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1. When Gray and Erza snuck into her apartment, they saw singe marks everywhere, which is to be expected when you’re friends with Natsu— but most noticeably by Lucy’s windowsill, her headboard, and the edge of her pillow. Lucy would have no reason to bring fire anywhere near her bed, so the suspect is obvious— and it probably doesn’t help that they both laid down to test out how comfortable the bed was and then discovered one of Natsu’s identically tinged, stray, pants left under the covers next to Lucy’s matching pajamas.

Lucy had forced him to leave them there as sleep pants when she’d finally given up on trying to keep him from sleeping there. though it backfired once Erza and Gray saw and consequently ran back to the guild to gossip.

2. Cana also snuck into her apartment. Often.

While yes, Cana was often on the highs and lows of booze, it also meant that she often got the munchies.

Naturally she’d inspect Lucy’s fridge and pantry to see what she had, and to her surprise she found multitudes of spicy food.

From exotic chips, chili hot cocoa, and pickled magnolia reapers— the list of spicy food didn’t end. But here’s the thing, Cana knew Lucy didn’t like spicy like that. Sure, the girl had developed a spicy food tolerance after spending time around Natsu’s menu ordering habits, but this was an insane amount of spicy food.

The kind of amount where just from looking at them you’d think you were gonna develop ulcers and ibs.

So it’s clear it’s only for one person: Natsu Dragneel.

But that wasn’t what led Cana to discover he was sleeping in her bed. Rather, it was the crumbs of these snacks around Lucy’s living room, tracking all to the top of her otherwise pristine pink sheets.

Now, Cana could’ve assumed that Natsu perhaps just liked snacking on top of the bed, but that wasn’t enough.

Cana too, had to try out the bed to see how comfortable it was, and came to the same fate of Gray and Ezra’s discovery.

And she too, ran to the guild to gossip— though not before taking one of Lucy’s bags of chocolate dipped potato chips.

so here’s an idea i have going for nalu angst inspired by hadestown:

a fic where natsu and lucy reunite post tartaros in hell, except it’s because after lucy was abandoned—instead of her usual tenacity, in this au she loses her will to go on. natsu didn’t come back soon enough here, so she loses the last shred of hope and per severance she has when zeref begins approaching her in her dreams.

natsu didn’t appear at the grand magic arena. and lucy came home in the same low spirits. and there’s continuous slow news about anyone in the guild.

it starts slow. out of no where he begins to haunt her, constantly barraging her dreams with dark magic, convincing her that her friends won’t come back for her. they left her with no hesitation, why would they come back? lucy, our strong willed girl, still doesn’t fall to this until zeref starts targeting her memories of natsu. he twists them, makes natsu’s teasing a little harsher. a bit less funny, and more sharp. then he replays these memories to lucy.

he then starts darkening lucy’s dreams and barrages her with dream sequences of doubts of natsu ever returning, making up scenes of natsu writing her the letter while saying horrible things like: “i’m only writing this so she won’t bother us” or “everyone’s leaving and i don’t need her coming with us and slowing us down” (which natsu would never ever say) . he goes as far as to show a scenes of natsu out in the woods meeting with erza, gray, and wendy, and them speaking about how easy their lives had been since leaving the guild (and inferring that it’s because lucy was left behind too) . zeref starts incorporating repeat sequences of lucy breaking aquarius’s key, and adds whispers of “weak”, or “useless”, every time she relives the scene in her dreams.

she no longer has the strength to call her spirits for comfort, and she pushes loke away out of fear that he’ll begin to see her as a burden too. she can’t close her eyes without seeing the backs of her guild mates walking away, or hearing natsu’s voice speaking about her like she’s a burden. it sounds almost distinctly like how her father used to speak to her all those years ago.

zeref takes the final push in one final appearance in her dreams. this time he’s there as himself, and speaks to her kindly. “i know. you’re tired aren’t you? i know somewhere where you won’t be alone like this ever again”

having gone so long without a kind voice leaves lucy vulnerable, and it doesn’t help that she hasn’t slept or ate in weeks

lucy, unable to think past her ptsd, and broken mental fortitude takes zeref’s hand. and suddenly her real body is teleported to hell. zeref’s plan to use her as bait to finally get natsu has worked.

it’s at this point that natsu has finally decided to return, that he’s strong enough to protect lucy from any future danger. that he can now make sure something like tartaros will never happen again.

he finds out where she’s living, and has just snuck through the window when he watches her body vanish in a black smoke, dark magic lingering, and her keys left behind.

zeref’s voice echos around her old bedroom “if you want to find her, come to the alvarez empire” and so ofc. natsu goes. and when he arrives, he’s brought to the gates of hell itself.

he journeys through the underworld, blazing and fighting with the same fairy tail spirit he’s always had, and the heated passionate protective love he’s always had for lucy heartfilia. except, when he finally gets to the underworld, blessing, bruised, and with a few broken bones he meets soulless eyes, and bony, brittle hands mining coal.

gone are the sunshine warmth of her brown eyes. her hair is duller, fine golden locks faded to lifeless and brittle gray. her skin is an unsettling pallor of pale. and the freckles she had gained over the years as a fairy tail wizard have faded like she’d never been in the light.

lucy’s eyes don’t even look at natsu like a stranger, they don’t see him. and he thinks that is what hurts the most.

it isn’t until his temper rises, and with it his flames does she start to come back to life. the ire of his fire spreads out all over hell, and when lucy feels the heat, it’s too familiar for her to ignore and she snaps back to the past where she’s meeting natsu for the first time in hargeon, and feeling the warmth and safety of his fire for the first time. after all this time, she’s still not scared of his fire. her eyes regain her brown, and she remembers natsu, recognizes him again.

they embrace, and she cries, yelling at him for leaving her behind but can’t keep it up for long, too relieved to see him after being separated for so long.

it’s then that zeref appears. threatening natsu with erasing lucy completely if he didn’t fight him now. natsu, justifiably angered, accepts the fight easily— and is quickly humbled.

and so they strike a bargain, zeref thinks it’s not their time to fight, and he still needs natsu to get the will and strength to kill him. it’s still too early unfortunately, and he can’t let natsu dies without killing him. and so he gives natsu a test. he can try and rescue lucy, he can bring her back up from hell— but like orpheus he can’t look back, they will not be walking hand and hand side by side. and if he did look back? lucy dies forever, and goes back to the underworld, blank, and forgotten to the dreams of her once full life.

interests: Fairy Tail, YOI, heartstopper, one piece, haikyuu, aot, hamilton, hadestown, wicked!

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