#lizard notes

If John and Arthur reunite and their first words back together are a callback to the first words of the series (“Where am I? What’s happened?” “Don’t you remember?” “Who are you?” “Who am I? I’m a friend.”) but with new emotional depth, I’m going to go insane.

Do you even know how much it’s messing me up that one of the first things Charlie did on-screen was ask for a light, to which Arthur pulled out Roland’s lighter. Do you even know.

Every once in a while I get mentally flashbanged by the reminder that I once made a RotTMNT Movie AU where the Kraang were just sigma males and kraangified people by forcing them to watch their podcasts.

Genuinely love the stories of The Magnus Archives and Old Gods of Appalachia but it takes so much mental energy to get through just two episodes back to back because it makes the caveman part of my brain go, “oh, ok, we will never sleep again. We must face the darkness to protect the family. Every time you stare into the dark you will feel it staring back, and you will wait to see if it moves. You will not be able to consider the possibility of a benevolent god, you will feel worms beneath your skin, you will think every shadow is a being beyond comprehension and every chill is an omen. You will not be able to eat comfortably for days because your heart is constricting every artery ready to pounce at a thing that is not there. The heat will cloud your mind and coming of night will never be the relief it once was ever again. There is nothing you can do but wait, because fighting is a dream delusion feeds its weakest and most frightened for the thrill of a chase.” and that lowkey makes it kinda hard to exist nicely.

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