#logic!thomas

Every time I so much as think about picking a favourite, I realise how amazing the others also are. 

 I don’t think indecisiveness is the reason I don’t have a favourite Sanders Side (aspects of his personality). I just think it’s my Hufflepuff coming through. 

I think I’ve made my stance on this topic very clear: I don’t have a favourite Sanders Side. But I’ve finally come to the realisation of why that is. Yes, it’s partially “my Hufflepuff coming through” but it’s mostly because I relate to all of them.  And I think that’s kind of the point. Generally, when people chose a favourite character, it’s because they see some part of themselves in that character. But I relate to all of them, in quite different ways. So how am I to choose? 

I suffer from anxieties (general, social, and death [considered an OCD by my MD]) and depression as well being insecure in several aspects of my life and having extreme introversion. That is where I relate to Anxiety. He is that type of persona I’d generally present to people I either don’t know or don’t care to know. People I want to keep at arm’s length until I can trust them. He desperately wants to be loved, which was super evident in the latest vlog, but he doesn’t know how to go about it. And apart from always associating him with Eeyore in my mind, I feel him. I’m somewhat of a recluse where I currently live because my social anxiety is as severe as it is, so Anxiety’s desperate desire for love but the uncertainty of how to go about it is where I relate to him. 

While my scope of interests might be narrow, things truly do fascinate me, and I am extremely curious. This is where I relate to Logic (Logan). I am genuinely interested in things, maybe not typical things like science and math, but weird things like witchcraft and symbolism and I have tonnes of books on those topics. I don’t practise witchcraft, but I am interested in the history and the mythology surrounding it. Mythology, that’s another thing. Greek mythology, in particular, fascinates me because most problems are because Zeus wanted to “put [his] dick in it” and I find that greatly entertaining. Beyond academics, I am still inclined to learn. Although I understand emotions better than Logan, this is how I relate to him.

I am not musically inclined. I can’t sing or read notes at all. It seems to mathematical to me, so I blame it on my dyscalculia. I appreciate music. However, my creativity lies in writing. This is where I relate to Princey (Roman). Fantasy fiction is my favourite genre in which to write. I love all the enchanted beings and how, despite all the magic, the author can always ground it in some type of reality with very real issues. I pride myself in creativity as it is often where I find the most joy. And, on several occasions, it has been an outlet for my own anxiety and depression. Whether I am writing to cope or as an escape,  it is where I feel most at ease. The fantastical elements come to me far more readily than anything else, and that’s how I relate to Roman.

When I care about something, I care deeply. I devote myself to this thing for however long I must because I just love it so much. This is where I relate to Morality/Dad. He cares. And he’s willing to show you how much he cares. He just loves everything, and even when “hopelessly crushed” he still has a sunny disposition. He is the type of person I wish I could be publically. I am much more likely to show this side of myself online because I feel safe there. But publicly (IRL), I am far more likely to present myself as Anxiety, but don’t be fooled I am very Dad-like. I just really want to make people happy and brighten up their day, and this is how I relate to Morality/Dad.

And this is why I don’t like being asked to pick a favourite Side. Because I relate to all of them. And in vastly different ways too. And I really feel like that is the point. We have a bit of each of them in all of us, maybe not to the same degree, but they’re all there. For me, I think I have them all in pretty equal quantities, which is why it’s impossible for me to pick a favourite.But, if I really have to choose … then I’d choose @thatsthat24 because the Sides are all part of him. They are aspects of his personality. So if I had to choose, I’d choose Thomas because, by extension,  I’m choosing all of them.

The Pen and the Inkwell*

There are tales abound, In this world, I have found. But do the stories reign true For me and for you? 

There are fables of daring acts, Worlds with a beast who attacks. You become the hero-brave to fight ‘Gainst the beast at midnight.

Escape into a world without question Though it might be one of deception For if it seems too grand You may wish to vacate the land.

Travel to another, if you’re so bold, Perhaps a place you’ll never grow old. See what adventures await you, there, In a world without despair.

In the Black Forest of lore, Find wisdom behind a door. The stories, you will find, Are mysteriously intertwined.

Stories told by famous tellers, Their characters are famous dwellers. Penned by Grimm, Andersen, and Perrault Into the forest, their characters go.

Never knowing what lies within They enter the unknown without chagrin Heading down the path of righteousness Lest their tale end in lifelessness.

Cover-to-cover a new tale awaits, Wondrous realms within their gates. If you don’t cross that sphere How might I meet you here?

Through the pages, you leap, And the words your eyes do reap The vast journeys one can take. Oh, the stories one might make.

Journey into this book with me Where perhaps we might find the key And quest for legendary relics of gold In valleys deep where myths are told.

Words have wisdom all their own Of kind melody and of soft tone And for those who follow it without fear, The allegory is painfully clear:

Escape to fantasy a world, By way of imagination, you are hurled. Words can be friends as well as foes And through them, one can dispel all woes.

So the message is technically about reading and the magic of books but I pictured Prince doing all those things as I read it this time.

-KNC

This is my list of fictional character who I think are Beautiful Cinnamon Rolls Too Good For This World, Too Pure. Feel free to add your own to this list. I have a separate list for real people …

All the Sanders Sides (especially Morality)

Eeyore

Castiel

Malec (they are purest together)

All the characters in Steven Universe 

Stitch

Fry

Newt Scammader

Kimmy Scmidt

Princess Isabella

King Richard and Tad Cooper