#licd

Lonely Identity Compulsion Disorder (LICD)

Summary

A MUD where someone feels the compulsive need to identify with terms they perceive as "lonely". (Term here can refer to any identity)

Perception Triggers

Different people with LICD have different reasons that they may perceive an identity as lonely. These reasons are called perception triggers.

Some possible perception triggers are:

No-one they personally know identifies with the term

No-one in their system identifies with the term

No-one in their friend group identifies with the term

Others expressing that no one(or few people) identifies with the term

The coining of the term or posts about the term having a low number of notes

Their being little to no representation of the term

This is just some examples, anything could theoretically be a perception trigger. They may also be occasions where one perceives a term as lonely with no trigger.

Compulsions

Once an individual perceives a term as lonely, they begin experiencing complusions relating to identifying as/becoming the term to relieve the perceived loneliness of the term. These compulsions can be any severity.

Some ways these compulsions can manifest are:

Compulsions to identify as the term

Compulsions to add term to hoards/id lists

Compulsions to transtion to the identity

Compulsions to identify as trans- the term (or iter- if term is already a trans-id)

Compulsions to force oneself to feel like the id

Compulsions to research the id and things related to it

Compulsions to refer to oneself as the term

Compulsions to convince themselves they were always the term

Etc

One may also have compulsions to look for new lonely terms.

Lonely- Prefix

A person with LICD can use the lonely- prefix for ids one identifies with due to perceiving it as lonely (full coining for lonely-id at end of this post).

Validation Issues

Due to ones identification with the term being caused by compulsions rather than the usual causes, one may experience issues feeling valid in their identification with the term.

Some examples of issues are:

Imposter Syndrome in regards to identification

Guilt over not "truely" being the term

Heightened dysphoria around the id

A general feeling fakeness around ones identification

Etc.

Note: Even though one may have issues feeling valid, they are. Lonely-ids are just as valid as all other ids.

Side effects

Those with LICD may exprience other effects related to this disorder. None of these are inherent to this disorder.

Thes can include:

Personfication of identity terms generally, not just in the context of loneliness

Issues with hoarding identity terms

General feelings of impostor syndrome around one's identity even with non-lonely-ids

Believing all terms "deserve" a large amount of people identifying with them

Encouraging others to identify with terms they perceive as lonely

Flag Meaning

Purple and blue are colours I associate with loneliness. The yellow and orange represent the relief to this loneliness through identification with it, the uneven waves represent the validation issues with this identification.

Lonely-ID

Identifying with a term due perceiving it as lonely. Mostly intended for those with LICD, tho can be used by others who may experience similar feelings.

So, I saw this on Facebook and just had the thought.

Well, I’ve done nothing of importance since last I wrote except watch Maliah and Elyn interrogate one of the assholes (the warlock that threatened Squirt). I can’t for the life of me tell if he was actually flirting with Maliah or just being an asshole, but regardless to say, Kusuyo was not pleased with my ongoing commentary behind the mirror. Understandable and Bahamut knows that I need to get that woman a giftcard to something. Maybe a spa? A restaurant that is nice?

I messed up with basic people interactions again, Pika. I really hope she doesn’t think I’m trying to bribe her or anything but I saw that throbbing vein in her temple and she threatened to throw me out of the station. I didn’t mean to upset anyone. Perhaps if I send it by courier with an apology note that will make her feel better? I really don’t want to upset her further.

I don’t mean to hurt or confuse or annoy anyone. It just somehow happens and sometimes I do it because their reactions are funny.

Also, Maliah realized I spoke Sylvan (finally). It was hilarious to watch. I almost convinced her that I spoke whatever language (context clues are awesome!) she tried in return, but I don’t, sad to say. 

Apparently drawing dicks on a warlock’s spellbook will not draw the patron out. On the other hand, it is amazingly fun to write cusswords in charcoal on said book.

That warlock is still a dick and I hope he gets taken by the Wild Hunt. 

xoxoxo