#mappingyourdreams

Aggghhh. Been browsing mappingyourdreams's #fanvids tag. This...looks like the best movie never made ever.

Reposting my fic as its own post, with the post that inspired it above.

"As much as I want to emphasize that I find this sick and heartbreaking and not in any way hot, I’m still writing this now because it’d be dramatic as shit just imagine this:

As the sulfurous smoke poured into Dean’s mouth and nose, every nerve and fiber of his being was screaming at him to fight, to expel her somehow, to stop this.

'No, no, no, no,' he screamed to himself in his mind, and not just because it hurt. This was beyond bad, this made bad seem like a calm stroll through the park. He was going to hurt people, people he loved, and it would all be his fault. And Abaddon was going to make him watch.

Feeling his body move without his permission was nothing short of horrific, and hearing his own voice say the word “Awesome” without his permission was even worse. But none of that was anything in comparison to the absolute dread that flooded Dean when Cas entered the room. No. No, no, this couldn’t happen like this. Dean prayed with all his might for Cas to recognize that the thing in control of his body wasn’t him, for him to still have just a spark of angel in him that allowed him to see that, and to run, but he knew that it wasn’t going to happen. He watched on in sick horror as Cas looked from Josie Sands’ lifeless body on the ground to what seemed to him to be Dean standing over it, holding an angel blade. Dean tried to scream, but no sound came out, and watching the slight smile that came over Castiel’s lips was nothing short of torture.

"Dean," Cas said breathlessly. "Dean, you did it. You killed her."

"Cas," Dean heard and felt Abaddon say with his voice. "Holy crap, I thought I was done for."

"But… but this is wonderful!" Cas said in elation, coming closer to Dean’s body, grabbing him by the shoulder. "With Abaddon gone, Hell has no leader, they’ll be scattered, like a snake without a-"

Abaddon cut Castiel off, grabbing him and kissing him roughly, and Dean didn’t know what was worse, the fact that it was happening at all, or the fact that Castiel obviously wanted it, if the way he went soft and pliant beneath Dean’s lips and the small, satisfied noises he was making were any indication. Dean was screaming inside of himself, to the point that if he were actually using his voice, he’d probably make his throat bleed. He felt his heart being shattered into a million pieces for Castiel, knowing that this could only end very, very badly. He’d never known, never seen any indication from his friend that this was the way he felt, and yet Abaddon had picked up on it immediately, and was using it to torture them both. However, Cas must have realized that something was off, perhaps he tasted sulfur on Dean’s lips, Dean didn’t know. All he knew was that suddenly Cas went rigid, pulling away as if he had been burned, and grabbing at Dean’s shirt to expose the bleeding slash that had been made through his anti-possession tattoo.

"No," Cas said in dismay. "I can’t believe it."

"Believe it, lover boy," Dean heard his voice say, and from the terror filled look Cas gave him, Dean could only infer his eyes had just gone completely black.

"Get out of him," Castiel growled, voice filled with emotion. It was almost like a cliché. Dean felt himself laugh, and it was the most hideous, sickening sound he was sure he had ever heard.

"Or you’ll do what?" he heard Abaddon say. "You’re not an angel anymore, kid. You’re just a normal, weak and breakable human."

Abaddon used Dean’s hand to grab Castiel by the throat and lift him from the ground, and inside of himself, Dean cried out in anguish. Castiel was choking, gurgling, fighting against Dean’s now super-human grip and failing. He was going to die, and Dean was going to have to watch. Suddenly, Dean felt hot rage flowing through him like lava as he let loose a monstrous shriek. What he wasn’t expecting was to be able to hear the shriek. Realizing what had happened, he immediately let loose of Castiel’s throat, pushing him as far away as he could.

"Go, Cas! Get out of here! Please, save yourself! GO!”

"Dean?" Castiel asked, his eyes shining with tears.

"Cas, I can’t fight her much longer! You have to get out of here! Sam, get Sam! Sam has an angel inside of him Cas, he’s the only one who can save me now!"

"What?" Cas said, still crying, and oh so confused.

"Ezekiel! It’s Ezekiel. Look, I don’t have time. She’s strong Cas, and she’s pissed that I’m in control. Please. GO, I don’t want to hurt you! I don’t want to have to see that!"

"I love you," Castiel said weakly, tears now streaming down his face, and Dean felt his heart break.

"I know," he said, choked. "Please, Cas. Please. Run! Run, NOW, GO!"

Dean was struggling now with all of his might to keep in control. He fell to his knees, screaming himself hoarse, just trying to keep a grip, using all of his strength to keep Abaddon at bay, at least until Castiel had gotten away. When he finally heard the squealing rubber of the Impala outside of the building, Dean finally let go, letting the demon have control once again. She screeched with his voice, filled with rage that Cas had been able to get away.

"You’re going to pay for that, Winchester," she said to the empty room, but Dean knew she was talking to him. "Don’t think you’ve saved him. He’s going to suffer all the more for that, just you wait and see. And now, so are you."

1. if you were stranded on a desert island, what one video game would you want with you?

if i'm on a desert island would there even be power or a console omg i. prrrrrrrobably mass effect 3. bc kaidan n shepard.

2. one music album you can’t live without?

two door cinema club tourist history. uwu every song on it is fabulouuuusss

3. which pairing was your first otp?

squall/rinoa final fantasy viii god bless

4. one character or pairing that you really really love in the depths of your soul but don’t post much about them because there isn’t much of a fanbase for the show/game/movie/book they’re part of?

wow tough one uhm. prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrobably griffin/david from jumper. they're the best but ubu the jumper fandom doesn't exist

5. another fandom you’re not part of but are curious about?

teen wolf tbh

6. one weird/unusual/funny fact about yourself?

i have the worst reputation for swearing in every sentence when i talk. my favourite phrase is fuck shit cock piss excuse my language

7. what’s your favorite season and why?

of what? aha. uh. summer bc the sun makes my freckles come out ✿◕‿◕✿

8. your proudest accomplishment?

getting out of bed this is 100% serious

9. number one celebrity crush?

ugio;l'ald.gihbpig; m-mark vanderloo (+will arnett i love them both ✿◕‿◕✿)

10. one crossover you’re dying to see?

i don't like crossovers bye

11. if you could have any character’s catch phrase, which one would it be?

i actually steal a lot of catchphrases from gob from arrested development like COME ON!!! and michael

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