#mad self

You take the dialog of whatever stream is coming to you at any given moment and flip it like a pancake, flip it into not yourself, but into a character for whom the dialog can be more true then it is for you and if this fails then just keep flipping it, tossing it, launching it into outer space until you have something to really work with. You don’t merely have anxiety — well, yes, you do, a little, but you also have a brain that was built for overdrive and for voices and endless variations of conversations and the engine is always running of its own accord and when you’re not shifting it into higher gears of place and setting and accents and backstory your energies will merely manifest as physical stress and anxiety.  And so, take that brain and give it something to focus on. It will be uncomfortable at first but your brain above many others was built to process and work with the many voices of all nations, even if those nations were only ever invented by your own mad self. Any given wanna-be artist would kill for access to such genius and you are in tangible possession of it. Stop self medicating and let the river flow. Yeah, you go now, sober up and get to work.