outside the circus

---mixed native american/irish, 26 years, dark brown irish curls, tall, fat with a round face, B belly and B butt [is that a term? B butt? whatever it can be figured out]

---a lot of health issues, like HEDS and PCOS, as well as some self-made ones from constantly burning out, like chronic fatigue and insomnia

mental health stuff as well, mostly chronic anxiety and possibly ocd

---had a sleeve of tats made up of little things from their interests over the years, stuff like undertale and pixar. first tat was a rubicks cube on their shoulder

had 4 piercings an ear [2 standard lobe, inner lobe, industrial], a brow ring on the right side, and a fake nose ring [heard too many horror stories to get a real one]

also dyed their hair nearly to the point of frying, wanted neon purples and miku-greens always. wore a crap wig or black beanie for work

--- Ideally would dress pastel-grunge/pastel-goth with scenecore elements, but realistically stayed in sweats and hoodies 99% of the time [the remaining 1% being work clothes]

Such a fun closet, only to collect dust

---went into a computer engineering degree for the money, passion lies more in animation and game design

ended up in a lousy tech repair job to pay off debts and help out family, and secretly also to "prove" they're capable despite their health issues spiritually its a customer service + cubical job

^this put them in the doctor's and bedbound a lot, only reason they weren't fired is because there would be nobody else to hire

---not much of a social life outside of family [mom,dad,brother], had a few good online friends and a small following for their games/art

---the rare day where they weren't dying and weren't busy, they'd go graffiti abandoned buildings

^tried to find untouched spots, to reduce the chance of being found and pushed into socializing

---was looking for a secluded graffiti spot when they found the headset

inside the circus

---joined some time between pomni and zooble, maybe just before or just after zooble

---still has "issues" like IRL, though to a lesser degree. it's been simplified into a sort of invisible stamina bar, where they can only do so much before their avatar begins to tap out

^after the shock of being trapped wore off, they were pissed that their flare-ups followed them into the game

---head spins/mixes when holding breath and when overthinking. also gets mixed up by jax as a form of his bullying. has to manually solve it afterwards, or get caine's help via an avatar reset

---third tallest avatar, next to kinger's and jax's

---tries to stay in their room when the adventures sound too taxing, but doesn't mind ones in-house or primarily stationary ones

despite not enjoying being too hot, they loved the "beach episode" reminded them of their family's beach trips as a kid

^adventures where they mostly sit in a vehicle count as "stationary"

---quiet crush on gangle that they ignore once they see her and zoobs connection, likes zooble, pomni and ragatha as friends, kinger reminds them of their dad's good days, jax reminds them of their brother if their brother was about 57x meaner [sees even more of their brother in him whenever he "chills out". will immediately accept her when the egg cracks]

^actually liked caine pretty decently before he went nuts, feels oddly [nauseously] sad when he gets deleted. wasnt a fan of bubble

---their "torture scene" would be similar to jax's and gangle's, sharp papers[?] with everyone's expectations accompanied by layered, critical voices floating down like snow before forcibly plastering to their body, layering and making it hard to see, breathe, talk, move, etc

^perceived expectations leading to paralysis and self-destruction, themes of feeling inadequate and lazy

episodic roles

note: the dialogue provided wouldnt be the only dialogue if a real character, its moreso just to establish their vibe note: mentions of romantic feelings are just contextualizing, if a real character there would be the same amount of "proof" of their feels as there is for everyone else, aka nada

Note: As of After the finale, the following no longer fully reflects what would be said/done. However I'm not gonna edit them cuz I'm writing something and don't wanna spoil stuff

Ep. 1: would be similar to ragatha, trying to ease pomni into the new reality etc. would go with rags, pom and jax to show her the new room. ends up being kauf's chew-toy for the rest of the ep, carried around half-clipped into the abstraction

3:11 "its... its not... its not though..." 9:38 "Hey, your door picture is pretty cute, Pomni." 11:18 "Ohhh f[boink], Kaufmo..."

Ep. 2: basically the same as the rest of the cast, talks a bit with the princess like ragatha, gets in the truck, plays cards with the gummy gators while they're tied up

6:06 "actually it violates 3 conventions" 7:46 "I'm not the one with a knife in her head, girl" 8:01 "wait what figurine thing-"

Ep. 3: again, basically the same as the rest of the offscreen cast, is the one making sure Jax stays tied up and doesn't roll away

1:12 jax talking> '...Rubix's head gets all mixed up...' 2:01 "I don't think they came with us?" 16:10 "Ah, it can't be too long, now..."

Ep. 4: beginning of ep would act like the catcher behind jax. during adventure, would either be spinning the sign outside or managing the day's finances. maybe gets intentionally sauced because it 'looks like its a nice high'

0:27 layered with jax & rag's "Oh c'mon man what the hell was that for-" 1:12 "That mask is really pretty on you, Gangle" 8:40 "Same, girl."

Ep. 5: Would be a tortoise or beetle in the poacher part, would be another "man in black" like rag and zoob during the presidency, would have a BLAST during the anime, would also enjoy stargazing though this is also where they notice gangle and zoob's chemistry, intermission, during the noir bar would talk a bit about the cubical job they had and try to avoid talking about the desire to be a game dev, would stay on the bench during softball while their evil clone fucks up the diamond just to get the camera on them

note, if they were to have a suggestion, it would likely be an aquarium adventure. they'd chill in front of the big tank with the sharks and big fish and all, or the jellyfish tunnel

2:24 "Oh, like a sandbox game! I love sandbox games." 5:14 "He's doing the fourth-wall bulls[zoink] again..." 13:29 not specifically here, just during the noir scene in general is where they'd talk about their life

Ep. 6: Ends up getting left solo, but finds a sniper and knocks at least a heart off a couple of the others. is seen doing cat-ears with all the losers when zooble pops in

2:10 "orange sport..?" 2:47 "HAH" <more a bewildered noise than actually saying it 5:13 "wait, won't one of us will be alone then?"

Ep. 7: Again, same as everyone else, helps work together with everyone to "escape". Is reserved about it like Jax, but comes around to it faster than him as well. On 'distract Caine' duty with zoobs and gangle.

1:38 no real words, just a snicker at the irony of "the chinese room", similar to kinger's 13:11 "Not to agree with Jax, but this... does seem a bit too good to be real. I dunno..." 20:57 "... Do you?" <quiet, only meant for Jax. is ignored

Ep. 8: I don't think they'd actually talk much this episode. At first due to the shock of ep 7's betrayals, then from the exhaustion wrought by the adventures and, later, literal torture. You'd mostly see them nod, shake, and other non-verbal communication. I also think they'd have the "scribble pupils" most of the ep, and would possibly hold their head a lot to keep it from mixing itself up as they spiral/disassociate

torture scene alr described^^^

13:07 "wh... what?" 19:51 "Scratch? Is that the same Scratch you talked about before?" 28:06 "You never think about how p-painful and exhausting your work is for all of us!" <maybe not phrased exactly like that, but yknow