When you left me it changed my life, leaving me in a place where I didn't expect to be.
Terrified of nightmares, afraid to fall asleep.
I paid your cell in advance, for an extra nine months, wishing you'd callllllll me.
I imagined your voice, every day long.
Living with the devil, asking him, why he did me so wronnnnng.
Year after year, time ticks on, opposite of heaven, buried up to my neck, in a place for you I still lonnng.
Even with someone, I know it's wronnnnng, you were just the one.
Nearly nine years later, i'm still not married, I've lost two kids, friends killed a friend, and I almost got charged with murder case.
Ohhhhh pleaaase, take this curse off of me. Just a head on a body, I've lost feeling in me kneeees.
Traumatized melodies have given me a permanent headache.
You kicked me repeatedllly.
You secretly left, and swept me off my feet, I plead and wept heatedllly.
I hate you, I fucking hate you so much I hate myself. Instead of leaving, I wished you woulda just killed yourself.
The truth remains, life is tuff ass fuck.
Stuck, unstuck, good luck, bad luck, it sucks, struck by lightning, on a sunny day.
Called for help, and got struck by a fire truck. What else can I say, that fact remains, life's just a cliché.
Love on valentines day, thanks on thanksgiving, shit I'm starving to death, and about to pass out, every days judgement day.
It's something we can't escape, so...... I enjoy the warmth in sun rays.
Heaven, instead of up, it might be side.... side..... sideways, it might be ablaze, what do I know, volcanoes in the background will probably overflow, at my wedding, and with my luck, I'll get marries tomorrow, just to turn her into a widow the next.
I'll die with fucking rug burn on my legs, ass to chest, undressing her in the living room and sex.... sex.... sexing her on the carpet. Life's a bluff. It's never long enough, or it's lags in shit kinda like constipation, and hurts to damn slow.
It's actually a joke, try to clap.... clap.... clap, with two broken hands. Thought so.
What'd you expect...... so, I Grin...... Grin..... Grin when I'm upset. ---
My chest hurts, whys my heart fighting this fight, why can't these demons in me, just call it a night?
Mental games create migraines, the pain travels down my neck and into my teeth.
Then through, my blood stream.
The air around mees getting hard to breathe...
I'm gonna double up on my meds tonight, stars begin to break, beneath these feet of mine, the ground starts to shake.
Who wants the energy within me.
I beg and shake christ, look him in face, christs sake!
End this misery of mine, I'm dying inside.
Do I have to literally turn my back on you?
Yeah I've talked crap about you, I'm confused, my life's nothing but shit.
I'm unfit, permit me to, slit my wrists, I might as well slice above my ankles too, and show you how to really commit... take my last hit, as I pray to whomevers willing to accept me, with all my mistakes.
I'm shivering cold, swetting from regrets, I'm drowning.
I'm always messed up, and stresses in this head of mine, my last requests for you just to listen for once, lay my soul to rest.
Stop making me fail these tests, when everyone around me keeps getting the best of things.
Shall I, just take a few more pills with this juice, with this dooooob, all I wanna do is, go into cardiac arrest.
I wanna escape this life of mine and travel invisibly.
I'm already alone, I'm already a ghost. ---
