later he was gone…he never got an order of food…just a special dude….

The man was truly living freely…making the most of the moment and the amazing life force of energy that he was tapping into and giving me

Shall forever remain a part of me…and I hope now with you, the reader, too.

Messages I hear as I finish what I write:

Life Life Now.

Don’t Wait.

Don’t Wait

Don’t Wait.

Cheers

-T

No Control - One Direction mood: freedom, euphoria, letting go, "the pedal's down, my eyes are closed" and Louis voice in the whole thing and Louis is the best thing bless his existence I'm gonna name my children after this song it is gonna be my favorite song for all eternity

Goodbye Copenhagen - New Politics mood: letting go of all the problems. freedom, also fuck I really wanna leave everything behind and leave copenhagen on a plane 

Common People - Pulp (and also My Chemical Romance's version) mood: anger, people are idiots and don't understand anything

Uptown Funk - Mark Ronson and Bruno Mars mood: I am awesome and on fire and I rule this place

Scandal - Queen mood: crying over celebrities I don't even know and probably never will come out bc the world is an unfair place

Professional Grievers - deadmau5 feat. Gerard Way  mood: slay

Give Me Hope - New Politics mood: this song is beautiful and happy and love songs are great and wow this band is good dance dance dance

Take It Back - Ed Sheeran mood: fuck everyone. this song is power (and i can rap the whole thing dayuuuum i'm good) attitude. also fuck he is so amazing live it is insane ed is the best thing that ever happened to this world thank you god for ed sheeran

Clouds - One Direction mood: this whole song is on the edge of falling but it never does it is a beautiful thing to me i can't explain it, it's like flying

Harlem - New Politics mood: i dunno i just discovered this band and it makes me happy. yeah, it makes me happy. "when it's too loud, I turn it up"

I'll Be There For You - The Rembrandts  mood: I'm currently rewatching Friends so it makes sense. Also amazing about how your life never turns out the way you expected and it is comforting I suppose.

A lot of One Direction and New Politics. I'm not sorry. I've been up to happiness the last few days. I need happiness. A lot of music that is good when driving a little over the speed limit and singing along at the top of your lungs. Car music is the best music really.

Okay, time to tag new people. I tag my dear friends bumblebeehaz, marvelty larryonmywaywardsonx, randomthings93, my sister/son pocketlouis and anyone else that feel like it :)