#lettersoftemptation

It leaves me weak and needing

This need to follow the mental path into non-existenting

Where are you when I need you most

I miss the hours we would chat

The willingness to stay up late for that one extra word

Late night thoughts flow through me

I cannot express my need for that time is not now

The willingness to be in pain for brief moments

Just to feel something

Am I the same

Will I ever be who I once was

Will I sink and never break the surface again.

Among the lost thoughts clarity sparks, light so bright. reality mentally equals my sanity. may I never be sane again, for your presence brings me chaotic peace. fear never fail we change. among the lost feelings I am falling. take me far away from these feelings.

Dear never fail me, you await in my wake. feelings making me whole. You catch me as I tumble into oblivion. Lift beyond the scope.

How do you have both

The passion

The fire

The heat

With the intellect of ages

The passion for flame

With the mental capacity to battle the great

Can two be one

Or shall they always fall into one another

Can I take a step back

For my eyes are blurry

Can you be my clarity

Pop a valuim

Can you fathom my heart my mind my energy

Does you vibe run along my wave length

Can you taste the electrical current

Running through my veins

Can you take me to new heights

Demon beneathe the skin flames lick along your skin

Grown a flavour for your danger

Your fever has me reeling

I can no longer catch my breath

Bring upon the shame show me the pain

Bring your worst

Who shall be standing at the last stroke

Only the amethyst eyes shall gaze upon

The truly vulnerable

Bring me back from the cusp

Hold me in your embrace

Do you think as the world falls apart

Will it really matter if we go extinct

Will the world be better with our absence

Are we so self righteous that we need our existence to span decades centuries millenia or can we just accept that one day humans may fade from this existence the world will go on without us

We live our lives in this day and age and that is enough to go on with your day

Enjoy the beauty around you as it is

In the small moments

In the monumental sights

In the breathe of fresh air

Take it all in for what it is in the moment

Say goodbye as you depart

Hold the memories close

Reflect on mistakes

Live everyday for what it offers

Be close with yourself watch out for your sanity

Keep balance when the cracks appear and shifts take you away from where you once were

One piece at a time

To say I love you, has many meanings

To say I miss you, leads to many things

To say see you soon, Carry's weight beyond which we do not know

To say goodbye, it is never known to be the final time

To say hello, is never interpreted the way you perceived

To say I hate you , has lasting affects

To say too late, is closing doors

To say your welcome, is more kind then you know

To say forever , always comes with a timeline

Can we kiss in the shadow of forever

I miss your lips

You chase away into nothingness

Leave me with your lips

Do our kisses change as time passes

As we wade through phases

Do they meld change

Shift to swift to catch

Do you taste the same

Do your lips still tingle as we linger

Will you forget the way they feel

If we were to part

Would you kiss me one last time

A kiss mixed with salty remains

I fear we mingle with distance

Have we faded from were we once began

Or has it all stayed the same slipped right by on to forever

Fear me no more

In another world

I do not exist

In another world

You moved away

In another life

You pursued your dreams to become a marine biologist

In another life

You never settled

You never became a mother

In another life

You moved to Vancouver

To go to school

Stayed with family

Swam in the waves

Explored the ocean

Made beautiful memories

In another life you traveled to dutchlands to meet your relatives

In another life you left your mother behind to heal explore yourself to full potential

In another life

You spent your energy on your own growth and maturity

In another life you are beautiful motivated you grew your life for you

In another life you have a beautiful apartment decorated with gorgeous drawings of your research

You have two cats that cuddle you every night

In another life you dated and explored the world of love

But one such as you could never get held down

In another life your happy

In another life you've never met me

I can't quite grasp these feelings

Little grits of sand slipping through my finger tips

Am I unloved , unmotivated, unhappy , unsatisfied, unstable

Lacking the lacker in which makes me shine

Sleep is this elusive creature twirling around me as I struggle to swim among the dreams

I am stuck in this idea of what life should be

I am me who is me

I am unaware of where my next steps may lie

Beyond the knowledge, without a grasp

I free fall when will I stop and take a breathe

I am a passenger these days who really sees through my eyes, I am to listless to recognize