#lifething

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Hey!!! I’m missing the old me today, I don’t why?? It feels odd. It feels weird, as if I was someone else, and now ME ‘the new me’ is just some other person?? I miss it how I was.

Though, I’m much more mature, wise, responsible now but still I felt like something is not there. It’s missing what I really am. I hated being a responsible one. I loved to be pampered. I loved it when I used to get angry on small issues, and sometimes even on my own mistake, wanting someone else to come and calm me down; ofcourse apologising just to make me smile. 

I loved to fight. Loved it to the extent that I could fight with anybody at any time at any place. You know random cute fights. I loved to cook up stories in my mind that are far from reality but feels so real as I think about them again and again. I was funny, I was more lively, carefree, happy, positive, lovely atleast I think so. I was just so into a moment everytime forgetting all about what might can happen in future.

But it’s me a different me. Complete opposite. I don’t fight anymore, turned out to be peace lover, no stories, no cute little fantacies, no craziness, no drama and that’s something unbelievable after being called as ‘Drama Queen’ for so many years. I know people change overtime because Change is the only constant. Situations, circumstances lead us to change but it’s difficult to accept. It’s not at all pleasing. It’s not like I regret the way I’m now but it’s just I was contented more with what I was then what I’m. And I guess SATISFACTION comes after CONTENTMENT and later is all what we need more to accept ourselves, to live the life in a better way.

Understood or understood?? Lmao. 

Those who had gone through this, will definitely understand this. 

Yes, sometimes it feels nothing. And I guess it’s bad to feel nothing, or is it good?? Still trying to figure out. 

But surely it’s weird. You don’t even understand that are u even feeling something or not. I mean not feeling something is itself a feel na?? Haina?? 

OMG !! I feel like aaaaa.......... (Maro mujhe maro :/ , if you know this)

Mind is a mess and feelings are a huge mess !!!

What’s next?? No more words to explain, coz there’s no more feeling.