#lifetalk

We talked for hours about life

It might be hard to forget and forgive, and also to be heal after the heart break-after the storm, but one day all the why's will turn to 'Thank you'; and you wishing for will turn to 'Okay."

You will be okay not today, but soon.

As I was working on my personal projects, late at night as I always do (finishing around 2 to 3 am), I went to bed and started my night thinking (I have to clear my thoughts so I can sleep better). I started thinking about my way to the dorms tomorrow. While in the middle of that thought, I asked myself "should I buy cigarettes on my way? should I?". This got me thinking: "If I had a pack on me then I could give one to someone." (Almost everyone in my class that smoke gave me at least one.)

The second reason was that when you smoke with someone, I feel that it unlocks more social potencial. By that I mean that you can talk to them easier about stuff. (It seems to be that case for me at least.) I do it for the social values. Suddenly after that I got the weirdest feeling, not painful but definitely there. In my head I had thoughts like "Man, I could go for a smoke right now" I now know what any addict feels when they don't have have their thing. It's not very pleasant feeling, more on that later

Another addiction of mine and most of young population, computers, smart devices, technology. Just as it was 30 to 40 years ago with television, it's kinda the same with computers (mainly computer games for me). But after some time, it looses it magic. You simply don't feel joy out of these things you used to, mostly because of growing up and getting more possibilities in life. I used to play tons of games, now I play like 3 total and most of my time I focus on projects, programming, art and music. Yes, you could be doing something better than playing games and being on the computer all day, as parents like to say. I do spend a lot of time on the computer, as long as I have something to do or something to work on. When I don't, then I move to other projects like sketching and doing architecture (dunno how to use this word cuz I almost never hear it, but you get the point.)

If I do things, it's only because of my social value. Now don't start smoking out of the blue, I do it because in the place I live in, there's no other option to get by socially than smoke, drink and having a new girlfriend every week.

Do what you have to do.

Human greatness,

  Our presumed intelligence.

But why must we believe things others tell us?

    Wolves with eyes,

                                 as cold as the winter sky.

Hold us close on the ropes of ventriloquy.

Pro-life and pro-war, what an irony that occurs.

Overpopulation, has that lead to complication?

Our small blue planet, are the resources truly infinite?

That might not matter, when we are under nuclear banter.

Human greatness,

                    This is what it has made us.