Hi.
Iām finally back after what, a year-long hiatus? Never intended for that to happen but there you go. Life up and down but Iām doing fine blah blah. Thatās not what Iām here to post about.Ā
I was just getting back into the icos fandom. I canāt say I ever really left it because Iāve been ghosting the tag ever so often, as well as anything new Ais and Santino post. I was actually just about to go on a reblog frenzy because Iām now really getting back into icos and Iāve been scrolling through several blogs and all the edits/discussions/etc are reawakening that thrill like nothing else.Ā
And then this.Ā
Listen. I read Aisā post. I read Santinoās post. Iām still not entirely clear on what the heckās going on and Iāll probably never have all the information for it. But Iāve been reading a lot and from what I DO understand, Iām going to make something very clear because apparently taking a stance is something people are pushed to do and if you want to cut off all ties from me after this, I canāt stop you. But just to go on the record:
I do. not. hate. Santino.
He and Ais created what is probably the best series Iāve ever read. It helped me, in more ways than I will ever reveal and I can never thank them enough for that. If he doesnāt continue 180, I will be heartbroken. If he and Ais discontinue icos, I will be heartbroken. I understand that this is stressful for Ais and confusing and Iām not pressuring her towards any which direction, because this is her life with one of her friends and absolutely none of my business.Ā
Because I donāt believe everything the haters are saying. When dealing with facts online, Iāve learned itās nearly impossible to fully fish out whatās true and not true. But one thing Iāve learned as an iron-clad fact is that we live in a society neck-deep in online community and interaction, a society whoās values are based onĀ āguilty until proven innocentā. Iām not just saying that because of whatās going on now. You see it everywhere and itās disgusting. Thatās one reason why you never see anything IRL-related on my blog. Itās one reason why every social media I have is entirely 100% anonymous.Ā
Finding out about this has not ruined icos for me. If it has, itās only in the sense of the now very real fear that anything with ICoS is officially ended. And that is downright devastating to me.Ā Ā
So @thatdudesantino if youāre reading this, know that you still have a supporter in me. Both you and @ais-n do. I donāt know either of you personally, and I guess thatās part of my point too. I donāt know any of the secrets in the closet of anyone in this fandom, and I certainly donāt believe any one person in this fandom is a perfectly decent human being. I know Iām not. Yes, itās disappointing to hear about something like this but itās not like I put him or anyone else on a pedestal. I only knew him by the name Santino and the very few facts he revealed about himself. And I didnāt care about anything else. I still donāt care to be honest.Ā
Frankly, I just glad that heās alive. Iām not kidding. We havenāt heard from him inĀ so long then suddenly I start hearing that something bad happened with Santino and Ais certainly wasnāt happy, I legitimately feared that he was dead. So maybe what happened seems less severe to me in light of that relief he isnāt, I donāt know. That, or that he disappeared off the face of the earth. Which still might happen now, but I hope it doesnāt. Because I want to continue reading his work. Again, I still donāt fully understand whatās going on so that may be blindsiding me, but despite his mistakes, his wrongdoings, whether theyāre forgivable or not, he is still an amazingly talented writer and I love his writing. Because again, haters make me roll my eyes more often than not. I just canāt believe everything they say, maybe because I stopped believing it so long ago. All this has really done is remind me of the disgust I have for the online world and put me in a bad mood.
I donāt know Santino, no less than how I donāt know Ais. I donāt know what all happened in the past, what he did, what he went through or is dealing with right now. I donāt know whatās all true and whatās not and frankly I donāt give a shit. I love icos, Iām absolutely in love with the world and characters they created. And if Santinoās a shit human being who wrote the series, then he did a good job writing it as a shit human being. I do have more to say about this and what Santino said, but this post would be too long.Ā
@lomaschingon I did get your message and thanks for checking in even though itās been months. If thereās anyone left in this fandom who hasnāt jumped ship, I would love to continue loving this series with you. If there is no one left if this fandom, I guess that means one final log off and a long cry.













