#littlewhinging

you should really consider taking something to help you sleep. i think the body can do 10 days of no sleep but after that its pretty much dead, literally, not figuratively.

your curls! theyre beautiful!

sounds like what I had/have had the past month. decongestants really work! I’ve been using afrin.

Hmm thing is, I woke up and moved out of my room and things are better.

I think I'm developing allergies, which is REALLY common in this city, actually, the humidity and weird weather tends to result in lots of dust aggregating, and also bed...mites? and just a shitty mix. I tend to wake up and then start sneezing seven times in a row or have to go blow my nose, and moving to rooms with better air circulation tends to make it go away.

maybeeee depends on when!

I hate the whole "courting" process or whatever it's called of dating. My problem is that I'm super-insecure, so I always feel like I'm bothering the person whenever I text them. And yes, I do try to not text all the time and give them a day where I don't text them (so I'm not constantly making their phone beep), but I always feel like they don't want to talk to me and it's a chore to do so. It's easier if I can have some kind of personal interaction with the person, but when I can't, it makes it that much harder.

I was supposed to go to the quidditch meet Saturday and take photos for my photojourno project, but also see Shannon and Ali, but my pile of homework was too great to abandon for the day and GatorLAN was Saturday, so I didn't wanna pass that up either. Not to mention I had been feeling under the weather in days prior, so on Saturday when I woke up, I literally felt like dying.

GatorLAN was cool. Watched some of the LoL semifinals, watched the tourney finals and got some games in with Bren. That's always fun, playing with him; we have great synergy.

Between now and this past Friday, I think I've learned a lot about the people I acquaint myself with. I've seen how people will behave when dealing with emotions and in regards to other people. I hate being caught it the middle of everything, but I'm just the kid who hates to see people drift apart and tries to keep it all together but to no avail.

I had a small anxiety attack on Friday night (I don't think it's an anxiety attack by defined standards, but it felt like one). I got to my friend's party but didn't really feel like I belonged there. I wasn't drinking because I wasn't feeling good, so that wasn't it. I just felt like I was invited as a second thought (as I normally am with that particular group of friends) and no one really cared that I was there. I mean, I went out of my way to get there; least you could do is be grateful.

I hate school. Trying really hard to keep the whole "focus on your studies" thing on track.

I hate being poor. I mean, I have $30 in my account, but I started with $60 and been steadily spending when I shouldn't be. I need to fill out applications again and get a job somewhere.

I have a lot of personal things to do: shave, take out my trash, wash my face, etc. Grooming and household things.

I just really wanna lie in bed with someone and watch Community or just talk. Is that too much to ask? Or even Korra.

fuck I need to watch Korra.

and Sharknado.

I think the mouse wheel on my mouse is borked. I couldn't use it during a match and it screwed me over. Hope I don't need to buy a new one.

Fuck, Bren's birthday is soon. Need to think of what I'm gonna get.

can I not be sick anymore? that needs to happen.

I'll probably just go finish Community or play a match.