rahhhh im so dumb brained rn im so fneirjwkfghcinrutvcsgajcm
ivanluka has me in a chokehold bc wdym im ravenous for the toxic yaoi that comes out of an ivanluka interaction hUH?
there r quite a few ivanluka fics on ao3 which is great but i havent checked the tag all that recently and i looked at it last night after seeing an ivanluka kiss meter post on twitter and omg i love toxic yaoi sm
i jst finished a one-shot where it's older luka, younger ivan (last year of high school in the beginning and he's starting college at the end), luka's a serial killer and ivan sees him in the window and then ivan gets looped into the scheme, helping luka clean up after he does his little thing and eventually ivan starts seducing men to bring them back to luka's house to kill them and the whole thing jst builds tension so well and finally luka and ivan fuck and they live happily ever after as a murder couple :D
anyways i haven't gotten all that far into the tag but i got reminded of a fic that i found a couple of months ago, subscribed to, and continue to read when it gets updated, and i reread it and jadkrlghajcd i love it i love it i love it
it's again an older luka, younger ivan, but luka's the ceo of some company or smthg, he's jst rich ok and ivan's in college. he picks up webcamming so that he can earn some cash on the side bc till rlly wants this one extremely expensive guitar and ivan is planning to save for it and gift it to him, and ivan gets rlly popular rlly quickly bc of the dichotomy between his fairly masculine frame and his shy personality and somehow luka finds his stream and starts sending in huge amnts of money and compliments and ivan starts getting all flustered and that's been it pretty much except luka recognizes ivan from high school and they meet in a cafe (not a coincidence, luka deliberately places himself there to meet ivan)
it's rlly sweet outside of the nsfw stuff bc ivan so clearly doesn't value himself as a person as much as he values till and what he can do for till, and luka's the one to push ivan to do things for himself, like buy a sweet treat or even jst buy enough food to satisfy himself rather than save it all for the guitar. it's cute even if u know that luka rlly wants to fuck him and has masturbated to him
but also i wish there was less ivanluka smut, sometimes i jst wanna read abt them getting closer together and being domestic together bc they rlly do deserve some peace and lowkey, i wanna see ivan healing and moving past his love for till. like ivantill is beautiful, but i want ivan to understand that he doesn't have to love despite the pain, he can love without the pain. he doesn't have to be hurt in the process of experiencing emotions, there r other ppl who will love him the way that he'll love them. and for luka, i want him to live w love, i want him to live being able to love someone and cherish them. maybe it'd b a stretch to say love them in a healthier, not entirely encompassing way, bc that's luka's understanding of what it means to love and it's an integral part of his character, but i think luka and ivan, their obsessive loves might fit nicely together and they can healt together.
