#list diary

anyways I was like “I probably should have practiced crap” when I took the test but I actually got 100% on it

lmao but I had 105% in the class before so it actually dropped my grade

I think it’s a funny story so I’ve been sharing it and I just told my dad about it

and he’s like “nice but what are you going to do with German”

and he was like “i’m not trying to argue with you I’m just saying that you’re not going to do anything with it” “instead of focusing on the stuff you like do what will get you a job”

and I was like “so you want me to drop German and take something for my currently nonexistent career plans”

recently whenever I bring it up with my friends they agree but then there’s not a way to say it politely and they said just don’t bring it up but it’s important to me to say it and I’m very upset and then I’m writing an essay and my other friends just shut it down and one didn’t even read my points and was just like this is dumb and I’m upset but I’m really glad I sent that message (even though I did it on anon because I’m scared) and I feel a lot better but now I’m crying

this is honestly the reason i don’t have friends I think I’m basically wallpaper in class and I don’t participate and I don’t ever make whatever I”m interested in obvious and I just don’t have anything ever

last year was his very first year teaching but he was so?? cool??

and once we had to go around asking people questions about themselves and one was “who’s your favorite teacher” and a lot of them said my apush teacher (he’s super cool too he jumps on desks and is really fun)

and I was honestly s o shocked how can this class not be your favorite he is such a dork and his class is so much fun

and politics are sort of touchy but he still discussed it a little and I think he probably voted for Hillary because he said Trump’s said stuff he disagrees with because he has friends/family that are part of the things he’s against and also a lot of millennials are democrats anyways so

imo I come off as stuck-up/cold and/or quiet (I definitely think I did last year but my friend is in most of my classes this year and you never need to talk in math which is the only one I have without her)

or do people think I’m just shy?? lmao who knows

I want to cultivate an image of refinedness tho bc it sounds so beautiful and haha no it won’t happen I’m not

80% of my humor is jokes about death (which is really not a good thing but I’ve been doing it so long and luckily none of my friends are sensitive and I don’t do the thing around people I’m not close with)

also unrelated but my Chinese teacher is so cool she gave my class the lyrics to Sing For You so we could practice Chinese

except n othing came up except people discussing how it fits school-age people

so I read it bc I was like “maybe it fits the audience”

it didn’t surprise

BUT it jumpstarted my brain and I figured out how to answer the question

honestly idk if this is allowed but like I’m not even using their exact ideas so does it matter

also I hate this teacher already she gave us twenty questions and told us we could make our own but had to answer at least half of the questions she gave us in paragraphs

but she doesn’t tell us what our own questions should involve

what is the standard for a self-generated question???

and then at least three of the questions ask basically the same thing and

also twenty paragraphs when some of the questions can be answered in like two??

also why is “minimum of _ sentences” a thing there is a thing called varying sentence length

my friend was actually like “lol this is so short” to my simple sentences that were like normal sentence length for her/a lot of people

but they only look short bc most of my sentences have two clauses and in general I avoid simple sentences bc they look so awkward next to my other sentences

anyways there was this one sentences and I wrote like four lines for it but it was only two sentences because my clauses were all put together

it doesn’t really matter bc those answers were really short and lacked a lot of support anyways but

also I have like two weeks left to read three hundred pages and write four essay responses four APUSH

i’m going to d i e :))

also pissed bc when we were registering for classes they didn’t mention a thing about APUSH summer hw and I only heard about it bc one of my friends complained about it and then she was like “you wanna get it with me” and I was like what summer homework

plus we had to buy our own textbooks for it which sucked a lot (I’m pretty sure it was at least like thirty dollars for the textbook + book for summer work which totally sucks)

haha imagine me in college

but i think I’m going to like this teacher bc his summer hw thing was really put together

like for textbooks he specified the edition and publisher and also told us places we could get it which was s u p e r helpful

(last year we were told to get “the abridged version of Count of Monte Cristo” except there are like five translations and my version actually cut out an arc and I am 100% still bitter)

i just realized I have like a month to finish my summer hw

also I have chinese hw that I haven’t touched since the last week of school

ugh

why

also there’s a girl that keeps asking to follow my instagram bc apparently she wants to know what I look like and the guy I accepted won’t show her

I kinda want to accept bc I feel bad for her but

i guess if she asks again I’ll ask my friend to send her a picture of me maybe idk

hmm I had something else but I forgot about it