#mare rambles

A few minutes ago it just occurred to me how much Yuuri thinks while he’s skating.

the boys brain doesn’t shut up. His inner monologue goes on and on and on whenever he skates, thinking of Viktor, his insecurities, absolutely everything. It amazes me that he is such a beautiful skater even when his focus is on everything but his skates.

Can you imagine how spectacular he would be if he could truly get himself to calm down, to think about his moves and just allow himself to skate? Seriously. Take a moment to picture Katsuki Yuuri skating with a clear mind.

In season 2 I’m not asking Kubo for anything because I know whatever is going to happen is going to be amazing, but I hope Yuuri, along with the love he’s found, can find peace and love within himself. I want to see Yuuri skate without an internal monologue, to feel the music and himself and skate simply because he’s in love with what he does.

so i take the like extra strength Pepcid because nothing else really helps. i started taking it after i was hospitalized for anaphylaxis. apparently Pepcid is a type of histamine blocker and can be taken with Benadryl to relieve symptoms of an allergic reaction. i noticed that it was helping my acid reflux by taking it every day so I just kept buying it lol

truthfully, i really need to go back to the Gastro doc and get a prescription. i already have too many prescriptions, so what’s one more? 🥲

I also have mylanta in my fridge because i was desperate once and it did like… less than nothing.

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