Hey yâall! Iâm doing @amonthofwhumpâs Mafia Week list of prompts, so hereâs day 1, Russain roulette.
âWhat do I keep you around for, Beck?â
âTo deliver messages and packages inside the Town Hall.â Beck swallowed nervously. Getting called in to speak with Pat in the back of the deli was never a good signâthey called him Pat the Butcher for a reason, after all.
âThese messages, are they secret?â
Pat was a heavyset older man, thick black mustache bristling over thicker lips. His face boasted more hair than his head, which he had taken to shaving completely once it had gone from slightly balding to patchy at best. He nodded, and Beck could see the glint behind his dark and wily gaze. He was toying with a revolver as he talked, polishing it with a handkerchief.
âSo youâre a secret messenger.â
âTell me, Beck, whatâs the point of a secret messenger who canât keep a secret?â
The temperature in the room must have plummeted, as a shiver ran down Beckâs spine.
âTony, James, all of you come in.â
A crowd of large men, each one taller and thicker than the previous, filed into the back of the store. Beck spotted Simon among themâhis wiry frame and wavy black hair draped around his face set him apart from the crowd. He looked like heâd be right at home with a group of hippies out west, not in the middle of a crowd of the cityâs most dangerous mobsters. And yet, this was almost more Simonâs world than Beckâs.
They avoided each otherâs gazes.
âWell, Beck? Why keep you if you canât keep secrets? That short angry lady who works for the DA, Clarisse, she knew some things she shouldnât about Mad Dog.â The very same Mad Dog, otherwise known as State Representative Stewart Atlas, crossed his muscled arms in the throng.
âBoss, you know Iâd never spill to Clarisse, or anyone. Iâm as loyal to you as anyone, you know that.â Beck tried to keep his voice evenâhe ignored the sweat beading at the edge of his hairline.
âI want to think so, son, but Mad Dog coulda been in hot water because a secret I entrusted to you got out. I canât ignore that.â
He hung his head, unable to meet the bossâs heavy stare.
âIâll make it as fair as I can, since youâve been so loyal before.â
Pat lifted the revolver heâd been holding. He opened it, showing the bullet settled in the chamberâonly one. Slamming it shut, he spun, dizzyingly fast. Beck had no chance of knowing which chamber it was in, none at all. The older man held it, grip out, towards him. As Beck took it, Pat turned to address the other men.
âYoung Beck here has always done good work for us, but a leak happened, and it can only be traced to him. To prove his loyalty, heâs going to do a task for me right now,â he announced. Turning back to Beck, he continued, âSon, you know the rules for Russian Roulette. One bullet, six chambers, gun to the temple. You squeeze five times, and if you live through all five, consider your record clean. If not, well, you know what that means.â
Over Patâs shoulder, he could see Simonâs eyes flashing with anger. The tiniest shake of the head was all the rebuke he could give, all he could do to keep Simon quiet. Then he locked eyes with his boss, raised then gun to his temple, nodded once, and pulled the trigger.
Beck flinched involuntarily. Despite the casual way he started, his heart thudded a little too heavily in his chest. That bead of sweat slid slowly down past his eyebrow, and a new one gathered in its place.
He closed his eyes for this one, sucked in a breath, and squeezed again.
Two down, he counted to himself. He was still alive, still feeling his legs start to go cold as the panic well and truly set in. Lying, espionage, sneaking around, that he could do. That he was good at. Gun to the head with confidence? That was more for the people watching him, people who did the dirty work for Pat.
His boss raised a browâhe needed to get on with it. Beck raised the weapon to his temple once again, resting the cold metal against his head. A lump gathered in his throat, and he pulled.
He sighed, silently, when he heard the sound. He took a second to steady himselfâhis knees were locked, whole body tense. Halfway, he was halfway through. Only two more chambers. He could make it.
His fingers were shaking as he lifted the gun to his head again. He screwed his eyes shut, stiffened his hand as much as possible, and squeezed.
His shoulders sagged. Breath coming in short gasps, sweat making slithering trails down the slopes of his face, it was obvious that Beck was scared.
He gulped, searching for the courage to lift the gun one more time. Instead, he met Simonâs sharp and worried eyes, trained on him, tracing him up and down. The black-haired man set his jaw, muscle jumping, and Beck frowned. Simon wanted to intercedeâBeck needed him to hold back.
He raised the gun, fast, but not faster than Simon.
Beckâs knees almost gave out in relief, but his furrowed brows never betrayed that secret.
Pat turned, eyes rolling beneath his fleshy lids, and faced his nephew.
âSimon, weâre in the middle of something.â
âUncle, heâs already pulled four times, and you know heâs the most loyal messenger youâve got. Just be done with it.â Simonâs voice was confident and smooth, the words of a man who grew up with this, who could talk his way out of a paper bag without touching the sides. Bending men like his uncle to his will was his specialty, and he was laying it on pretty thick. âCome on, how are you gonna get another in at the Mayorâs office? We were lucky Beck was so willing to sign on. Like that Bertinessi gig? That wouldâve gone to hell if he hadnât been involved. Or the Walker sting? If you kill him, itâs your loss. Think about the big picture.â
Unless you knew Simon really well (which Beck did), youâd never know he was nervous. Ending too many sentences as questions, that little flick of the chin he made at the endâhe was just as scared, even if the gun wasnât chilly in his palm or hard against his skull.
âYou think I should just end it.â
âYeah, if you care about the future of our business, you should.â No one else could talk to Pat like that, but coming from Simon, it was just within the limits of allowance.
âFine.â He swung back around to Beck, frowning. âYouâd better not let anything else slip or itâll be six full chambers, son. Gimme the gun.â
Pat held out a meaty fist, and Beck deposited it carefully. He also nodded, calmly, with lots of eye contact, going the extra mile to show how grateful he was, how much he appreciated having his life spared.
He stepped back and watched Pat stand. The large man turned and left the room, the crowd parting for him like some criminal Mosesâ Red Sea. The assembled men filed out, one after another, and one of them clapped a hand on Simonâs shoulder, guiding him out.
Beck turned instead to the back door, preferring to have a moment alone over a walk down the block with the guys. The hinges screeched as he forced them open, and again as they swung closed, but he still heard the snick of the door locking automatically behind him.
He leaned against the brick wall of the alley and sighed, tipping his head back. His breath billowed up in the crisply cool air and the sweat that had slithered across his body chilled on his skin. His cheeks, by contrast, felt feverish, blood rushing up to his face.
He could have died right there.
Had the bullet been in chamber five or chamber six? Would Pat regret it all if he had died? Did the stunt Simon pulled put him in bad graces that would get him killed later?
Beck ran a hand through his limp curls, then grabbed one blonde lock at the back of his head. He tugged on it, hard enough to sting, then relaxed, then tugged. The rhythmic pulling was a tempo to breathe to, to think to, and after a minute, his hand slid away and he wasnât shaking quite as hard and he could take hold of a thought in his brain to properly consider it.
Simon should have kept his mouth shut, because now Pat would have a close eye on them both. He put both of them in more danger.
The saying goes that if you speak of the devil, he appears. The same is often said of Simon Alexander. As soon as he crossed Beckâs mind, he turned the corner into the alley.
âBeck. Thought youâd be here.â
Simonâs voice came out as casual as always, and he walked with easy confidence, but his eyes gave him away. He looked Beck up and down, scanning, trying to read himâwas Beck alright, or did Simon need to do something more?
Beck worked his tongue between his teeth, avoiding Simon gaze and question. His face was once more getting hot, though not with fear this time.
âBeck, thatâs not fair. You could haveââ
âThe spilled secret was on me. Someone leaked it after I passed it along, thatâs on me, and I needed to take the punishment due me. You interrupted, and now everyone will lose respect for me, and Pat will be keeping a much closer eye on us, so that means weâre totally fucked.â
âYou could have died, Beck. Did you think Iâd just stand and watch?â
âI had hoped youâd respect my wishes.â
âHow was I supposed to know whatââ
âYou knew exactly what I wanted. Donât play dumb, Simon, it really doesnât suit you.â
Beck was facing Simon now, arms crossed over his chest, brows drawn together. The black-haired man was glaring right back, indignant, arms swung wideâSimon always talked with his hands when he got upset.
âIâm not apologizing for saving your life, Beck.â
âYou donât even know you did. What if it the bullet was inââ
âIt was in the fifth. Thereâs a scratch on Uncle Patâs revolver on the side of one of the chambers, which is the one he slotted the bullet into. After he spun it, the scratched chamber was number five.â Simon paused, letting the words hang between them. âIf you had pulled the trigger again, youâd be dead.â
Beck felt the tips of his ears get hot, and tears prick against his eyelashes. He blinked them back and instead regarded Simon. Was he telling the truth or just covering his tracks?
The slight frown, head tilt, finger playing with a heavy gold ring on his fingerâSimonâs body betrayed the honesty you could never quite trust his mouth for. That fifth chamber really held the end of Beckâs life, and Simon saved him.
Simon weighed the consequences, chose careful words, put himself right in the path of his uncleâs frustration, and that was the only reason Beck still had brains inside his skull and air in his lungs.
He couldnât blink away the tears anymore.
They slid, one and another, down the curve of his cheek, as he chewed his lip and looked anywhere but at Simon. He wouldnât let himself make soundsâthe crying was bad enough, no need to escalate it any further than that.
He didnât need to, as it turns out, because a warm hand settled on his shoulder, and he melted into the touch. Simonâs arms slid around him, pulling him close against a cologne-scented chest. Fingers rubbed up and down on his back, grounding him, holding him together. Beck was so grateful for the opportunity to cry over Simonâs shoulder, unseen, that he made no comment about how hard Simon was trembling.
âI wouldnât let him kill you, Beck. I wouldnât let him hurt you, not now and not ever. Youâre mine, and youâre safe with me.â
Beck pulled back, looked up at Simonâs somber face, and kissed him. Their bodies were tense, alert. If anyone saw them kissingâ
But no one saw them. Not tonight.