#ludeer

I made a huge effort not to smile, I really didn’t feel like it but just the fact of him being there was enough to test me hard, because that was kind of a superpower he had. But lately I didn’t want anything or anyone to make me feel better. Everything felt so wrong I just wanted to see if there was any possibility for that awful sensation to go away itself.

"Do you mind if I sit down here?" he asked. I looked up and there he was, the most perfect guy on Earth, my boyfriend. Expressive brown eyes, and straight dark hair getting wet in the rain.

"Whatever..." that was the only thing that came out from my mouth. I just didn’t want him to get involved with my problems, he already had enough on his own, but how could I be so rude to the guy who loved me more than anyone?

I couldn't even look at him in the eyes since then, but I had this weird sensation that he was staring at me the whole time, and that was something I could not handle, the guilt was consuming you alive.

I started blushing and I realized he was still staring at me with a huge smile on his face. That was definitely the most beautiful smile ever and you could never get tired of it, with those soft pink lips and those paper white teeth.

Then he talked again, getting me killed for the second time.

"Everything's gonna be alright, you know?" he whispered in my ear and I melted, still struggling not to smile.

"What are you talking about?" I asked, unable to look at him yet, I didn’t want him to know I was having a hard time.

"Everything" he said, while he got up, and I could finally meet my eyes with his, how could he possibly know, though? I hadn’t told him anything about what was happening in my life lately, I’d actually been quite distant from him in order to keep him away from my problems.

"I know something’s been off with you. You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to" he smiled again. As I didn’t say a word, he leaned down and placed his hands on my cheeks pulling me closer to crush gently his lips with mine.

It was like time had stopped, all my problems seemed insignificant now that I was by his side.

"I hope to see you tomorrow with a smile on your face. Life can be hard sometimes but everything comes and goes, you know?" he said right after pulling away from me. I could still feel the taste of his soft lips.

“Just know you are not alone, you never are. I will always be here for you, even when you don’t want me to” he placed a kiss on my forehead before walking away.

Then I knew it. He was right, everything would turn out well.