I've been debating even sending this. I've been avoiding even thinking about it, but obviously that's stopped being effective. I feel like I have to say something or it's gonna eat away at me forever, but also just... considering everything, I don't know how to frame it as anything but me trying to make myself feel better. And maybe I am! Fuck! But it's not only that, and I'd hate if that were the takeaway. So, genuinely, straight from the heart, I am so fucking sorry to every single Audrey who knows I so much as laid a finger on them. I'm sorry for using you to feel big and powerful, I'm sorry for seeing you as less than me, I'm sorry about everything I did to try and prove that when it wasn't true. Not one person on this earth deserves what I put you through, and this is way more than I should ask for, but I hope at least one of you sees this and feels a little better knowing I will never, EVER treat another human being like that again. You truly don't have to forgive me, but at least know that while my presence on here has been, and will continue to be, mostly positive and funny, this is a completely honest moment. Don't forget this and think I condone the way I hurt you next time I send in a lighthearted, jokey ask, because I won't. I couldn't let myself forget it. -Orin Scrivello (#🩸🦷🧰)