#like for reals...

 “TomTom I missed you too!” I said to him.

 “Hope Tom isn’t getting all the love!” I heard a Manchester accent say to me.

 “Of course not Max! Come here!” I said smiling at him. He came and gave me a hug.

 “Selvi! How the devil are you love!?” Jay asked.

 “Jay Bird! I am amazing now that my favorite men are in town!” I said happily before he smothered me in a hug.

 “Where are my bestie and my boy toy?” I asked.

 “Well Siva is on his way out now and the last I saw Nathan stopped at the bathroom.” Max said. Before I could answer I saw Siva. I left the other lads and ran right to him.

 “Selvi!” He yelled.

 “Siva! I have missed you!” I yelled as I jumped him and hugged him.

 “I have missed you too love! Have you and Nareesha been alright?” He asked.

 “Yeah we have been great. She is working so that is why she cant be here but she told me to tell you that she missed you and that she can’t wait to see you. Where is Nathan?” I asked.

 “He was right behind me a second ago.” Siva said. I shrugged and walked with Siva back to the other lads. I was so excited to hear about all their fun experiences and adventures in America and Canada. We waited for ten more minutes for Nathan before the lads said they had to go. I gave them all hugs and kisses goodbye before they left. I sat back down on the chairs and waited for Nathan. Thirty minutes turned into an hour. I decided to call him. I picked up my phone and dialed his number. It rang and rang. He answered right before the answering machine picked up.

 “Hello?” He yelled over a bunch of background noise.

 “Nathan where are you? I thought I was supposed to pick you up from the airport.” I said.

 “No my friend Rachel came and picked me up.” He yelled.

 “Like your ex girlfriend Rachel?” I asked.

 “Yeah but you know we are friends now.” He said back.

 “Ok. Well I have been sitting at the airport waiting for you for over an hour. Why didn’t you call me and tell me?” I asked.

 “I didn’t ask you to come pick me up so I didn’t figure you would.” He said.

 Now I was getting angry. “You don’t have to ask. I wanted to see you. Just call me tomorrow or something I guess.” I said grumpily into the phone. Before he could answer me I heard Rachel’s voice telling him to come back. Come back where?! What were they doing?! “What does Rachel mean come back!?” I shouted into my phone.

 “It’s nothing Selvi. Just relax. I will call you tomorrow.” He said.

 “No don’t bother. Just call me whenever. I am not as important as Rachel. Whatever. I get it. Do whatever you want. Bye Nathan.” I shouted into the phone.

 “Stop overreacting Selv. You have no idea what you are talking about.” He said.

 I cut him off before he could finish. “I am going home Nathan. Call me when you decide I am important again. Good bye.” I said. Before he could answer I hung up the phone. I thanked my escort and left the airport holding back the tears until I got into my car. Once I was in my car the water works began. I drove home. When I arrived I saw a car parked by my house. I was in no mood to deal with anyone so I pretended not to notice and I walked right up to my door and pulled out my keys.

 “Selvi. Will you listen to me.” A voice said from the direction of the car. I already knew who it was but I turned and looked anyway. Nathan was stepping out of Rachel’s car and walking toward me. I groaned and continued unlocking my door, ignoring Nathan completely. “Seriously. Stop ignoring me. You are being so childish.” Nathan said.

 “Just go away Nathan.” I said coldly.

 “Not until you talk to me.” He said angrily. I turned and faced him. He was right behind me and Rachel was hot on his heels. He stopped walking when I turned around which gave Rachel the opportunity to catch up. Once she was even with Nathan she slipped her hand in his. She knew I was watching because she smirked and winked at me.

 “Nathan I am not interested in anything you have to say. You know how I feel about this skank and you bring her around anyway. I am not interested. It is clear to me that she is more important. So just go back to her house or whatever and continue doing what ever you were doing before I interrupted. Have a great time Nathan.” I said to him angrily.

 “Why are you acting like this Selvi!?” Nathan asked angrily.

 “You know I always get you from the airport. You let me sit there for over an hour. You didn’t bother to tell me you left already. Some boyfriend you are.” I said. Nathan had anger painted all over his face but there was sadness in his eyes. I looked at Rachel and she was smiling as if she won something. “Oh and Rachel. If I ever see you touch him in front of me you will be sorry. I saw what you have been doing.” I said venomously.

 “You have seen right. But he hasn’t done anything to make me stop. So keep your threats to yourself princess.” She said to me in response.

 “Nathan. You need to take this bitch and get out of here. Don’t bother coming back. And Rachel you will always be second best to me in everything.” I said in their direction.

 “Rachel will you let go of me. I told you we are just friends. Selvi don’t do this! After everything we have been through you are going to let it end like this?” He said angrily.

 “I have made my decision so please leave. Have a nice night. Thanks for the memories, and Rachel. Fuck you.” I said before I turned and entered my flat leaving both Nathan and Rachel standing there with shocked expressions on their faces. Nathan and I had been together for so long and we were over just like that. What happened to us? We used to be so happy. Once I closed the door tears fell hotly from my eyes. I changed into my pajamas and crawled into bed. I didn’t leave my bed for the next three days. My phone was ringing off the hook I had hundreds of missed text messages, but none of that mattered. I didn’t have Nathan anymore. Why did I have to do that? He was the love of my life and I pushed him away. I am usually not a jealous person but Rachel knew exactly what to do to make me explode. I spent every day in bed; crying, watching TV, and crying some more. On the fourth day I heard the lock click to my front door. There were only two people who had keys to my place, Siva and my mom. I was praying it was Siva, seeing as I was in no mood to deal with my mother. My prayers were answered when Siva walked into my bedroom.

 “Love I have been worried about you. You haven’t been answering. I thought something happened to you.” Siva said quietly.

 “Something did happen Siv. I let Nathan go all because some stupid bitch made me mad. What is wrong with me?” I said sadly.

 “Nothing is wrong with you. No one likes Rachel. Nathan has been miserable without you.” Siva said.

 He has texted me and all that but I just don’t believe him. He knows how I feel about Rachel yet he still brought her around.” I explained.

 “Yeah that wasn’t his brightest idea I will admit but h really has been miserable.” Siva said.

 “I don’t know what to do Siv. I messed up. I shouldn’t ever let him go, but I don’t think he wants me anymore after my little outburst the other day.” I said sadly.

 “Have you not been listening to me?! He misses you and has been a little prat ever since you left him. He loves you Selv. Why do you have such a hard time accepting that? I know I am your best friend and right now you need a reality check. Tonight we are having a party and you are coming and you and Nathan are going to work things out. Nareesha and Michelle are already on their way over here so there will be no arguments. I love you Selv. Please stop sulking. It doesn’t suit you.” He said. Right after he finished there was a knock at the front door. Siva got up and answered it. I heard him mumble something and in came Michelle and Nareesha. They looked at each other and shooed Siva away. They pulled me out of bed, threw me in the shower, and dressed me. They did my makeup and mad me presentable. I have to admit they did a good job I looked great. Siva was right. I had to work things out with Nathan. I loved him to much to let him go. Michelle and Nareesha left to get ready themselves leaving me alone for an hour before Siva came to pick me up. I sat on my couch and watched TV thinking about what I was going to do tonight. There was a knock on the door and I got up to answer it. It was Siva. He offered me his arm and I took it. I locked my flat and Siva escorted me down to the car. Once we were in the car pulled away and much sooner than I would have liked we arrived at the party. I wasn’t ready for this. It was too late to go back on it now though. Siva pulled me out of the par and pushed me into the house. I walked right up to the counter and grabbed two beers and downed them both. I took a deep breath and went to look for Nathan. I searched all over the down stairs area and couldn’t find him. Siva did say he was miserable so maybe he just didn’t come down to the party. I went up the stairs and walked right to his room and opened the door. All the lights were off and there was rustling and moaning coming from the bed area.

 “Oh my! I am so sorry. I was looking for someone.” I said before turning around.

 “Selvi? Is that you?” I heard a familiar voice say. I felt tears sting my eyes. I turned around slowly and reached for the light switch. I flipped it on and saw Nathan in bed with Rachel. I felt my heart burst into a million pieces right there.

 “Selvi!? What are you doing here?” Nathan asked.

 “Siv told me to come fix things because you were miserable. He obviously was mistaken. Sorry to interrupt.” I said.

 “Nath come back to bed babe.” Rachel said.

 “Rachel shut up.” Nathan snapped. “Selv please stay. We can work this out.” He pleaded.

 “No Nathan. It’s done. No worries. I get it. I am going to go home. Have a nice night.” I said sadly. I turned and walked out of the room and down the hallway.  Heard Rachel say something and Nathan telling her to fuck off. I continued down the stairs and to the door. Siva found me before I left. He saw the look on my face and didn’t say a word. I walked out of the house and down the street. I took off my heels and ran the ten blocks back to my house. I got to my flat and unlocked the door. I collapsed on the bed and cried. Who was I to think that everything would be ok after the way I acted. I heard a knock at the door and I got up and answered it. I was surprised to see Nathan standing there.

 “What are you doing here?” I asked.

 “I came after you.” He said.

 “Why? You are with Rachel now. You don’t need me.” I said.

 “No baby I was with Rachel because I am so empty without you that I needed anything to make the pain go away. You are my every thing and I love you. It has been and always will be you. No one matters but you to me.” He said.

 “Do you mean it?” I asked.

 “I wouldn’t have come and chased you if I didn’t mean it. I love you Selv.” He said. Before I could answer he was in my flat and had me in his arms and his lips on mine. The way he kissed me proved to me that he meant it. I put all of my emotions into the kiss. All of my anger, frustration, love, and anything else were in the kiss. We parted momentarily and we both were out of breath. That was a real kiss. We stood there looking into each others eyes. I was searching his for any sign that he was lying. I couldn't see anything in them except love with a hint of lust. I pulled him back to me and we resumed kissing. Our kisses got more urgent and heated. Nathan scooped me up and carried me to my bedroom and dropped me on my bed. We took turns undressing each other. I was soon in just my underwear and Nathan was in just his boxers. He was just taking off my bra when his phone went off. I was shocked when he got up and answered it.

"Nathan! What the hell!? We were kind of in the middle of something." I said angrily.

"Will you shut up for a bit Selvi I am on the phone." He replied grumpily.

"That's it. Get out." I said shortly. He said something into his phone and then turned to me. 

"Where were we?" He asked seductively.

"You were about to get your clothes on and get the hell out of my flat." I said hotly.

"You're joking." Nathan said. 

"No I am not joking. We were just about to have sex and you get a fucking phone call and answer it. What is wrong with you. Who was so important to you that you answered?!" I asked angrily snagging the phone out of his hands and unlocking it. I went to his recent calls. I saw who it was. "You are joking." I said.

"Who I talk to is my business." He said shortly.

"But seriously? We were going to get intimate and you answered Rachel calling you? Are you joking?! Or are you really just that stupid!?" I shouted at him.

"Rachel and I are friends. You know that. Drop it and lets carry on where we left off." He said approaching me.

"No. Get out. I am not coming second to anyone. Let alone a stupid bitch like Rachel. I deserve better than that." I yelled.

"You aren't coming second! I am here with you not her!" He shouted back.

"You answered your phone Nathan! How does that make me feel? Oh I'm not more important than a phone call. Awesome. I am so okay with that." I said sarcastically.

"Seriously? Just chill Selv. It isn't that big a deal." He said in an annoyed tone.

"No Nathan it is a big deal. We are done here. I thought you meant it when you said I was the one and all that but it was all just a lie to get me to sleep with you. I am not playing your game anymore." I said angrily.

"Fine whatever. Believe what ever you want. You are too crazy for me." He shouted at me. He started going around the room gathering up his clothes and getting dressed. He was dressed and headed for the door. I followed him. He got to the door and yanked it open. By now I had tears streaming down my face and was a complete mess. He turned and looked at me before he walked away. He had anger all over his face but his eyes softened when he saw how I was. 

"What happened Nathan. I thought we were happy." I said sadly.

"Things change. I need more." He said before turning and walking down the hall. I couldn't believe he just said that to me. I collapsed on the floor right there I couldn't take the feeling of my heart breaking. I managed to crawl inside and close the door and get in bed. I cried myself to sleep. I woke up the next morning hoping yesterday and last night had just been a bad dream. Judging by the mess in my room it wasn't. I felt the sadness engulf me. I was a strong person, but this heart break was a lot for me to deal with. I had been with Nathan for 4 years and just like that it was over. I promised myself I was going to pretend everything was ok and carry on with life. I stretched and got out of bed. I threw my hair into a messy bun and started going around my room straightening things up. My room was cleaned and straightened in less than hour. I was proud of that. I heard a weird ringing sound coming somewhere from outside of my room. I walked out and followed the sound. It was coming from a phone that was lying on the floor by the door. I knew that phone. It was Nathan's phone. He must have dropped it when he left last night. I picked it up and saw it was Rachel calling. I ignored the call. I know it is wrong to go through peoples phone but I was curious.I opened up his call log. Nothing abnormal there. Just Rachel and the boys. I exited that and opened his messages. There were conversations between him and the lads, with me from ages ago, and the most recent was a conversation with Rachel. I opened it. They were so flirty it was disgusting. She complained about everything. Nathan was flirty right back, and was acting all sweet like she was his girlfriend. What an ass. I pressed the home button and found his home screensaver was a picture of me and him. It was my favorite picture, taken the last time he was home. His little headline thing read "Together forever and always." I laughed. Who was he fooling. I was so angry and hurt by the conversation with Rachel and having him and I as his background that I threw his phone as hard as I could on the ground. Then I picked it up and did it again. After throwing it on the ground a few more times I picked it up and walked into the bathroom. I "Accidentally" dropped his phone in the toilet. I flushed it hoping it would go down, but was disappointed when it didn't. I didn't know what to do with it so I left it in the toilet. I know that destroying his phone was immature but I was upset and it did make me feel a whole lot better. I left his phone in the toilet and got dressed. I grabbed my phone and called Jay. I wanted some company so I asked Jay if he wanted to hang. He said yes of course and he came right over. Once he arrived we went and walked around town and did some shopping, and had some lunch. I had a great time and for that time I was with Jay I forgot all about the pain in my chest and the sadness that was crushing me. We had just arrived back at my flat and I went to pick out a movie when there was a knock at the door. I yelled at Jay to go answer the door. He listened and I heard him talking to someone. I yelled at him asking who it was and he yelled back that it was Nathan. He said that he was going to leave and let me and Nathan have some alone time. Great. I was alone with him. I had an idea why he was back here, but I wasn't sure and I was hoping it was for a different reason. My suspicion was confirmer when he came in and the first thing he said was "Did I leave my phone here". 

"Yeah you did." I replied shortly.

"Well where is it?" He asked.

"I took care of it." I said chuckling slightly.

"What did you do Selvi?" He asked suspiciously.

"I told you I took care of it." I said busting up laughing.

"Selvi, his isn't funny. Just give me my phone so I can leave." He snapped.

"No need to get all bitchy princess." I said to him.

"Just get me my phone I am not in the mood for this shit right now." He said angrily. Just wait until he saw what I did to his phone. 

"Fine. But you aren't going to like it when you get it back." I said smiling sweetly at him.

"What did you do." He asked slowly. I decided not to answer him. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed the gloves I used to do the dishes with and slipped them on. Nathan watched me the whole time. I left the kitchen and walked into the bathroom. I know Nathan saw where I went and I heard him shout."You didn't!". Oh yes I did. I pulled his phone out of the toilet and held it out in front of me and returned to where he was. He spotted his phone and his mouth dropped open. I dropped it in front of him and I heard it hit the ground with a satisfying thump. I smiled and pulled off my gloves. Oh man was he mad, i could see it bubbling up. I couldn't help but smile at my handiwork. I had cracked the screen and fried the circuitry. It was a dead phone for sure. I was proud of myself. I never took my eyes off Nathan. His look of shock was replaced with rage. I saw the anger in his eyes. 

"Well now you have your phone. You know the way out. Tootles love." I said throwing my gloves on the kitchen counter and walking to my room. 

"Selvi! What the hell is wrong with you!?" Nathan exploded. I didn't answer. I found my headphones and iPod and was listening to music effectively shutting him out. I was looking at a magazine and tapping my toe to the beat of the music when my magazine was torn from my hands and my headphones ripped out. I looked up and saw Nathan holding my magazine and headphones.

"What is your problem?!" I shouted at him.

"You are my problem!" He shouted right back.

"How am I your problem? I broke up with you yesterday! I am no longer anything to you remember?!" I yelled.

"You wrecked my phone! You are buying me another one!" He shouted.

"Don't bet on it love. Now please leave you are wasting my time." I said cooly.

"What the hell is wrong with you?!" He shouted.

"Do you really want to know or are you just asking?" I asked. I knew me doing this was making him angrier but I didn't care.

"You are so infuriating! You have serious issues Selv!" He yelled.

"Yeah? Well go tell Rachel about them." I said. I knew that what I just said was going to set him off.

"Leave Rachel out of this." He said hotly.

"Blah blah blah I am tired of hearing you defend Rachel. I get it she is cool. Whatever. Now please leave." I said.

"You owe me a new phone. Piss off Selv." He said before turning and walking out angrily. I followed him out and I heard a crunch. I looked down and saw that I stepped on Nathan's phone. I bent down and picked it up. I yelled at him, "Hey Nathan you left your phone." Before busting up laughing. He had it with me. I stopped laughing once I saw the look on his face. I threw his phone at him and ran into my bedroom and closed the door and locked it. Nathan banged on the door. I was curled up on my bed. I heard a click and looked up. Shit. He unlocked the door. I heard it slam open and Nathan walked up to me and pulled me off the bed. I thought he was going to hurt me, but instead he pulled me to him and kissed me passionately. I realized in that moment how much I wanted him. I grabbed his shirt roughly and pulled him closer to me. I needed him. I had my legs wrapped around his waist and I could feel he wanted me too. I shifted my weight backwards and we fell onto the bed. I scooted up farther on the bed and Nathan hovered over me. I saw the look in his eyes that drove me nuts. What I thought was anger turned into lust, desire, and love. It was never anyone but me. Rachel was no one. It was always me and always would be me. Nathan kissed me hungrily. I grabbed his shirt and pulled on it. He quickly pulled it over his head. I touched his bare torso. He took the opportunity to tear off my shirt and shorts. I yanked off his shorts and we resumed our kissing. Nathan pulled off my bra and panties and I slid off his boxers. My heart was pounding and my breathing was quick and erratic. One of Nathan's hands found it's way out from under me and was stoking my stomach. It moved from my stomach to my breasts. I was aching for him to touch me... to take me. His hands lightly caressed my skin leaving a trail of heat wherever it went. After reducing me to a puddle Nathan moved his hand down my stomach, down my thighs and slightly inside of them. I squirmed under his touch and begged him with my eves to give me what I wanted. He smiled cheekily at me and slowly move his hand higher up the inside of my leg. I was a mess. I needed him. I pushed myself down making his hand go higher. He was just inches away now. I moved my hand down and guided him up. He was finally there. He moved his fingers slightly and teased me. I moaned in frustration. He finally decided he was teased me enough and slowly inserted his fingers into me. He started shallow at first but slowly got deeper and deeper. He wiggled his fingers inside me causing one of the most incredible feelings I have ever had. I pushed myself down forcing his fingers to go deeper. I moaned in pleasure. He quickened the pace of his fingers and I could feel the heat build in my belly. I has breathing hard and fast. Nathan's mouth found mine and we started moving in synch. I was barely breathing. He continued the unrelenting pace with his fingers. I was getting closer and closer. There was something about the idea of him being so rough and angry that just turned me on so much. I broke our kiss and was gasping for air. His fingers kept moving at the quick pace and I soon fell to pieces. He kept his fingers moving prolonging my orgasm as long as I could take. He removed his fingers and smiled at me. I pulled him down to me and kissed him roughly. We rolled over and I was on top now. Nathan rolled on a condom as we were kissing. I broke the kiss and slowly lowered myself onto Nathan. The fulness I felt was incredible. I only took him in slightly. I was teasing him now. One thing I forgot was that he was stronger than me. He flipped us over and thrust into me roughly and fully. I gasped. I felt both pain and pleasure shoot through me. It felt so good. I had my hands on his back and dug my nails into his back, leaving scratch marks. I heard Nathan groan and started moving in and out in a progressively faster pace. Before long he was going so quick and hard I was bumping up against the wall. I liked angry Nathan. The fast pace was taking its toll on him and I could tell he was close. I clenched my muscles squeezing Nathan. I heard him gasp as I did it. I smiled. I kept clenching and unclenching my muscles driving him over the edge. He collapsed on me. We both laid there panting. Nathan rolled over and was laying next to me. I found Nathan's hand and grasped it in mine. He rolled over to face me. He tucked a strand of sweaty hair behind my ear. 

"You know I hate it when we fight, but I love it when we makeup." He said sweetly.

"I have to admit that was amazing. We should get mad more often." I said smiling at him.

"You know it will always be you Selvi." He said looking straight in my eyes.

I nodded. "I know." Was all I said. He pulled me close to him and gave me one kiss. 

"What about Rachel?" I asked.

"Rachel who?" He replied. Oh how I loved this boy. I pulled him roughly to me and started kissing him passionately. It was time for round two. I hated that we fought, but when we made up we did it right. He smiled into the kiss and flipped over so he was on top again.

"You ready?" He asked.