#longwindedpost

There are friendships, family, coworkers and church folks that we've touched in some way and don't even know it. Life is short and I hope at least that most of what I may have inspired in others has been to their betterment. #longwindedpost #buechner #thoughtoftheday (at Gulf Breezes, Gulf Breeze, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0-21qjjhBH/?igshid=169ovv2na3p5f

We all need to have those close friends we can have real talks with. I cherish those moments. Good for the soul. #longwindedpost #worththeread #buechner #thoughtoftheday (at Navarre Beach, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/BvofqoHDoia/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1sg18symmy3ju

So six years ago I cut the fuck out of my hair because honestly? Chemo shedding was NOT cute. I remember all before my treatment even started how everyone looked at my hair and said things like "oh it's such a shame, your hair is so pretty but you'll lose it". At the time I was like whatever, it's just hair. It wasn't until much after, maybe by my second treatment when I was bald as fuck that I thought "Damn, I'm fucking ugly." That's when I realized that my hair was the only part of me I ever thought was worth calling me "pretty". These last six years have been amazing, game-changing, life-altering, and adventurous so I'm MUCH wiser. I know my hair is only a small part that makes me a beautiful person. Although, it has grow back quite fucking flawlessy! #cancersurvivor #suckkitcancer #longwindedpost

(May be tmi for some people so proceed with caution) So this morning I weighed myself right when I woke up after going to the bathroom and I was almost 8lbs over my normal weight. I was really frustrated, since I hadn't been tracking my calories I had nothing to compare or "justify" this weight gain with. So I decided I'd go back to counting calories. But then I weighed myself an hour later, after a run, a big breakfast and a huge dump, and I'd lost 5lbs, so really how accurate is the scale? Also I tracked my food today, and immediately I noticed an unhealthy shift with how I viewed food, no longer listening to my body but following the numbers. Even though my "weight gain" isn't that drastic, I do think I need some way to measure my progress and keep myself on track. So I'm going to track my food but only at the end of the day, and try to focus on eating intuitively and seeing how well I can hit my macros just by estimating. And then if it doesn't work out perfectly, tomorrows a new day and I will improve it then. I'm also going to take weekly measurements. I had my physics final today and I'm pretty sure I got a 100 on it! And I finished the course with a 98!! So pretty pumped about that. Tomorrow my real vacation starts so I'm going to sleep in for once in my life :) Wow this was really long and disjointed but its midnight and im tired. Whooooopsssiiees