I’ll tell you anything you like
Just to get me off your mind
I’ll tell you I’m doing fine
Just so you close your eyes and put my picture down
I’ve wasted so much time
Trying to find
What’s right for me
behind drinks
And moments of clarity
In a crowded car
With no space to breathe
I was yours. I was yours forever.
But the grip was too tight.
The morning came rushing in far too many times,
leaving me empty and alone.
And I wanted to keep being your forever, but it was breaking me apart
Like a doll whose yarn is wearing out
I couldn’t figure it out
I gave all the love
Until I had none left
All I left was empty threats
The silence was too loud
Even for me
I found in the still of the water
That I chase broken things
Wanting nothing more than to mend
the pieces to become whole again
But you can’t keep fixing
When it keeps breaking
Soon there’s splinters and glass under your nails
You can’t keep mending
When a heart keeps splitting
I take all my love back with what I regaled.
You can take back your words
I don’t need them
You can take back your memories
I don’t need them
I’m starting over in the water
This time
Ready for something else to mend me instead
I hope it doesn’t pull apart your stitches
It took far too long for those to stay
I’m quiet now in the distance
Ready for the cold nights to come instead.
